| THE LIFE AND ADVENTURES
OF ROBINSON CRUSOE
By Daniel Defoe
I was born in the year 1632, in the city of York, of a good family, though
not of that country, my father being a foreigner of Bremen, who settled first at
Hull: he got a good estate by merchandise, and leaving off his trade, lived
afterwards at York, from whence he had married my mother, whose relations were
named Robinson, a very good family in that country, and from whom I was called
Robinson Kreutznaer; but by the usual corruption of words in England, we are now
called, nay we call ourselves, and write our name Crusoe, and so my companions
always called me.
I had two elder brothers, one of which was lieutenant-colonel to an English
regiment of foot in Flanders, formerly commanded by the famous Colonel Lockhart,
and was killed at the battle near Dunkirk against the Spaniards. What became of
my second brother I never knew, any more than my father or mother did know what
was become of me.
Being the third son of the family, and not bred to any trade, my head began
to be filled very early with rambling thoughts: my father, who was very ancient,
had given me a competent share of learning, as far as house education and a
country free-school generally go, and designed me for the law; but I would be
satisfied with nothing but going to sea; and my inclination to this led me so
strongly against the will, nay the commands of my father, and against all the
entreaties and persuasions of my mother and other friends, that there seemed to
be something fatal in that propension of nature tending directly to the life of
misery which was to befal me.
My father, a wise and grave man, gave me serious and excellent counsel
against what he foresaw was my design. He called me one morning into his
chamber, where he was confined by the gout, and expostulated very warmly with me
upon this subject: he asked me what reasons more than a mere wandering
inclination I had for leaving my father's house and my native country, where I
might be well introduced, and had a prospect of raising my fortune by
application and industry, with a life of ease and pleasure. He told me it was
for men of desperate fortunes on one hand, or of aspiring superior fortunes on
the other, who went abroad upon adventures, to rise by enterprise, and make
themselves famous in undertakings of a nature out of the common road; that these
things were all either too far above me, or too far below me; that mine was the
middle state, or what might be called the upper station of _low life_, which he
had found by long experience was the best state in the world, the most suited to
human happiness, not exposed to the miseries and hardships, the labour and
sufferings of the mechanic part of mankind, and not embarrassed with the pride,
luxury, ambition, and envy of the upper part of mankind, he told me, I might
judge of the happiness of this state by this one thing, viz. that this was the
state of life which all other people envied; that kings have frequently lamented
the miserable consequences of being born to great things, and wish they had been
placed in the middle of the two extremes, between the mean and the great; that
the wise man gave his testimony to this as the just standard of true felicity,
when he prayed to have neither poverty nor riches.
He bid me observe it, and I should always find, that the calamities of life
were shared among the upper and lower part of mankind; but that the middle
station had the fewest disasters, and was not exposed to so many vicissitudes as
the higher or lower part of mankind; nay, they were not subjected to so many
distempers and uneasinesses, either of body or mind, as those were, who by
vicious living, luxury, and extravagances, on one hand, or by hard labour, want
of necessaries, and mean or insufficient diet, on the other hand, bring
distempers upon themselves by the natural consequences of their way of living;
that the middle station of life was calculated for all kind of virtues and all
kind of enjoyments; that peace and plenty were the handmaids of a middle
fortune; that temperance, moderation, quietness, health, society, all agreeable
diversions, and all desirable pleasures, were the blessings attending the middle
station of life; that this way men went silently and smoothly through the world,
and comfortably out of it, not embarrassed with the labours of the hands or of
the head, not sold to the life of slavery for daily bread, or harassed with
perplexed circumstances, which rob the soul of peace, and the body of rest; not
enraged with the passion of envy, or secret burning lust of ambition for great
things; but in easy circumstances sliding gently through the world, and sensibly
tasting the sweets of living, without the bitter, feeling that they are happy,
and learning by every day's experience to know it more sensibly.
After this, he pressed me earnestly, and in the most affectionate manner, not
to play the young man, not to precipitate myself into miseries which nature and
the station of life I was born in seemed to have provided against; that I was
under no necessity of seeking my bread; that he would do well for me, and
endeavour to enter me fairly into the station of life which he had been just
recommending to me; and that if I was not very easy and happy in the world, it
must be my mere fate or fault that must hinder it, and that he should have
nothing to answer for, having thus discharged his duty in warning me against
measures which he knew would be to my hurt: in a word, that as he would do very
kind things for me if I would stay and settle at home as he directed, so he
would not have so much hand in my misfortunes, as to give me any encouragement
to go away: and to close all, he told me I had my elder brother for an example,
to whom he had used the same earnest persuasions to keep him from going into the
Low Country wars, but could not prevail, his young desires prompting him to run
into the army, where he was killed; and though he said he would not cease to
pray for me, yet he would venture to say to me, that if I did take this foolish
step, God would not bless me, and I would have leisure hereafter to reflect upon
having neglected his counsel when there might be none to assist in my recovery.
I observed in this last part of his discourse, which was truly prophetic,
though I suppose my father did not know it to be so himself; I say, I observed
the tears run down his face very plentifully, and especially when he spoke of my
brother who was killed; and that when he spoke of my having leisure to repent,
and none to assist me, he was so moved, that he broke off the discourse, and
told me, his heart was so full he could say no more to me.
I was sincerely affected with this discourse, as indeed who could be
otherwise? and I resolved not to think of going abroad any more, but to settle
at home according to my father's desire. But, alas! a few days wore it all off;
and in short, to prevent any of my father's farther importunities, in a few
weeks after I resolved to run quite away from him. However, I did not act so
hastily neither as my first heat of resolution prompted, but I took my mother,
at a time when I thought her a little pleasanter than ordinary, and told her,
that my thoughts were so entirely bent upon seeing the world, that I should
never settle to any thing with resolution enough to go through with it, and my
father had better give me his consent than force me to go without it; that I was
now eighteen years old, which was too late to go apprentice to a trade, or clerk
to an attorney; that I was sure, if I did, I should never serve out my time, and
I should certainly run away from my master before my time was out, and go to
sea; and if she would speak to my father to let me go one voyage abroad, if I
came home again, and did not like it, I would go no more, and I would promise by
a double diligence to recover that time I had lost.
This put my mother into a great passion: she told me, she knew it would be to
no purpose to speak to my father upon any such subject; that he knew too well
what was my interest to give his consent to any such thing so much for my hurt;
and that she wondered how I could think of any such thing after such a discourse
as I had had with my father, and such kind and tender expressions as she knew my
father had used to me; and that, in short, if I would ruin myself, there was no
help for me; but I might depend I should never have their consent to it: that
for her part she would not have so much hand in my destruction; and I should
never have it to say, that my mother was willing when my father was not.
Though my mother refused to move it to my father, yet, as I have heard
afterwards, she reported all the discourse to him, and that my father, after
shewing a great concern at it, said to her with a sigh, "That boy might be happy
if he would stay at home; but if he goes abroad, he will be the most miserable
wretch that was ever born; I can give no consent to it."
It was not till almost a year after this that I broke loose, though, in the
meantime, I continued obstinately deaf to all proposals of settling to business,
and frequently expostulating with my father and mother about their being so
positively determined against what they knew my inclinations prompted me to. But
being one day at Hull, where I went casually, and without any purpose of making
an elopement that time; but I say, being there, and one of my companions being
going by sea to London, in his father's ship, and prompting me to go with them,
with the common allurement of seafaring men, viz. that it should cost me nothing
for my passage, I consulted neither father or mother any more, not so much as
sent them word of it; but leaving them to hear of it as they might, without
asking God's blessing, or my father's, without any consideration of
circumstances or consequences, and in an ill hour, God knows, on the first of
September, 1651, I went on board a ship bound for London. Never any young
adventurer's misfortunes, I believe, began sooner, or continued longer than
mine. The ship was no sooner gotten out of the Humber, but the wind began to
blow, and the waves to rise in a most frightful manner; and, as I had never been
at sea before, I was most inexpressibly sick in body, and terrified in mind. I
began now seriously to reflect upon what I had done, and how justly I was
overtaken by the judgment of Heaven for my wicked leaving my father's house, and
abandoning my duty; all the good counsel of my parents, my father's tears and my
mother's entreaties, came now fresh into my mind; and my conscience, which was
not yet come to the pitch of hardness to which it has been since, reproached me
with the contempt of advice, and the breach of my duty to God and my father.
All this while the storm increased, and the sea, which I had never been upon
before, went very high, though nothing like what I have seen many times since;
no, nor like what I saw a few days after: but it was enough to affect me then,
who was but a young sailor, and had never known any thing of the matter. I
expected every wave would have swallowed us up, and that every time the ship
fell down, as I thought, in the trough or hollow of the sea, we should never
rise more; and in this agony of mind I made many vows and resolutions, that if
it would please God here to spare my life this one voyage, if ever I got once my
foot upon dry land again I would go directly home to my father, and never set it
into a ship again while I lived; that I would take his advice, and never run
myself into such miseries as these any more. Now I saw plainly the goodness of
his observations about the middle station of life, how easy, how comfortably he
had lived all his days, and never had been exposed to tempests at sea, or
troubles on shore; and I resolved that I would, like a true repenting prodigal,
go home to my father.
These wise and sober thoughts continued all the while the storm continued,
and indeed some time after; but the next day the wind was abated, and the sea
calmer, and I began to be a little inured to it: however, I was very grave for
all that day, being also a little sea-sick still; but towards night the weather
cleared up, the wind was quite over, and a charming fine evening followed; the
sun went down perfectly clear, and rose so the next morning; and having little
or no wind, and a smooth sea, the sun shining upon it, the sight was, as I
thought, the most delightful that ever I saw.
I had slept well in the night, and was now no more sea-sick, but very
cheerful, looking with wonder upon the sea that was so rough and terrible the
day before, and could be so calm and so pleasant in so little time after. And
now, lest my good resolutions should continue, my companion, who had indeed
enticed me away, comes to me: "Well, Bob," says he, (clapping me upon the
shoulder) "how do you do after it? I warrant you were frighted, wa'n't you, last
night, when it blew but a capful of wind?"--"A capful do you call it?" said I;
"it was a terrible storm."--"A storm you fool you," replied he, "do you call
that a storm? why it was nothing at all; give us but a good ship and sea-room,
and we think nothing of such a squall of wind as that; but you're but a
fresh-water sailor, Bob. Come, let us make a bowl of punch, and we'll forget all
that; do you see what charming weather it is now?" To make short this sad part
of my story, we went the old way of all sailors; the punch was made, and I was
made drunk with it; and in that one night's wickedness I drowned all my
repentance, all my reflections upon my past conduct, and all my resolutions for
my future. In a word, as the sea was returned to its smoothness of surface and
settled calmness by the abatement of that storm, so the hurry of my thoughts
being over, my fears and apprehensions of being swallowed up by the sea being
forgotten, and the current of my former desires returned, I entirely forgot the
vows and promises that I made in my distress. I found, indeed, some intervals of
reflection, and the serious thoughts did, as it were, endeavour to return again
sometimes; but I shook them off, and roused myself from them as it were from a
distemper, and applying myself to drinking and company, soon mastered the return
of those fits, for so I called them; and I had in five or six days got as
complete a victory over conscience, as any young fellow that resolved not to be
troubled with it could desire: but I was to have another trial for it still; and
Providence, as in such cases generally it does, resolved to leave me entirely
without excuse: for if I would not take this for a deliverance, the next was to
be such a one as the worst and most hardened wretch among us would confess both
the danger and the mercy.
The sixth day of our being at sea we came into Yarmouth Roads; the wind
having been contrary, and the weather calm, we had made but little way since the
storm. Here we were obliged to come to anchor, and here we lay, the wind
continuing contrary, viz. at south-west, for seven or eight days, during which
time a great many ships from Newcastle came into the same roads, as the common
harbour where the ships might wait for a wind for the river.
We had not, however, rid here so long, but should have tided it up the river,
but that the wind blew too fresh; and after we had lain four or five days, blew
very hard. However, the roads being reckoned as good as a harbour, the anchorage
good, and our ground tackle very strong, our men were unconcerned, and not in
the least apprehensive of danger, but spent the time in rest and mirth, after
the manner of the sea; but the eighth day in the morning the wind increased, and
we had all hands at work to strike our topmasts, and make every thing snug and
close, that the ship might ride as easy as possible. By noon the sea went very
high indeed, and our ship rid _forecastle in_, shipped several seas, and we
thought once or twice our anchor had come home; upon which our master ordered
out the sheet anchor; so that we rode with two anchors ahead, and the cables
veered out to the better end.
By this time it blew a terrible storm indeed; and now I began to see terror
and amazement in the faces even of the seamen themselves. The master, though
vigilant in the business of preserving the ship, yet as he went in and out of
his cabin by me, I could hear him softly to himself say several times, "Lord be
merciful to us! we shall be all lost, we shall be all undone!" and the like.
During these first hurries I was stupid, lying still in my cabin, which was in
the steerage, and cannot describe my temper: I could ill reassume the first
penitence which I had so apparently trampled upon, and hardened myself against:
I thought the bitterness of death had been past, and that this would be nothing
like the first: but when the master himself came by me, as I said just now, and
said we should be all lost, I was dreadfully frighted: I got up out of my cabin,
and looked out; but such a dismal sight I never saw; the sea went mountains
high, and broke upon us every three or four minutes: when I could look about, I
could see nothing but distress round us: two ships that rid near us, we found,
had cut their masts by the board, being deep loaden; and our men cried out, that
a ship which rid about a mile ahead of us was foundered. Two more ships being
driven from their anchors, were run out of the roads to sea, at all adventures,
and that with not a mast standing. The light ships fared the best, as not so
much labouring in the sea; but two or three of them drove, and came close by us,
running away with only their sprit-sail out before the wind.
Towards evening the mate and boatswain begged the master of our ship to let
them cut away the fore-mast, which he was very unwilling to do: but the
boatswain protesting to him, that if he did not, the ship would founder, he
consented; and when they had cut away the fore-mast, the main-mast stood so
loose, and shook the ship so much, they were obliged to cut her away also, and
make a clear deck.
Any one may judge what a condition I must be in at all this, who was but a
young sailor, and who had been in such a fright before at but a little. But if I
can express at this distance the thoughts I had about me at that time, I was in
tenfold more horror of mind upon account of my former convictions, and the
having returned from them to the resolutions I had wickedly taken at first, than
I was at death itself; and these, added to the terror of the storm, put me in
such a condition, that I can by no words describe it. But the worst was not come
yet; the storm continued with such fury, that the seamen themselves acknowledged
they had never known a worse. We had a good ship, but she was deep loaden, and
wallowed in the sea, that the seamen every now and then cried out, she would
founder. It was my advantage in one respect, that I did not know what they meant
by founder till I inquired. However, the storm was so violent, that I saw what
is not often seen, the master, the boatswain, and some others more sensible than
the rest, at their prayers, and expecting every moment when the ship would go to
the bottom. In the middle of the night, and under all the rest of our
distresses, one of the men that had been down on purpose to see, cried out, we
had sprang a leak; another said, there was four foot water in the hold. Then all
hands were called to the pump. At that very word my heart, as I thought, died
within me, and I fell backwards upon the side of my bed where I sat, into the
cabin. However, the men roused me, and told me, that I that was able to do
nothing before, was as well able to pump as another; at which I stirred up, and
went to the pump and worked very heartily. While this was doing, the master
seeing some light colliers, who, not able to ride out the storm, were obliged to
slip and run away to sea, and would come near us, ordered to fire a gun as a
signal of distress. I, who knew nothing what that meant, was so surprised, that
I thought the ship had broke, or some dreadful thing happened. In a word, I was
so surprised, that I fell down in a swoon. As this was a time when every body
had his own life to think of, nobody minded me, or what was become of me; but
another man stept up to the pump, and thrusting me aside with his foot, let me
lie, thinking I had been dead; and it was a great while before I came to myself.
We worked on; but the water increasing in the hold, it was apparent that the
ship would founder; and though the storm began to abate a little; yet as it was
not possible she could swim till we might run into a port, so the master
continued firing guns for help; and a light ship, who had rid it out just ahead
of us, ventured a boat out to help us. It was with the utmost hazard the boat
came near us, but it was impossible for as to get on board, or for the boat to
lie near the ship's side, till at last the men rowing very heartily, and
venturing their lives to save ours, our men cast them a rope over the stern with
a buoy to it, and then veered it out a great length, which they after great
labour and hazard took hold of, and we hauled them close under our stern, and
got all into their boat. It was to no purpose for them or us, after we were in
the boat, to think of reaching to their own ship; so all agreed to let her
drive, and only to pull her in towards shore as much as we could; and our master
promised them, that if the boat was staved upon shore he would make it good to
their master: so partly rowing and partly driving, our boat went away to the
northward, sloping towards the shore almost as far as Winterton-Ness.
We were not much more than a quarter of an hour out of our ship but we saw
her sink, and then I understood for the first time what was meant by a ship
foundering in the sea. I must acknowledge I had hardly eyes to look up when the
seamen told me she was sinking; for from that moment they rather put me into the
boat, than that I might be said to go in; my heart was, as it were, dead within
me, partly with fright, partly with horror of mind, and the thoughts of what was
yet before me.
While we were in this condition, the men yet labouring at the oar to bring
the boat near the shore, we could see, when our boat mounting the waves we were
able to see the shore, a great many people running along the shore to assist us
when we should come near; but we made but slow way towards the shore, nor were
we able to reach the shore, till being past the light-house at Winterton, the
shore falls off to the westward towards Cromer, and so the land broke off a
little the violence of the wind. Here we got in, and, though not without much
difficulty, got all safe on shore, and walked afterwards on foot to Yarmouth,
where, as unfortunate men, we were used with great humanity, as well by the
magistrates of the town, who assigned us good quarters, as by particular
merchants and owners of ships, and had money given us sufficient to carry us
either to London or back to Hull, as we thought fit.
Had I now had the sense to have gone back to Hull, and have gone home, I had
been happy, and my father, an emblem of our blessed Saviour's parable, had even
killed the fatted calf for me; for hearing the ship I went away in was cast away
in Yarmouth Roads, it was a great while before he had any assurance that I was
not drowned.
But my ill fate pushed me on now with an obstinacy that nothing could resist;
and though I had several times loud calls from my reason and my more composed
judgment to go home, yet I had no power to do it. I know not what to call this,
nor will I urge that it is a secret over-ruling decree that hurries us on to be
the instruments of our own destruction, even though it be before us, and that we
push upon it with our eyes open. Certainly nothing but some such decreed
unavoidable misery attending, and which it was impossible for me to escape,
could have pushed me forward against the calm reasonings and persuasions of my
most retired thoughts, and against two such visible instructions as I had met
with in my first attempt.
My comrade, who had helped to harden me before, and who was the master's son,
was now less forward than I. The first time he spoke to me after we were at
Yarmouth, which was not till two or three days, for we were separated in the
town to several quarters; I say, the first time he saw me, it appeared his tone
was altered, and looking very melancholy, and shaking his head, asked me how I
did, and telling his father who I was, and how I had come this voyage only for a
trial, in order to go farther abroad; his father turning to me with a very grave
and concerned tone, "Young man," says he, "you ought never to go to sea any
more; you ought to take this for a plain and visible token that you are not to
be a seafaring man."--"Why, Sir," said I, "will you go to sea no more?" "That is
another case," said he; "it is my calling, and therefore my duty; but as you
made this voyage for a trial, you see what a taste Heaven has given you of what
you are to expect if you persist: perhaps this is all befallen us on your
account, like Jonah in the ship of Tarshish. Pray," continues he, "what are you?
and on what account did you go to sea?" Upon that I told him some of my story;
at the end of which he burst out with a strange kind of passion; "What had I
done," says he, "that such an unhappy wretch should come into my ship? I would
not set my foot in the same ship with thee again for a thousand pounds." This
indeed was, as I said, an excursion of his spirits, which were yet agitated by
the sense of his loss, and was farther than he could have authority to go.
However, he afterwards talked very gravely to me, exhorted me to go back to my
father, and not tempt Providence to my ruin; told me I might see a visible hand
of Heaven against me. "And young man," said he, "depend upon it, if you do not
go back, wherever you go, you will meet with nothing but disasters and
disappointments, till your father's words are fulfilled upon you."
We parted soon after; for I made him little answer, and I saw him no more:
which way he went, I know not. As for me, having some money in my pocket, I
travelled to London by land; and there, as well as on the road, had many
struggles with myself, what course of life I should take, and whether I should
go home, or go to sea.
As to going home, shame opposed the best motions that offered to my thoughts;
and it immediately occurred to me how I should be laughed at among the
neighbours, and should be ashamed to see, not my father and mother only, but
even every body else; from whence I have since often observed, how incongruous
and irrational the common temper of mankind is, especially of youth, to that
reason which ought to guide them in such cases, viz. that they are not ashamed
to sin, and yet are ashamed to repent; nor ashamed of the action for which they
ought justly to be esteemed fools, but are ashamed of the returning, which only
can make them be esteemed wise men.
In this state of life however I remained some time, uncertain what measures
to take, and what course of life to lead. An irresistible reluctance continued
to going home; and as I stayed a while, the remembrance of the distress I had
been in wore off; and as that abated, the little motion I had in my desires to a
return wore off with it, till at last I quite laid aside the thoughts of it, and
looked out for a voyage.
That evil influence which carried me first away from my father's house, that
hurried me into the wild and indigested notion of raising my fortune; and that
impressed those conceits so forcibly upon me, as to make me deaf to all good
advice, and to the entreaties and even the command of my father: I say, the same
influence, whatever it was, presented the most unfortunate of all enterprises to
my view; and I went on board a vessel bound to the coast of Africa; or, as our
sailors vulgarly call it, a voyage to Guinea.
It was my great misfortune that in all these adventures I did not ship myself
as a sailor; whereby, though I might indeed have worked a little harder than
ordinary, yet at the same time I had learnt the duty and office of a
foremastman; and in time might have qualified myself for a mate or lieutenant,
if not for a master. But as it was always my fate to choose for the worse, so I
did here; for having money in my pocket, and good clothes upon my back, I would
always go on board in the habit of a gentleman; and so I neither had any
business in the ship, or learnt to do any.
It was my lot first of all to fall into pretty good company in London, which
does not always happen to such loose and unguided young fellows as I then was;
the devil generally not omitting to lay some snare for them very early: but it
was not so with me. I first fell acquainted with the master of a ship who had
been on the coast of Guinea; and who, having had very good success there, was
resolved to go again; and who taking a fancy to my conversation, which was not
at all disagreeable at that time, hearing me say I had a mind to see the world,
told me if I would go the voyage with him I should be at no expense; I should be
his messmate and his companion; and if I could carry any thing with me, I should
have all the advantage of it that the trade would admit; and perhaps I might
meet with some encouragement.
I embraced the offer; and entering into a strict friendship with this
captain, who was an honest and plain-dealing man, I went the voyage with him,
and carried a small adventure with me, which, by the disinterested honesty of my
friend the captain, I increased very considerably; for I carried about 40_l_. in
such toys and trifles as the captain directed me to buy. This 40_l_. I had
mustered together by the assistance of some of my relations whom I corresponded
with, and who, I believe, got my father, or at least my mother, to contribute so
much as that to my first adventure.
This was the only voyage which I may say was successful in all my adventures,
and which I owe to the integrity and honesty of my friend the captain, under
whom also I got a competent knowledge of the mathematics and the rules of
navigation, learnt how to keep an account of the ship's course, take an
observation, and, in short, to understand some things that were needful to be
understood by a sailor: for, as he took delight to instruct me, I took delight
to learn; and, in a word, this voyage made me both a sailor and a merchant: for
I brought home five pounds nine ounces of gold-dust for my adventure, which
yielded me in London at my return almost 300_l_. and this filled me with those
aspiring thoughts which have so completed my ruin.
Yet even in this voyage I had my misfortunes too; particularly, that I was
continually sick, being thrown into a violent calenture by the excessive heat of
the climate; our principal trading being upon the coast, from the latitude of 15
degrees north even to the line itself.
I was now set up for a Guinea trader; and my friend, to my great misfortune,
dying soon after his arrival, I resolved to go the same voyage again, and I
embarked in the same vessel with one who was his mate in the former voyage, and
had now got the command of the ship. This was the unhappiest voyage that ever
man made; for though I did not carry quite 100_l_. of my new-gained wealth, so
that I had 200_l_. left, and which I lodged with my friend's widow, who was very
just to me, yet I fell into terrible misfortunes in this voyage; and the first
was this, viz. our ship making her course towards the Canary Islands, or rather
between those islands and the African shore, was surprised in the grey of the
morning by a Turkish rover of Sallee, who gave chase to us with all the sail she
could make. We crowded also as much canvass as our yards would spread, or our
masts carry, to have got clear; but finding the pirate gained upon us, and would
certainly come up with us in a few hours, we prepared to fight; our ship having
twelve guns, and the rogue eighteen. About three in the afternoon he came up
with us, and bringing to by mistake just athwart our quarter, instead of athwart
our stern, as he intended, we brought eight of our guns to bear on that side,
and poured in a broadside upon him, which made him sheer off again, after
returning our fire, and pouring in also his small-shot from near 200 men which
he had on board. However, we had not a man touched, all our men keeping close.
He prepared to attack us again, and we to defend ourselves; but laying us on
board the next time upon our other quarter, he entered sixty men upon our decks,
who immediately fell to cutting and hacking the decks and rigging. We plied them
with small-shot, half-pikes, powder-cheats, and such like, and cleared our deck
of them twice. However, to cut short this melancholy part of our story, our ship
being disabled, and three of our men killed and eight wounded, we were obliged
to yield, and were carried all prisoners into Sallee, a port belonging to the
Moors.
The usage I had there was not so dreadful as at first I apprehended; nor was
I carried up the country to the emperor's court, as the rest of our men were,
but was kept by the captain of the rover as his proper prize, and made his
slave, being young and nimble, and fit for his business. At this surprising
change of my circumstances, from a merchant to a miserable slave, I was
perfectly overwhelmed; and now I looked back upon my father's prophetic
discourse to me, that I should be miserable, and have none to relieve me, which
I thought was now so effectually brought to pass, that I could not be worse;
that now the hand of Heaven had overtaken me, and I was undone without
redemption: but, alas! this was but a taste of the misery I was to go through,
as will appear in the sequel of this story.
As my new patron, or master, had taken me home to his house, so I was in
hopes that he would take me with him when he went to sea again, believing that
it would sometime or other be his fate to be taken by a Spanish or Portugal man
of war, and that then I should be set at liberty. But this hope of mine was soon
taken away; for when he went to sea, he left me on shore to look after his
little garden, and do the common drudgery of slaves about his house; and when he
came home again from his cruise, he ordered me to be in the cabin to look after
the ship.
Here I meditated nothing but my escape, and what method I might take to
effect it, but found no way that had the least probability in it: nothing
presented to make the supposition of it rational; for I had nobody to
communicate it to that would embark with me, no fellow slave, no Englishman,
Irishman, or Scotsman there but myself; so that for two years, though I often
pleased myself with the imagination, yet I never had the least encouraging
prospect of putting it in practice.
After about two years an odd circumstance presented itself, which put the old
thought of making some attempt for my liberty again in my head: my patron lying
at home longer than usual without fitting out his ship, which, as I heard, was
for want of money, he used constantly, once or twice a week, sometimes oftener,
if the weather was fair, to take the ship's pinnace, and go out into the road
a-fishing; and as he always took me and a young Maresco with him to row the
boat, we made him very merry, and I proved very dexterous in catching fish;
insomuch that sometimes he would send me with a Moor, one of his kinsmen, and
the youth the Maresco, as they called him, to catch a dish of fish for him.
It happened one time, that going a-fishing in a stark calm morning, a fog
rose so thick, that though we were not half a league from the shore we lost
sight of it; and rowing we knew not whither or which way, we laboured all day,
and all the next night, and when the morning came we found we had pulled off to
sea instead of pulling in for the shore; and that we were at least two leagues
from the shore: however, we got well in again, though with a great deal of
labour and some danger; for the wind began to blow pretty fresh in the morning;
but particularly we were all very hungry.
But our patron, warned by this disaster, resolved to take more care of
himself for the future; and having lying by him the long-boat of our English
ship he had taken, he resolved he would not go a-fishing any more without a
compass and some provision; so he ordered the carpenter of his ship, who also
was an English slave, to build a little state-room, or cabin, in the middle of
the long-boat, like that of a barge, with a place to stand behind it to steer
and hale home the main-sheet; and room before for a hand or two to stand and
work the sails: she sailed with that we call a shoulder of mutton sail; and the
boom gibed over the top of the cabin, which lay very snug and low, and had in it
room for him to lie, with a slave or two, and a table to eat on, with some small
lockers to put in some bottles of such liquor as he thought fit to drink;
particularly his bread, rice, and coffee.
We went frequently out with this boat a-fishing, and as I was most dexterous
to catch fish for him, he never went without me. It happened that he had
appointed to go out in this boat, either for pleasure or for fish, with two or
three Moors of some distinction in that place, and for whom he had provided
extraordinarily, and had therefore sent on board the boat over-night a larger
store of provisions than ordinary; and had ordered me to get ready three fuzees
with powder and shot, which were on board his ship; for that they designed some
sport of fowling as well as fishing.
I got all things ready as he had directed, and waited the next morning with
the boat washed clean, her ancient and pendants out, and every thing to
accommodate his guests; when by and by my patron came on board alone, and told
me his guests had put off going, upon some business that fell out, and ordered
me with the man and boy, as usual, to go out with the boat and catch them some
fish, for that his friends were to sup at his house; and commanded that as soon
as I got some fish I should bring it home to his house; all which I prepared to
do.
This moment my former notions of deliverance darted into my thoughts, for now
I found I was like to have a little ship at my command; and my master being
gone, I prepared to furnish myself, not for fishing business, but for a voyage;
though I knew not, neither did I so much as consider, whither I should steer;
for any where to get out of that place was my way.
My first contrivance was to make a pretence to speak to this Moor, to get
something for our subsistence on board; for I told him we must not presume to
eat of our patron's bread; he said, that was true: so he brought a large basket
of rusk or bisket of their kind, and three jars with fresh water, into the boat.
I knew where my patron's case of bottles stood, which it was evident, by the
make, were taken out of some English prize, and I conveyed them into the boat
while the Moor was on shore, as if they had been there before for our master: I
conveyed also a great lump of bees-wax into the boat, which weighed above half a
hundred weight, with a parcel of twine or thread, a hatchet, a saw, and a
hammer, all which were of great use to us afterwards, especially the wax to make
candles. Another trick I tried upon him, which he innocently came into also; his
name was Ismael, whom they call Muly or Moley; so I called to him: "Moley," said
I, "our patron's guns are on board the boat; can you not get a little powder and
shot? It may be we may kill some alcamies (a fowl like our curlews) for
ourselves, for I know he keeps the gunner's stores in the ship."--"Yes," says
he, "I'll bring some;" and accordingly he brought a great leather pouch which
held about a pound and a half of powder, or rather more; and another with shot,
that had five or six pounds, with some bullets, and put all into the boat; at
the same time I had found some powder of my master's in the great cabin, with
which I filled one of the large bottles in the case, which was almost empty,
pouring what was in it into another; and thus furnished with every thing
needful, we sailed out of the port to fish. The castle, which is at the entrance
of the port, knew who we were, and took no notice of us: and we were not above a
mile out of the port before we haled in our sail, and set us down to fish. The
wind blew from the N.N.E. which was contrary to my desire; for had it blown
southerly, I had been sure to have made the coast of Spain, and at last reached
to the bay of Cadiz; but my resolutions were, blow which way it would, I would
be gone from that horrid place where I was, and leave the rest to fate.
After we had fished some time and catched nothing, for when I had fish on my
hook I would not pull them up, that he might not see them, I said to the Moor,
"This will not do; our master will not be thus served; we must stand farther
off." He, thinking no harm, agreed, and being in the head of the boat set the
sails; and as I had the helm I ran the boat out near a league farther, and then
brought her to as if I would fish; when giving the boy the helm, I stepped
forward to where the Moor was, and making as if I stooped for something behind
him, I took him by surprise with my arm under his twist, and tossed him clear
overboard into the sea; he rose immediately, for he swam like a cork, and called
to me, begged to be taken in, told me he would go all over the world with me. He
swam so strong after the boat, that he would have reached me very quickly, there
being but little wind; upon which I stepped into the cabin, and fetching one of
the fowling-pieces, I presented it at him, and told him, I had done him no hurt,
and if he would be quiet I would do him none: "But," said I, "you swim well
enough to reach to the shore, and the sea is calm; make the best of your way to
shore, and I will do you no harm; but if you come near the boat I'll shoot you
through the head, for I am resolved to have my liberty:" so he turned himself
about, and swam for the shore, and I make no doubt but he reached it with ease,
for he was an excellent swimmer.
I could have been content to have taken this Moor with me, and have drowned
the boy, but there was no venturing to trust him. When he was gone I turned to
the boy, whom they called Xury, and said to him, "Xury, if you will be faithful
to me I'll make you a great man; but if you will not stroke your face to be true
to me," that is, swear by Mahomet and his father's beard, "I must throw you into
the sea too." The boy smiled in my face, and spoke so innocently, that I could
not mistrust him; and swore to be faithful to me, and go all over the world with
me.
While I was in view of the Moor that was swimming, I stood out directly to
sea with the boat, rather stretching to windward, that they might think me gone
towards the Straits' mouth; (as indeed any one that had been in their wits must
have been supposed to do) for who would have supposed we were sailed on to the
southward to the truly Barbarian coast, where whole nations of Negroes were sure
to surround us with the canoes, and destroy us; where we could never once go on
shore but we should be devoured by savage beasts, or more merciless savages of
human kind?
But as soon as it grew dusk in the evening, I changed my course, and steered
directly south and by east, bending my course a little toward the east, that I
might keep in with the shore; and having a fair, fresh gale of wind, and a
smooth, quiet sea, I made such sail that I believe by the next day at three
o'clock in the afternoon, when I first made the land, I could not be less than
150 miles south of Sallee; quite beyond the Emperor of Morocco's dominions, or
indeed of any other king thereabouts, for we saw no people.
Yet such was the fright I had taken at the Moors, and the dreadful
apprehensions I had of falling into their hands, that I would not stop, or go on
shore, or come to an anchor; the wind continuing fair till I had sailed in that
manner five days, and then the wind shifting to the southward, I concluded also
that if any of our vessels were in chase of me, they also would now give over;
so I ventured to make to the coast, and come to an anchor in the mouth of a
little river, I knew not what, or where; neither what latitude, what country,
what nation, or what river: I neither saw, or desired to see any people; the
principal thing I wanted was fresh water. We came into this creek in the
evening, resolving to swim on shore as soon as it was dark, and discover the
country; but as soon as it was quite dark, we heard, such dreadful noises of the
barking, roaring, and howling of wild creatures, of we knew not what kinds that
the poor boy was ready to die with fear, and begged of me not to go on shore
till day. "Well, Xury," said I, "then I won't; but it may be we may see men by
day, who will be as bad to us as those lions."--"Then we give them the shoot
gun," says Xury, laughing, "make them run wey." Such English Xury spoke by
conversing among us slaves. However, I was glad to see the boy so cheerful, and
I gave him a dram (out of our patron's case of bottles) to cheer him up. After
all, Xury's advice was good, and I took it; we dropped our little anchor, and
lay still all night; I say still, for we slept none; for in two or three hours
we saw vast great creatures (we knew not what to call them) of many sorts, come
down to the sea-shore and run into the water, wallowing and washing themselves
for the pleasure of cooling themselves; and they made such hideous howlings and
yellings, that I never indeed heard the like.
Xury was dreadfully frighted, and indeed so was I too; but we were both more
frighted when we heard one of these mighty creatures come swimming towards our
boat; we could not see him, but we might hear him by his blowing to be a
monstrous huge and furious beast; Xury said it was a lion, and it might be so
for aught I know; but poor Xury cried to me to weigh the anchor and row away:
"No," says I, "Xury; we can slip our cable with the buoy to it, and go off to
sea; they cannot follow us far." I had no sooner said so, but I perceived the
creature (whatever it was) within two oars' length, which something surprised
me; however, I immediately stepped to the cabin-door, and taking up my gun fired
at him; upon which he immediately turned about, and swam towards the shore
again.
But it is impossible to describe the horrible noises, and hideous cries and
howlings, that were raised, as well upon the edge of the shore as higher within
the country, upon the noise or report of the gun, a thing I have some reason to
believe those creatures had never heard before: this convinced me that there was
no going on shore for us in the night upon that coast, and how to venture on
shore in the day was another question too; for to have fallen into the hands of
any of the savages, had been as bad as to have fallen into the hands of lions
and tigers; at least we were equally apprehensive of the danger of it.
Be that as it would, we were obliged to go on shore somewhere or other for
water, for we had not a pint left in the boat; when or where to get it, was the
point: Xury said, if I would let him go on shore with one of the jars, he would
find if there was any water, and bring some to me. I asked him why he would go?
why I should not go, and he stay in the boat? The boy answered with so much
affection, that made me love him ever after. Says he, "If wild mans come, they
eat me, you go wey."--"Well, Xury," said I, "we will both go, and if the wild
mans come, we will kill them, they shall eat neither of us." So I gave Xury a
piece of rusk bread to eat, and a dram out of our patron's case of bottles which
I mentioned before; and we haled the boat in as near the shore as we thought was
proper, and waded on shore; carrying nothing but our arms, and two jars for
water.
I did not care to go out of sight of the boat, fearing the coming of canoes
with savages down the river; but the boy seeing a low place about a mile up the
country, rambled to it; and by and by I saw him come running towards me. I
thought he was pursued by some savage, or frighted with some wild beast, and I
run forward towards him to help him; but when I came nearer to him, I saw
something hanging over his shoulders, which was a creature that he had shot,
like a hare, but different in colour, and longer legs; however, we were very
glad of it, and it was very good meat; but the great joy that poor Xury came
with, was to tell me that he had found good water, and seen no wild mans.
But we found afterwards that we need not take such pains for water, for a
little higher up the creek where we were, we found the water fresh when the tide
was out, which flows but a little way up; so we filled our jars, and feasted on
the hare we had killed, and prepared to go on our way, having seen no footsteps
of any human creature in that part of the country.
As I had been one voyage to this coast before, I knew very well that the
islands of the Canaries, and the Cape de Verd islands also, lay not far off from
the coast. But as I had no instruments to take an observation to know what
latitude we were in, and not exactly knowing, or at least remembering what
latitude they were in, and knew not where to look for them, or when to stand off
to sea towards them; otherwise I might now easily have found some of these
islands. But my hope was, that if I stood along this coast till I came to that
part where the English traded, I should find some of their vessels upon their
usual design of trade, that would relieve and take us in.
By the best of my calculation, that place where I now was, must be that
country, which, lying between the emperor of Morocco's dominions and the
Negroes, lies waste, and uninhabited, except by wild beasts; the Negroes having
abandoned it, and gone farther south for fear of the Moors; and the Moors not
thinking it worth inhabiting, by reason of its barrenness; and indeed both
forsaking it because of the prodigious numbers of tigers, lions, leopards, and
other furious creatures which harbour there; so that the Moors use it for their
hunting only, where they go like an army, two or three thousand men at a time;
and indeed for near an hundred miles together upon this coast, we saw nothing
but a waste uninhabited country by day, and heard nothing but howlings and
roaring of wild beasts by night.
Once or twice in the daytime. I thought I saw the Pico of Teneriffe, being
the high top of the Mountain Teneriffe in the Canaries; and had a great mind to
venture out in hopes of reaching thither; but having tried twice, I was forced
in again by contrary winds, the sea also going too high for my little vessel; so
I resolved to pursue my first design, and keep along the shore.
Several times I was obliged to land for fresh water, after we had left this
place; and once in particular, being early in the morning, we came to an anchor
under a little point of land which was pretty high; and the tide beginning to
flow, we lay still to go farther in. Xury, whose eyes were more about him than
it seems mine were, calls softly to me, and tells me that we had best go farther
off the shore; "for," says he, "look yonder lies a dreadful monster on the side
of that hillock fast asleep." I looked where he pointed, and saw a dreadful
monster indeed, for it was a terrible great lion that lay on the side of the
shore, under the shade of a piece of the hill that hung as it were a little over
him. "Xury," says I, "you shall go on shore and kill him." Xury looked frighted,
and said, "Me kill! he eat me at one mouth;" one mouthful he meant: however, I
said no more to the boy, but had him lie still, and I took our biggest gun,
which was almost musket-bore, and loaded it with a good charge of powder, and
with two slugs, and laid it down; then I loaded another gun with two bullets;
and the third, for we had three pieces, I loaded with five smaller bullets. I
took the best aim I could with the first piece, to have shot him into the head,
but he lay so with his leg raised a little above his nose, that the slugs hit
his leg about the knee, and broke the bone. He started up growling at first, but
finding his leg broke fell down again, and then got up upon three legs, and gave
the most hideous roar that ever I heard. I was a little surprised that I had not
hit him on the head; however, I look up the second piece immediately, and,
though he began to move off, fired again, and shot him into the head, and had
the pleasure to see him drop, and make but little noise, but he struggling for
life. Then Xury took Heart, and would have me let him go on shore: "Well, go,"
said I; so the boy jumped into the water, and taking a little gun in one hand,
swam to shore with the other hand, and coming close to the creature, put the
muzzle of the piece to his ear, and shot him into the head again, which
dispatched him quite.
This was game indeed to us, but this was no food; and I was very sorry to
lose three charges of powder and shot upon a creature that was good for nothing
to us. However, Xury said he would have some of him; so he comes on board, and
asked me to give him the hatchet. "For what, Xury?" said I, "Me cut off his
head," said he. However, Xury could not cut off his head, but he cut off a foot,
and brought it with him, and it was a monstrous great one.
I bethought myself however, that perhaps the skin of him might one way or
other be of some value to us; and I resolved to take off his skin if I could. So
Xury and I went to work with him; but Xury was much the better workman at it,
for I knew very ill how to do it. Indeed it took us up both the whole day, but
at last we got off the hide of him, and spreading it on the top of our cabin,
the sun effectually dried it in two days time, and it afterwards served me to
lie upon.
After this stop, we made on to the southward continually for ten or twelve
days, living very sparing on our provisions, which began to abate very much, and
going no oftener into the shore than we were obliged to for fresh water: my
design in this was, to make the river Gambia or Senegal, that is to say, any
where about the Cape de Verd, where I was in hopes to meet with some European
ship; and if I did not, I knew not what course I had to take, but to seek for
the islands, or perish there among the Negroes. I knew that all the ships from
Europe, which sailed either to the coast of Guinea or Brasil, or to the East
Indies, made this Cape, or those islands; and in a word, I put the whole of my
fortune upon this single point, either that I must meet with some ship, or must
perish.
When I had passed this resolution about ten days longer, as I have said, I
began to see that the land was inhabited; and in two or three places, as we
sailed by, we saw people stand upon the shore to look at us; we could also
perceive that they were quite black, and stark naked. I was once inclined to
have gone on shore to them; but Xury was my better counsellor, and said to me,
"No go, no go." However, I hauled in nearer the shore that I might talk to them,
and I found they run along the shore by me a good way: I observed they had no
weapons in their hands, except one, who had a long slender stick, which Xury
said was a lance, and that they would throw, them a great way with good aim; so
I kept at a distance, but talked with them by signs as well as I could; and
particularly made signs for something to eat; they beckoned to me to stop my
boat, and they would fetch me some meat. Upon this I lowered the top of my sail,
and lay by, and two of them ran up into the country, and in less than half an
hour came back, and brought with them two pieces of dry flesh and some corn,
such as is the produce of their country; but we neither knew what the one nor
the other was: however, we were willing to accept it, but how to come at it was
our next dispute, for I was not for venturing on shore to them, and they were as
much afraid of us: but they took a safe way for us all, for they brought it to
the shore and laid it down, and went and stood a great way off till we fetched
it on board, and then came close to us again.
We made signs of thanks to them, for we had nothing to make them amends; but
an opportunity offered that very instant to oblige them wonderfully; for while
we were lying by the shore came two mighty creatures, one pursuing the other (as
we took it) with great fury from the mountains towards the sea; whether it was
the male pursuing the female, or whether they were in sport or in rage, we could
not tell, any more than we could tell whether it was usual or strange, but I
believe it was the latter; because, in the first place, those ravenous creatures
seldom appear but in the night; and in the second place, we found the people
terribly frighted, especially the women. The man that had the lance or dart did
not fly from them, but the rest did; however, as the two creatures ran directly
into the water, they did not seem to offer to fall upon any of the Negroes, but
plunged themselves into the sea, and swam about as if they had come for their
diversion. At last one of them began to come nearer our boat than at first I
expected; but I lay ready for him, for I had loaded my gun with all possible
expedition, and had Xury load both the others: as soon as he came fairly within
my reach I fired, and shot him directly into the head; immediately he sunk down
into the water, but rose instantly, and plunged up and down as if he was
struggling for life; and so indeed he was: he immediately made to the shore; but
between the wound, which was his mortal hurt, and the strangling of the water,
he died just before he reached the shore.
It is impossible to express the astonishment of these poor creatures at the
noise and the fire of my gun; some of them were even ready to die for fear, and
fell down as dead with the very terror. But when they saw the creature dead, and
sunk in the water, and that I made signs to them to come to the shore, they took
heart and came to the shore, and began to search for the creature. I found him
by his blood staining the water, and by the help of a rope, which I slung round
him, and gave the Negroes to hale, they dragged him on shore, and found that it
was a most curious leopard, spotted and fine to an admirable degree, and the
Negroes held up their hands with admiration to think what it was I had killed
him with.
The other creature, frighted with the flash of fire and the noise of the gun,
swam on shore, and ran up directly to the mountains from whence they came, nor
could I at that distance know what it was. I found quickly the Negroes were for
eating the flesh of this creature, so I was willing to have them take it as a
favour from me, which, when I made signs to them that they might take him, they
were very thankful for. Immediately they fell to work with him, and though they
had no knife, yet with a sharpened piece of wood they took off his skin as
readily, and much more readily, than we could have done with a knife. They
offered me some of the flesh, which I declined, making as if I would give it
them, but made signs for the skin, which they gave me very freely, and brought
me a great deal more of their provision, which, though I did not understand, yet
I accepted; then I made signs to them for some water, and held out one of my
jars to them, turning it bottom upward, to shew that it was empty, and that I
wanted to have it filled. They called immediately to some of their friends, and
there came two women, and brought a great vessel made of earth, and burnt, as I
suppose, in the sun; this they set down for me, as before, and I sent Xury on
shore with my jars, and filled them all three. The women were as stark naked as
the men.
I was now furnished with roots and corn, such as it was, and water; and,
leaving my friendly Negroes, I made forward for about eleven days more, without
offering to go near the shore, till I saw the land run out a great length into
the sea, at about the distance of four or five leagues before me; and, the sea
being very calm, I kept a large offing to make this point: at length, doubling
the point at about two leagues from the land, I saw plainly land on the other
side to seaward; then I concluded, as it was most certain indeed, that this was
the Cape de Verd, and those the _islands_, called from thence Cape de Verd
Islands. However, they were at a great distance, and I could not well tell what
I had best to do, for if I should be taken with a fresh of wind I might neither
reach one nor the other.
In this dilemma, as I was very pensive, I stepped into the cabin and sat me
down, Xury having the helm, when on a sudden the boy cried out, "Master, Master,
a ship with a sail!" and the foolish boy was frighted out of his wits, thinking
it must needs be some of his master's ships sent to pursue us, when I knew we
were gotten far enough out of their reach. I jumped out of the cabin, and
immediately saw not only the ship, but what she was, viz. that it was a
Portuguese ship, and, as I thought, was bound to the coast of Guinea for
Negroes. But when I observed the course she steered, I was soon convinced they
were bound some other way, and did not design to come any nearer to the shore;
upon which I stretched out to sea as much as I could, resolving to speak with
them if possible.
With all the sail I could muster, I found I should not be able to come in
their way, but that they would be gone by before I could make any signal to
them; but after I had crowded to the utmost, and began to despair, they, it
seems, saw me by the help of their perspective-glasses, and that it was some
European boat, which, as they supposed, must belong to some ship that was lost;
so they shortened sail to let me come up. I was encouraged with this; and as I
had my patron's ancient on board, I made a waft of it to them for a signal of
distress, and fired a gun, both which they saw, for they told me they saw the
smoke, though they did not hear the gun: upon these signals they very kindly
brought to, and lay by for me, and in about three hours time I came up with
them.
They asked me what I was in Portuguese, and in Spanish, and in French; but I
understood none of them; but at last a Scots sailor, who was on board, called to
me, and I answered him, and told him I was an Englishman, that I had made my
escape out of slavery from the Moors at Sallee. Then they had me come on board,
and very kindly took me in, and all my goods.
It was an inexpressible joy to me, that any one would believe that I was thus
delivered, as I esteemed it, from such a miserable and almost hopeless condition
as I was in, and immediately offered all I had to the captain of the ship, as a
return for my deliverance; but he generously told me, he would take nothing from
me, but that all I had should be delivered safe to me when I came to the
Brasils; "For," says he, "I have saved your life on no other terms than I would
be glad to be saved myself; and it may one time or other be my lot to be taken
up in the same condition: Besides," said he, "when I carry you to the Brasils,
so great a way from your own country, if I should take from you what you have,
you will be starved there, and then I only take away that life I have given. No,
no, Seignor Inglese," says he, "Mr. Englishman, I will carry you thither in
charity, and those things will help you to buy your subsistence there, and your
passage home again."
As he was charitable in his proposal, so he was just in the performance to a
tittle; for he ordered the seamen, that none should offer to touch any thing I
had: then he took every thing into his own possession, and gave me back an exact
inventory of them, that I might have them; even so much as my three earthen
jars.
As to my boat, it was a very good one, and that he saw, and told me he would
buy it of me for the ship's use, and asked me what I would have for it? I told
him, he had been so generous to me in everything, that I could not offer to make
any price of the boat, but left it entirely to him; upon which he told me he
would give me a note of his hand to pay me eighty pieces of eight for it at
Brasil; and when it came there, if any one offered to give more, he would make
it up: he offered me also sixty pieces of eight more for my boy Xury, which I
was loath to lake; not that I was not willing to let the captain have him, but I
was very loath to sell the poor boy's liberty, who had assisted me so faithfully
in procuring my own. However, when I let him know my reason, he owned it to be
just, and offered me this medium, that he would give the boy an obligation to
set him free in ten years, if he turned Christian. Upon this, and Xury saying he
was willing to go to him, I let the captain have him.
We had a very good voyage to the Brasils, and arrived in the Bay de Todos los
Santos, or All Saints' Bay, in about twenty-two days after. And now I was once
more delivered from the most miserable of all conditions of life; and what to do
next with myself I was now to consider.
The generous treatment the captain gave me, I can never enough remember; he
would take nothing of me for my passage, gave me twenty ducats for the leopard's
skin, and forty for the lion's skin which I had in my boat, and caused every
thing I had in the ship to be punctually delivered me; and what I was willing to
sell he bought, such as the case of bottles, two of my guns, and a piece of the
lump of bees-wax, for I had made candles of the rest; in a word, I made about
two hundred and twenty pieces of eight of all my cargo; and with this stock I
went on shore in the Brasils.
I had not been long here, but being recommended to the house of a good honest
man like himself, who had an _ingeino_ as they call it; that is, a plantation
and a sugarhouse; I lived with him some time, and acquainted myself by that
means with the manner of their planting and making of sugar; and seeing how well
the planters lived, and how they grew rich suddenly, I resolved, if I could get
license to settle there, I would turn planter among them, resolving, in the mean
time, to find out some way to get my money, which I had left in London, remitted
to me. To this purpose, getting a kind of a letter of naturalization, I
purchased as much land that was uncured as my money would reach, and formed a
plan for my plantation and settlement, and such a one as might be suitable to
the stock which I proposed to myself to receive from England.
I had a neighbour, a Portuguese of Lisbon, but born of English parents, whose
name was Wells, and in much such circumstances as I was. I call him neighbour,
because his plantation lay next to mine, and we went on very sociable together.
My stock was but low, as well as his: and we rather planted for food, than any
thing else, for about two years. However, we began to increase, and our land
began to come into order; so that the third year we planted some tobacco, and
made each of us a large piece of ground ready for planting canes in the year to
come; but we both wanted help; and now I found, more than before, I had done
wrong in parting with my boy Xury.
But, alas! for me to do wrong, that never did right, was no great wonder: I
had no remedy but to go on; I was gotten into an employment quite remote to my
genius, and directly contrary to the life I delighted in, and for which I
forsook my father's house, and broke through all his good advice; nay, I was
coming into the very middle station, or upper degree of low life, which my
father advised me to before; and which if I resolved to go on with, I might as
well have staid at home, and never have fatigued myself in the world as I had
done; and I used often to say to myself, I could have done this as well in
England among my friends, as have gone five thousand miles off to do it, among
strangers and savages in a wilderness, and at such distance, as never to hear
from any part of the world that had the least knowledge of me.
In this manner I used to look upon my condition with the utmost regret. I had
nobody to converse with, but now and then this neighbour; no work to be done,
but by the labour of my hands; and I used to say, I lived just like a man cast
away upon some desolate island, that had nobody there but himself. But how just
has it been, and how should all men reflect, that, when they compare their
present conditions with others that are worse, Heaven may oblige them to make
the exchange, and be convinced of their former felicity, by their experience; I
say, how just has it been, that the truly solitary life I reflected on in, an
island of mere desolation should be my lot, who had so often unjustly compared
it with the life which I then led, in which had I continued, I had in all
probability been exceeding prosperous and rich.
I was in some degree settled in my measures for carrying on the plantation,
before my kind friend the captain of the ship, that took me up at sea, went
back; for the ship remained there, in providing his loading, and preparing for
his voyage, near three months; when, telling him what little stock I had left
behind me in London, he gave me this friendly and sincere advice; "Seignor
Inglese," says he, for so he always called me, "if you will give me letters, and
a procuration here in form to me, with orders to the person who has your money
in London, to send your effects to Lisbon, to such persons as I shall direct,
and in such goods as are proper for this country, I will bring you the produce
of them, God willing, at my return; but since human affairs are all subject to
changes and disasters, I would have you give orders but for one hundred pounds
sterling, which you say is half your stock, and let the hazard be run for the
first; so that if it come safe, you may order the rest the same way; and if it
miscarry, you may have the other half to have recourse to for your supply."
This was so wholesome advice, and looked so friendly, that I could not but be
convinced it was the best course I could take; so I accordingly prepared letters
to the gentlewoman with whom I had left my money, and a procuration to the
Portuguese captain, as he desired.
I wrote the English captain's widow a full account of all my adventures, my
slavery, escape, and how I had met with the Portugal captain at sea, the
humanity of his behaviour, and what condition I was now in, with all other
necessary directions for my supply; and when this honest captain came to Lisbon,
he found means, by some of the English merchants there, to send over, not the
order only, but a full account of my story, to a merchant at London, who
represented it effectually to her; whereupon, she not only delivered the money,
but out of her own pocket sent the Portugal captain a very handsome present for
his humanity and charity to me.
The merchant in London vesting this hundred pounds in English goods, such as
the captain had writ for, sent them directly to him at Lisbon, and he brought
them all safe to me to the Brasils; among which, without my direction (for I was
too young in my business to think of them) he had taken care to have all sort of
tools, iron work, and utensils necessary for my plantation, and which were of
great use to me.
When this cargo arrived, I thought my fortune made, for I was surprised with
joy of it; and my good steward the captain had laid out the five pounds which my
friend had sent him for a present for himself, to purchase, and bring me over a
servant under bond for six years service, and would not accept of any
consideration, except a little tobacco, which I would have him accept, being of
my own produce.
Neither was this all; but my goods being all English manufactures, such as
cloth, stuffs, baize, and things particularly valuable and desirable in the
country, I found means to sell them to a very great advantage; so that I may
say, I had more than four times the value of my first cargo, and was now
infinitely beyond my poor neighbour, I mean in the advancement of my plantation;
for the first thing I did, I bought me a Negro slave, and an European servant
also; I mean another besides that which the captain brought me from Lisbon.
But as abused prosperity is oftentimes made the very means of our greatest
adversity, so was it with me. I went on the next year with great success in my
plantation: I raised fifty great rolls of tobacco on my own ground, more than I
had disposed of for necessaries among my neighbours; and these fifty rolls,
being each of above a hundred weight, were well cured and laid by against the
return of the fleet from Lisbon. And now, increasing in business and in wealth,
my head began to be full of projects and undertakings beyond my reach; such as
are indeed often the ruin of the best heads in business.
Had I continued in the station I was now in, I had room for all the happy
things to have yet befallen me, for which my father so earnestly recommended a
quiet retired life, and of which he had so sensibly described the middle station
of life to be full; but other things attended me, and I was still to be the
wilful agent of all my own miseries; and particularly to increase my fault, and
double the reflections upon myself, which in my future sorrows I should have
leisure to make; all these miscarriages were procured by my apparent obstinate
adhering to my foolish inclination of wandering abroad, and pursuing that
inclination, in contradiction to the clearest views of doing myself good in a
fair and plain pursuit of those prospects and those measures of life, which
nature and Providence concurred to present me with, and to make my duty.
As I had done thus in my breaking away from my parents, so I could not be
content now, but I must go and leave the happy view I had of being a rich and
thriving man in my new plantation, only to pursue a rash and immoderate desire
of rising faster than the nature of the thing admitted; and thus I cast myself
down again into the deepest gulf of human misery that ever man fell into, or
perhaps could be consistent with life and a state of health in the world.
To come then by just degrees to the particulars of this part of my story; you
may suppose, that having now lived almost four years in the Brasils, and
beginning to thrive and prosper very well upon my plantation, I had not only
learnt the language, but had contracted acquaintance and friendship among my
fellow-planters, as well as among the merchants at St. Salvadore, which was our
port; and that in my discourse among them, I had frequently given them an
account of my two voyages to the coast of Guinea, the manner of trading with the
Negroes there, and how easy it was to purchase upon the coast, for trifles, such
as beads, toys, knives, scissars, hatchets, bits of glass, and the like, not
only gold-dust, Guinea grains, elephants teeth, &c. but Negroes for the service
of the Brasils in great numbers.
They listened always very attentively to my discourses on these heads, but
especially to that part which related to the buying Negroes, which was a trade
at that time not only not far entered into, but, as far as it was, had been
carried on by the Assientos for permission of the kings of Spain and Portugal,
and engrossed in the public, so that few Negroes were brought, and those
excessive dear.
It happened, being in company with some merchants and planters of my
acquaintance, and talking of those things very earnestly, three of them came to
me the next morning, and told me they had been musing very much upon what I had
discoursed with them of, the last night, and they came to make a secret proposal
to me; and after enjoining me secrecy, they told me, that they had a mind to fit
out a ship to to Guinea; that they had all plantations as well as I, and were
straitened for nothing so much as servants; that as it was a trade could not be
carried on, because they could not publicly sell the Negroes when they came
home, so they desired to make but one voyage, to bring the Negroes on shore
privately, and divide them among their own plantations; and in a word, the
question was, whether I would go their supercargo in the ship, to manage the
trading part upon the coast of Guinea? and they offered me that I should have my
equal share of the Negroes, without providing any part of the stock.
This was a fair proposal, it must be confessed, had it been made to any one
that had not had a settlement and plantation of his own to look after, which was
in a fair way of coming to be very considerable, and with a good stock upon it.
But for me, that was thus entered and established, and had nothing to do but go
on as I had begun, for three or four years more, and to have sent for the other
hundred pounds from England, and who in that time, and with that little
addition, could scarce have failed of being worth three or four thousand pounds
sterling, and that increasing too; for me to think of such a voyage, was the
most preposterous thing that ever man in such circumstances could be guilty of.
But I, that was born to be my own destroyer, could no more resist the offer,
than I could restrain my first rambling designs, when my father's good counsel
was lost upon me. In a word, I told them I would go with all my heart, if they
would undertake to look alter my plantation in my absence, and would dispose of
it to such as I should direct if I miscarried. This they all engaged to do, and
entered into writings or covenants to do so; and I made a formal will, disposing
of my plantation and effects, in case of my death, making the captain of the
ship that had saved my life as before, my universal heir, but obliging him to
dispose of my effects as I had directed in my will, one half of the produce
being to himself, and the other to be shipped to England.
In short, I took all possible caution to preserve my effects, and keep up my
plantation: had I used half as much prudence to have looked into my own
interest, and have made a judgment of what I ought to have done, and not to have
done, I had certainly never gone away from so prosperous an undertaking, leaving
all the probable views of a thriving circumstance, and gone upon a voyage to
sea, attended with all its common hazards; to say nothing of the reasons I had
to expect particular misfortunes to myself.
But I was hurried on, and obeyed blindly the dictates of my fancy rather than
my reason: and accordingly the ship being fitted out, and the cargo furnished,
and all things done as by agreement, by my partners in the voyage, I went on
board in an evil hour, the 1st of September, 1650, being the same day eight
years that I went from my father and mother at Hull, in order to act the rebel
to their authority, and the fool to my own interest.
Our ship was about one hundred and twenty ton burden, carrying six guns, and
fourteen men, besides the master, his boy, and myself; we had on board no large
cargo of goods, except of such toys as were fit for our trade with the Negroes,
such as beads, bits of glass, shells, and odd trifles, especially little
looking-glasses, knives, scissars, hatchets, and the like.
The same day I went on board we set sail, standing away to the northward upon
our own coast, with design to stretch over for the African coast; when they came
about 10 or 12 degrees of northern latitude, which it seems was the manner of
their course in those days. We had very good weather, only excessive hot, all
the way upon our own coast, till we made the height of Cape St. Augustino, from
whence keeping farther off at sea we lost sight of land, and steered as if we
were bound for the isle Fernand de Noronha, holding our course N.E. by N. and
leaving those isles on the east. In this course we passed the line in about
twelve days time, and were by our last observation in 7 degrees 22 min. northern
latitude, when a violent tornado or hurricane took us quite out of our
knowledge; it began from the south-east, came about to the north-west, and then
settled into the north-east, from whence it blew in such a terrible manner, that
for twelve days together we could do nothing but drive; and scudding away before
it, let it carry us whither ever fate and the fury of the winds directed; and
during these twelve days, I need not say that I expected every day to be
swallowed up, nor indeed did any in the ship expect to save their lives.
In this distress, we had, besides the terror of the storm, one of our men die
of the calenture, and one man and the boy washed overboard; about the twelfth
day the weather abating a little, the master made an observation as well as he
could, and found that he was in about 11 degrees north latitude, but that he was
22 degrees of longitude difference west from Cape St. Augustino; so that he
found he was gotten upon the coast of Guinea, or the north part of Brasil,
beyond the river Amazones, toward that of the river Oronoque, commonly called
the Great River, and began to consult with me what course he should take, for
the ship was leaky and very much disabled, and he was going directly back to the
coast of Brasil.
I was positively against that, and looking over the charts of the sea coasts
of America with him we concluded there was no inhabited country for us to have
recourse to, till we came within the circle of the Caribbee islands, and
therefore resolved to stand away for Barbadoes, which by keeping off at sea, to
avoid the indraft of the bay or gulf of Mexico, we might easily perform, as we
hoped, in about fifteen days sail; whereas we could not possibly make our voyage
to the coast of Africa without some assistance, both to our ship and to
ourselves.
With this design we changed our course, and steered away N.W. by W. in order
to reach some of our English islands, where I hoped for relief; but our voyage
was otherwise determined; for being in the latitude of 12 deg. 18 min. a second
storm came upon us, which carried us away with the same impetuosity westward,
and drove us so out of the very way of all human commerce, that had all our
lives been saved, as to the sea, we were rather in danger of being devoured by
savages than ever returning to our own country.
In this distress, the wind still blowing very hard, one of our men early in
the morning cried out, _Land!_ and we had no sooner run out of the cabin to look
out in hopes of seeing whereabouts in the world we were, but the ship struck
upon a sand, and in a moment, her motion being so stopped, the sea broke over
her in such a manner, that we expected we should all have perished immediately;
and we were immediately driven into our close quarters to shelter us from the
very foam and spray of the sea.
It is not easy for any one, who has not been in the like condition, to
describe or conceive the consternation of men in such circumstances; we knew
nothing where we were, or upon what land it was we were driven, whether an
island or the main, whether inhabited or not inhabited; and as the rage of the
wind was still great, though rather less than at first, we could not so much as
hope to have the ship hold many minutes without breaking in pieces, unless the
winds by a kind of miracle should turn immediately about. In a word, we sat
looking one upon another, and expecting death every moment, and every man acting
accordingly, as preparing for another world, for there was little or nothing
more for us to do in this; that which was our present comfort, and all the
comfort we had, was, that, contrary to our expectation, the ship did not break
yet, and that the master said the wind began to abate.
Now though we thought that the wind did a little abate, yet the ship having
thus struck upon the sand, and sticking too fast for us to expect her getting
off, we were in a dreadful condition indeed, and had nothing to do but to think
of saving our lives as well as we could. We had a boat at our stern, just before
the storm; but she was first staved by dashing against the ship's rudder, and in
the next place she broke away, and either sunk or was driven off to sea; so
there was no hope from her. We had another boat on board, but how to get her off
into the sea was a doubtful thing; however, there was no room to debate, for we
fancied the ship would break in pieces every minute, and some told us she was
actually broken already.
In this distress, the mate of our vessel lays hold of the boat, and with the
help of the rest of the men they got her slung over the ship's side, and getting
all into her, let go, and committed ourselves, being eleven in number, to God's
mercy and the wild sea; for though the storm was abated considerably, yet the
sea went dreadful high upon the shore, and might well be called _den wild zee_,
as the Dutch call the sea in a storm.
And now our case was very dismal indeed; for we all saw plainly, that the sea
went so high, that the boat could not live, and that we should be inevitably
drowned. As to making sail, we had none, nor, if we had, could we have done any
thing with it; so we worked at the oar towards the land, though with heavy
hearts, like men going to execution; for we all knew, that when the boat came
nearer the shore, she would be dashed into a thousand pieces by the breach of
the sea. However, we committed our souls to God in the most earnest manner; and
the wind driving us towards the shore, we hastened our destruction with our own
hands, pulling as well as we could towards land.
What the shore was, whether rock or sand, whether steep or shoal, we knew
not; the only hope that could rationally give us the least shadow of
expectation, was, if we might happen into some bay or gulf, or the mouth of some
river, where, by great chance, we might have run our boat in, or got under the
lee of the land, and perhaps made smooth water. But there was nothing of this
appeared; but as we made nearer and nearer the shore, the land looked more
frightful than the sea.
After we had rowed, or rather driven about a league and a half, as we
reckoned it, a raging wave, mountain-like, came rolling astern of us, and
plainly had us expect the _coup-de-grace_. In a word, it took us with such a
fury, that it overset the boat at once; and separating us as well from the boat,
as from one another, gave us not time hardly to say O God! for we were all
swallowed up in a moment.
Nothing can describe the confusion of thought which I felt when I sunk into
the water; for though I swam very well, yet I could not deliver myself from the
waves so as to draw breath, till that wave having driven me, or rather carried
me a vast way on towards the shore, and having spent itself, went back, and left
me upon the land almost dry, but half dead with the water I took in. I had so
much presence of mind as well as breath left, that, seeing myself nearer the
main land than I expected, I got upon my feet, and endeavoured to make on
towards the land as fast as I could, before another wave should return, and take
me up again. But I soon found it was impossible to avoid it; for I saw the sea
come after me as high as a great hill, and as furious as an enemy which I had no
means or strength to contend with; my business was to hold my breath, and raise
myself upon the water, if I could; and so by swimming to preserve my breathing,
and pilot myself towards the shore, if possible; my greatest concern now being,
that the sea, as it would carry me a great way towards the shore when it came
on, might not carry me back again with it when it gave back towards the sea.
The wave that came upon me again, buried me at once twenty or thirty foot
deep in its own body; and I could feel myself carried with a mighty force and
swiftness towards the shore a very great way; but I held my breath, and assisted
myself to swim still forward with all my might. I was ready to burst with
holding my breath, when, as I felt myself rising up, so, to my immediate relief,
I found my head and hands shoot out above the surface of the water; and though
it was not two seconds of time that I could keep myself so, yet it relieved me
greatly, gave me breath and new courage. I was covered again with water a good
while, but not so long but I held it out; and finding the water had spent
itself, and began to return, I struck forward against the return of the waves,
and felt ground again with my feet. I stood still a few moments to recover
breath, and till the water went from me, and then took to my heels, and ran with
what strength I had farther towards the shore. But neither would this deliver me
from the fury of the sea, which came pouring in after me again; and twice more I
was lifted up by the waves and carried forwards as before, the shore being very
flat.
The last time of these two had well near been fatal to me; for the sea having
hurried me along as before, landed me, or rather dashed me against a piece of a
rock, and that with such force, as it left me senseless, and indeed helpless, as
to my own deliverance; for the blow taking my side and breast, beat the breath
as it were quite out of my body; and had it returned again immediately, I must
have been strangled in the water; but I recovered a little before the return of
the waves, and seeing I should be covered again with the water, I resolved to
hold fast by a piece of the rock, and so to hold my breath, if possible, till
the wave went back. Now as the waves were not so high as at first, being near
land, I held my hold till the wave abated, and then fetched another run, which
brought me so near the shore, that the next wave, though it went over me, yet
did not so swallow me up as to carry me away; and the next run I took I got to
the main land, where, to my great comfort, I clambered up the clifts of the
shore, and sat me down upon the grass, free from danger, and quite out of the
reach of the water.
I was now landed, and safe on shore, and began to look up and thank God that
my life was saved in a case wherein there was some minutes before scarce any
room to hope. I believe it is impossible to express to the life what the
ecstasies and transports of the soul are, when it is so saved, as I may say, out
of the very grave; and I do not wonder now at that custom, viz. that when a
malefactor, who has the halter about his neck, is tied up, and just going to be
turned off, and has a reprieve brought to him: I say, I do not wonder that they
bring a surgeon with it, to let him blood that very moment they tell him of it,
that the surprise may not drive the animal spirits from the heart, and overwhelm
him:
For sudden joys, like griefs, confound at first.
I walked about on the shore, lifting up my hands and my whole being, as I may
say, wrapt up in the contemplation of my deliverance, making a thousand gestures
and motions which I cannot describe; reflecting upon all my comrades that were
drowned, and that there should not be one soul saved but myself; for, as for
them, I never saw them afterwards, or any sign of them, except three of their
hats, one cap, and two shoes that were not fellows.
I cast my eyes to the stranded vessel, when the breach and troth of the sea
being so big, I could hardly see it, it lay so far off, and considered, Lord!
how was it possible I could get on shore!
After I had solaced my mind with the comfortable part of my condition, I
began to look round me, to see what kind of place I was in, and what was next to
be done; and I soon found my comforts abate, and that in a word I had a dreadful
deliverance; for I was wet, had no clothes to shift me, nor any thing either to
eat or drink to comfort me; neither did I see any prospect before me, but that
of perishing with hunger, or being devoured by wild beasts; and that which was
particularly afflicting to me, was, that I had no weapon either to hunt and kill
any creature for my sustenance, or to defend myself against any other creature
that might desire to kill me for theirs; in a word, I had nothing about me but a
knife, a tobacco pipe, and a little tobacco in a box; this was all my provision,
and this threw me into terrible agonies of mind, that for a while I ran about
like a madman. Night coming upon me, I began with a heavy heart to consider what
would be my lot if there were any ravenous beasts in that country, seeing at
night they always come abroad for their prey.
All the remedy that offered to my thoughts at that time, was, to get up into
a thick bushy tree like a fir, but thorny, which grew near me, and where I
resolved to sit all night, and consider the next day what death I should die,
for as yet I saw no prospect of life. I walked about a furlong from the shore,
to see if I could find any fresh water to drink, which I did, to my great joy;
and having drank, and put a little tobacco in my mouth to prevent hunger, I went
to the tree, and getting up into it, endeavoured to place myself so, as that if
I should sleep I might not fall; and having cut me a short stick, like a
truncheon, for my defence, I took up my lodging, and having been excessively
fatigued, I fell fast asleep, and slept as comfortably as, I believe, few could
have done in my condition, and found myself the most refreshed with it that I
think I ever was on such an occasion.
When I waked it was broad day, the weather clear, and the storm abated, so
that the sea did not rage and swell as before; but that which surprised me most
was, that the ship was lifted off in the night from the sand where she lay, by
the swelling of the tide, and was driven up almost as far as the rock which I
first mentioned, where I had been so bruised by the dashing me against it; this
being within about a mile from the shore where I was, and the ship seeming to
stand upright still, I wished myself on board, that, at least, I might save some
necessary things for my use.
When I came down from my apartment in the tree, I looked about me again, and
the first thing I found was the boat, which lay as the wind and the sea had
tossed her up upon the land, about two miles on my right hand. I walked as far
as I could upon the shore to have got to her, but found a neck or inlet of water
between me and the boat, which was about half a mile broad; so I came back for
the present, being more intent upon getting at the ship, where I hoped to find
something for my present subsistence.
A little after noon I found the sea very calm, and the tide ebbed so far out,
that I could come within a quarter of a mile of the ship; and here I found a
fresh renewing of my grief: for I saw evidently, that if we had kept on board,
we had been all safe, that is to say, we had all got safe on shore, and I had
not been so miserable as to be left entirely destitute of all comfort and
company, as I now was. This forced tears from my eyes again; but as there was
little relief in that, I resolved, if possible, to get to the ship; so I pulled
off my clothes, for the weather was hot to extremity, and took the water; but
when I came to the ship, my difficulty was still greater to know how to get on
board; for as she lay aground, and high out of the water, there was nothing
within my reach to lay hold of. I swam round her twice, and the second time I
spied a small piece of a rope, which I wondered I did not see at first, hang
down by the fore-chains so low as that with great difficulty I got hold of it,
and by the help of that rope got up into the forecastle of the ship. Here I
found that the ship was bulged, and had a great deal of water in her hold, but
that she lay so on the side of a bank of hard sand, or rather earth, and her
stern lay lifted up upon the bank, and her head low almost to the water: by this
means all her quarter was free, and all that was in that part was dry; for you
may be sure my first work was to search and to see what was spoiled and what was
free; and first I found that all the ship's provisions were dry and untouched by
the water; and being very well disposed to eat, I went to the bread-room and
filled my pockets with bisket, and ate it as I went about other things, for I
had no time to lose. I also found some rum in the great cabin, of which I took a
large drain, and which I had indeed need enough of to spirit me for what was
before me. Now I wanted nothing but a boat to furnish myself with many things
which I foresaw would be very necessary to me.
It was in vain to sit still and wish for what was not to be had; and this
extremity roused my application. We had several spare yards, and two or three
large spars of wood, and a spare topmast or two in the ship; I resolved to fall
to work with these, and flung as many of them overboard as I could manage of
their weight, tying every one with a rope, that they might not drive away. When
this was done I went down the ship's side, and pulling them to me, I tied four
of them fast together at both ends as well as I could, in the form of a raft,
and laying two or three short pieces of plank upon them crossways, I found I
could walk upon it very well, but that it was not able to bear any great weight,
the pieces being too light; so I went to work, and with the carpenter's saw I
cut a spare topmast into three lengths, and added them to my raft, with a great
deal of labour and pains; but hope of furnishing myself with necessaries
encouraged me to go beyond what I should have been able to have done upon
another occasion.
My raft was now strong enough to bear any reasonable weight; my next care was
what to load it with, and how to preserve what I laid upon it from the surf of
the sea; but I was not long considering this: I first laid all the planks or
boards upon it that I could get, and having considered well what I most wanted,
I first got three of the seamen's chests, which I had broken open and emptied,
and lowered them down upon my raft. The first of these I filled with provisions,
viz. bread, rice, three Dutch cheeses, five pieces of dried goat's flesh, which
we lived much upon, and a little remainder of European corn which had been laid
by for some fowls which we brought to sea with us, but the fowls were killed.
There had been some barley and wheat together, but, to my great disappointment,
I found afterwards that the rats had eaten or spoiled it all. As for liquors, I
found several cases of bottles belonging to our skipper, in which were some
cordial waters, and in all above five or six gallons of rack: these I stowed by
themselves, there being no need to put them into the chest, nor no room for
them. While I was doing this, I found the tide began to flow, though very calm,
and I had the mortification to see my coat, shirt, and waistcoat, which I had
left on shore upon the sand, swim away; as for my breeches, which were only
linen, and open-kneed, I swam on board in them and my stockings: however, this
put me upon rummaging for clothes, of which I found enough, but took no more
than I wanted for present use, for I had other things which my eye was more
upon; as, first, tools to work with on shore; and it was after long searching
that I found out the carpenter's chest, which was indeed a very useful prize to
me, and much more valuable than a ship-loading of gold would have been at that
time: I got it down to my raft, even whole as it was, without losing time to
look into it, for I knew in general what it contained.
My next care was for some ammunition and arms. There were two very good
fowling-pieces in the great cabin, and two pistols: these I secured first, with
some powder horns, and a small bag of shot, and two old rusty swords. I knew
there were three barrels of powder in the ship, but knew not where our gunner
had stowed them; but with much search I found them, two of them dry and good,
the third had taken water; those two I got to my raft, with the arms. And now I
thought myself pretty well freighted, and began to think how I should get to
shore with them, having neither sail, oar, or rudder, and the least capful of
wind would have overset all my navigation.
I had three encouragements: 1. A smooth, calm sea; 2. The tide rising and
setting in to the shore; 3. What little wind there was blew me towards the land:
and thus, having found two or three broken oars belonging to the boat, and
besides the tools which were in the chest, I found two saws, an axe, and a
hammer; and with this cargo I put to sea: for a mile, or thereabouts, my raft
went very well, only that I found it drive a little distant from the place where
I had landed before, by which I perceived that there was some indraft of the
water, and consequently I hoped to find some creek or river there, which I might
make use of as a port to get to land with my cargo.
As I imagined, so it was: there appeared before me a little opening of the
land, and I found a strong current of the tide set into it, so I guided my raft
as well as I could to keep in the middle of the stream; but here I had like to
have suffered a second shipwreck, which, if I had, I think verily would have
broke my heart; for knowing nothing of the coast, my raft run aground at one end
of it upon a shoal, and not being aground at the other end, it wanted but a
little that all my cargo had slipped off towards that end that was afloat, and
so fallen into the water. I did my utmost, by setting my back against the
chests, to keep them in their places, but could not thrust off the raft with all
my strength; neither durst I stir from the posture I was in, but holding up the
chests with all my might, stood in that manner near half an hour, in which time
the rising of the water brought me a little more upon a level; and a little
after, the water still rising, my raft floated again, and I thrust her off with
the oar I had into the channel; and then driving up higher, I at length found
myself in the mouth of a little river, with land on both sides, and a strong
current or tide running up. I looked on both sides for a proper place to get to
shore; for I was not willing to be driven too high up the river, hoping in time
to see some ship at sea, and therefore resolved to place myself as near the
coast as I could.
At length I spied a little cove on the right shore of the creek, to which,
with great pain and difficulty, I guided my raft, and at last got so near, as
that, reaching ground with my oar, I could thrust her directly in; but here I
had like to have dipped all my cargo in the sea again; for that shore lying
pretty steep, that is to say sloping, there was no place to land, but where one
end of the float, if it run on shore, would lie so high, and the other sink
lower as before, that it would endanger my cargo again: all that I could do, was
to wait till the tide was at the highest, keeping the raft with my oar like an
anchor to hold the side of it fast to the shore, near a flat piece of ground,
which I expected the water would flow over; and so it did. As soon as I found
water enough, for my raft drew about a foot of water, I thrust her on upon that
flat piece of ground, and there fastened or moored her by sticking my two broken
oars into the ground; one on one side near one end, and one on the other side
near the other end; and thus I lay till the water ebbed away, and left my raft
and all my cargo safe on shore.
My next work was to view the country, and seek a proper place for my
habitation, and where to stow my goods, to secure them from whatever might
happen. Where I was I yet knew not; whether on the continent or on an island,
whether inhabited or not inhabited, whether in danger of wild beasts or not.
There was a hill not above a mile from me, which rose up very steep and high,
and which seemed to overtop some other hills which, lay as in a ridge from it
northward: I took out one of the fowling-pieces, and one of the pistols, and an
horn of powder, and thus armed I travelled for discovery up to the top of that
hill, where, after I had with great labour and difficulty got to the top, I saw
my fates to my great affliction, viz. that I was in an island environed every
way with the sea, no land to be seen, except some rocks which lay a great way
off, and two small islands less than this, which lay about three leagues to the
west.
I found also that the island I was in was barren, and, as I saw good reason
to believe, uninhabited, except by wild beasts, of whom, however, I saw none;
yet I saw abundance of fowls, but knew not their kinds; neither when I killed
them could I tell what was fit for food, and what not. At my coming back I shot
at a great bird, which I saw sitting upon a tree on the side of a great wood--I
believe it was the first gun that had been fired there since the creation of the
world. I had no sooner fired, but from all parts of the wood there arose an
innumerable number of fowls of many sorts, making a confused screaming, and
crying every one according to his usual note; but not one of them of any kind
that I knew. As for the creature I killed, I took it to be a kind of a hawk, its
colour and beak resembling it, but had no talons or claws more than common; its
flesh was carrion, and fit for nothing.
Contented with this discovery, I came back to my raft, and fell to work to
bring my cargo on shore, which took me up the rest of that day; and what to do
with myself at night I knew not, nor indeed where to rest; for I was afraid to
lie down on the ground, not knowing but some wild beast might devour me; though,
as I afterwards found, there was really no need for those fears.
However, as well as I could, I barricadoed myself round with the chests and
boards that I had brought on shore, and made a kind of a hut for that night's
lodging. As for food, I yet saw not which way to supply myself, except that I
had seen two or three creatures like hares run out of the wood where I shot the
fowl.
I now began to consider, that I might yet get a great many things out of the
ship, which would be useful to me, and particularly some of the rigging and
sails, and such other things as might come to land, and I resolved to make
another voyage on board the vessel, if possible; and as I knew that the first
storm that blew must necessarily break her all in pieces, I resolved to set all
other things apart, till I got every thing out of the ship that I could get.
Then I called a council, that is to say, in my thoughts, whether I should take
back the raft; but this appeared impracticable; so I resolved to go as before,
when the tide was down, and I did so, only that I stripped before I went from my
hut, having nothing on but a checked shirt and a pair of linen trowsers, and a
pair of pumps on my feet.
I got on board the ship, as before, and prepared a second raft; and having
had experience of the first, I neither made this so unwieldy, nor loaded it so
hard, but yet I brought away several things very useful to me; as first, in the
carpenter's stores I found two or three bags full of nails and spikes, a great
screw-jack, a dozen or two of hatchets, and, above all, that most useful thing
called a grindstone; all these I secured, together with several things belonging
to the gunner, particularly two or three iron crows, and two barrels of
musket-bullets, seven muskets, and another fowling-piece, with some small
quantity of powder more; a large bag full of small shot, and a great roll of
sheet lead; but this last was so heavy I could not hoist it up to get it over
the ship's side.
Besides these things, I took all the men's clothes that I could find, and a
spare fore-topsail, hammock, and some bedding; and with this I loaded my second
raft, and brought them all safe on shore, to my very great comfort.
I was under some apprehensions during my absence from the land, that at least
my provisions might be devoured on shore; but when I came back, I found no sign
of any visitor, only there sat a creature like a wild cat upon one of the
chests, which, when I came towards it, ran away a little distance, and then
stood still; she sat very composed and unconcerned, and looked full in my face,
as if she had a mind to be acquainted with me; I presented my gun at her, but as
she did not understand it, she was perfectly unconcerned at it, nor did she
offer to stir away; upon which I tossed her a bit of biscuit, though by the way
I was not very free of it, for my store was not great: however, I spared her a
bit, I say, and she went to it, smelled of it, and ate it, and looked, as
pleased, for more; but I thanked her, and could spare no more; so she marched
off.
Having got my second cargo on shore, though I was fain to open the barrels of
powder, and bring them by parcels, for they were too heavy, being large casks, I
went to work to make me a little tent with the sail and some poles which I cut
for that purpose; and into this tent I brought every thing that I knew would
spoil, either with rain or sun; and I piled all the empty chests and casks up in
a circle round the tent, to fortify it from any sudden attempt, either from man
or beast.
When I had done this, I blocked up the door of the tent with some boards
within; and an empty chest set up an end without, and spreading one of the beds
upon the ground, laying my two pistols just at my head, and my gun at length by
me, I went to bed for the first time, and slept very quietly all night, for I
was very weary and heavy, as the night before I had slept little, and had
laboured very hard all day, as well to fetch all those things from the ship as
to get them on shore.
I had the biggest magazine of all kinds now that ever were laid up, I
believe, for one man; but I was not satisfied still; for while the ship sat
upright in that posture, I thought I ought to get every thing out of her that I
could; so every day at low water I went on board, and brought away something or
other; but particularly the third time I went, I brought away as much of the
rigging as I could, as also all the small ropes and rope-twine I could get, with
a piece of spare canvass, which was to mend the sails upon occasion, and the
barrel of wet gunpowder; in a word, I brought away all the sails first and last,
only that I was fain to cut them in pieces, and bring as much at a time as I
could; for they were no more useful to be sails, but as mere canvass only.
But that which comforted me more still, was, that at last of all, after I had
made five or six such voyages as these, and thought I had nothing more to expect
from the ship that was worth my meddling with; I say, after all this, I found a
great hogshead of bread, and three large runlets of rum or spirits, and a box of
sugar, and a barrel of fine flower; this was surprising to me, because I had
given over expecting any more provisions, except what was spoiled by the water:
I soon emptied the hogshead of that bread, and wrapped it up, parcel by parcel,
in pieces of the sails, which I cut out; and in a word, I got all this safe on
shore also.
The next day I made another voyage; and now, having plundered the ship of
what was portable and fit to hand out, I began with the cables; and cutting the
great cable into pieces, such as I could move, I got two cables and a hawser on
shore, with all the iron-work I could get; and having cut down the
spritsail-yard, and the mizen-yard, and every thing I could to make a large
raft, I loaded it with all those heavy goods, and came away: but my good luck
began now to leave me; for this raft was so unwieldy and so overladen, that
after I had entered the little cove where I had landed the rest of my goods, not
being able to guide it so handily as I did the other, it overset, and threw me
and all my cargo into the water. As for myself, it was no great harm, for I was
near the shore; but as to my cargo, it was great part of it lost, especially the
iron, which I expected would have been of great use to me: however, when the
tide was out, I got most of the pieces of cable ashore, and some of the iron,
though with infinite labour; for I was fain to dip for it into the water, a work
which fatigued me very much. After this, I went every day on board, and brought
away what I could get.
I had been now thirteen days on shore, and had been eleven times on board the
ship; in which time I had brought away all that one pair of hands could well be
supposed capable to bring, though I believe, verily, had the calm weather held,
I should have brought away the whole ship, piece by piece; but preparing the
twelfth time to go on board, I found the wind began to rise; however, at low
water I went on board, and though I thought I had rummaged the cabin so
effectually, as that nothing more could be found, yet I discovered a locker with
drawers in it, in one of which I found two or three razors, and one pair of
large scissars, with some ten or a dozen of good knives and forks; in another I
found about thirty-six pounds value in money, some European coin, some Brasil,
some pieces of eight, some gold, some silver.
I smiled to myself at the sight of this money. "O drug!" said I, aloud, "what
art thou good for? thou art not worth to me, no not the taking off of the
ground; one of those knives is worth all this heap; I have no manner of use for
thee; even remain where thou art, and go to the bottom as a creature whose life
is not worth saving." However, upon second thoughts, I took it away, and
wrapping all this in a piece of canvass, I began to think of making another
raft; but while I was preparing this, I found the sky overcast, and the wind
began to rise, and in a quarter of an hour it blew a fresh gale from the shore.
It presently occurred to me, that it was in vain to pretend to make a raft with
the wind off shore, and that it was my business to be gone before the tide of
flood began, otherwise I might not be able to reach the shore at all;
accordingly I let myself down into the water, and swam cross the channel which
lay between the ship and the sands, and even that with difficulty enough, partly
with the weight of things I had about me, and partly the roughness of the water,
for the wind rose very hastily, and before it was quite high water it blew a
storm.
But I was gotten home to my little tent, where I lay with all my wealth about
me very secure. It blew very hard all that night, and in the morning when I
looked out, behold no more ship was to be seen. I was a little surprised, but
recovered myself with this satisfactory reflection, viz. that I had lost no
time, nor abated no diligence to get every thing out of her that could be useful
to me, and that indeed there was little left in her that I was able to bring
away, if I had had more time.
I now gave over any more thoughts of the ship, or of any thing out of her,
except what might drive on shore from her wreck, as indeed divers pieces of her
afterwards did; but those things were of small use to me.
My thoughts were now wholly employed about securing myself against either
savages, if any should appear, or wild beasts, if any were in the island; and I
had many thoughts of the method how to do this, and what kind of dwelling to
make; whether I should make me a cave in the earth, or a tent upon the earth:
and, in short, I resolved upon both, the manner and description of which it may
not be improper to give an account of.
I soon found the place I was in was not for my settlement, particularly
because it was upon a low moorish ground near the sea, and I believed would not
be wholesome, and more particularly because there was no fresh water near it; so
I resolved to find a more healthy and more convenient spot of ground.
I consulted several things in my situation which I found would be proper for
me: 1st, Health, and fresh water, I just now mentioned, 2dly, Shelter from the
heat of the sun. 3dly, Security from ravenous creatures, whether man or beast.
4thly, A view to the sea, that, if God sent any ship in sight, I might not lose
any advantage for my deliverance, of which I was not willing to banish all my
expectation yet.
In search of a place proper for this, I found a little plain on the side of a
rising hill, whose front towards this little plain was steep as a house-side, so
that nothing could come down upon me from the top: on the side of this rock
there was a hollow place worn a little way in like the entrance or door of a
cave, but there was not really any cave or way into the rock at all.
On the flat of the green, just before this hollow place, I resolved to pitch
my tent: this plain was not above an hundred yards broad, and about twice as
long, and lay like a green before my door, and at the end of it descended
irregularly every way down into the low grounds by the sea-side. It was on the
N.N.W. side of the hill, so that I was sheltered from the heat every day, till
it came to a W. and by S. sun, or thereabouts, which in those countries is near
the setting.
Before I set up my tent, I drew a half-circle before the hollow place, which
took in about ten yards in its semi-diameter from the rock, and twenty yards in
its diameter, from its beginning and ending.
In this half circle I pitched two rows of strong stakes, driving them into
the ground till they stood very firm, like piles, the biggest end being out of
the ground about five foot and a half, and sharpened on the top; the two rows
did not stand above six inches from one another.
Then I took the pieces of cable which I had cut in the ship, and laid them in
rows one upon another, within the circle between these two rows of stakes, up to
the top, placing other stakes in the inside, leaning against them, about two
foot and a half high, like a spur to a post; and this fence was so strong, that
neither man or beast could get into it or over it: this cost me a great deal of
time and labour, especially to cut the piles in the woods, bring them to the
place, and drive them into the earth.
The entrance into this place I made to be not by a door, but by a short
ladder, to go over the top: which ladder, when I was in, I lifted over after me:
and so I was completely fenced in, and fortified, as I thought, from all the
world, and consequently slept secure in the night, which otherwise I could not
have done, though, as it appeared afterward, there was no need of all this
caution from the enemies that I apprehended danger from.
Into this fence or fortress, with infinite labour, I carried all my riches,
all my provisions, ammunition, and stores, of which you have the account above;
and I made me a large tent, which, to preserve me from the rains, that in one
part of the year are very violent there, I made double, viz. one smaller tent
within, and one larger tent above it, and covered the uppermost with a large
tarpaulin which I had saved among the sails.
And now I lay no more for awhile in the bed which I had brought on shore, but
in a hammock, which was indeed a very good one, and belonged to the mate of the
ship.
Into this tent I brought all my provisions, and every thing that would spoil
by the wet; and having thus enclosed all my goods, I made up the entrance, which
till now I had left open, and so passed and repassed, as I said, by a short
ladder.
When I had done this, I began to work my way into the rock, and bringing all
the earth and stones that I dug down, out through my tent, I laid them up within
my fence in the nature of a terrace, that so it raised the ground within about a
foot and a half; and thus I made me a cave just behind my tent, which served me
like a cellar to my house.
It cost me much labour, and many days, before all these things were brought
to perfection, and therefore I must go back to some other things which took up
some of my thoughts. At the same time it happened, after I had laid my scheme
for the setting up my tent, and making the cave, that a storm of rain falling
from a thick dark cloud, a sudden flash of lightning happened, and after that a
great clap of thunder, as is naturally the effect of it. I was not so much
surprised with the lightning, as I was with a thought which darted into my mind
as swift as the lightning itself; O my powder! my very heart sunk within me,
when I thought, that at one blast all my powder might be destroyed; on which,
not my defence only, but the providing me food, as I thought, entirely depended;
I was nothing near so anxious about my own danger; though, had the powder took
fire, I had never known who had hurt me.
Such impression did this make upon me, that, after the storm was over, I laid
aside all my works, my building, and fortifying, and applied myself to make bags
and boxes to separate the powder, and to keep it a little and a little in a
parcel, in hope, that, whatever might come, it might not all take fire at once,
and to keep it so apart, that it should not be possible to make one part fire
another. I finished this work in about a fortnight; and I think my powder, which
in all was about two hundred and forty pounds weight, was divided in not less
than a hundred parcels. As to the barrel that had been wet, I did not apprehend
any danger from that, so I placed it in my new cave, which in my fancy I called
my kitchen; and the rest I hid up and down in holes among the rocks, so that no
wet might come to it, marking very carefully where I laid it.
In the interval of time while this was doing, I went out once at least every
day with my gun, as well to divert myself, as to see if I could kill any thing
fit for food, and as near as I could to acquaint myself with what the island
produced. The first time I went out I presently discovered that there were goats
in the island, which was a great satisfaction to me; but then it was attended
with this misfortune to me, viz. that they were so shy, so subtle, and so swift
of foot, that it was the most difficult thing in the world to come at them. But
I was not discouraged at this, not doubting but I might now and then shoot one,
as it soon happened; for after I had found their haunts a little, I laid wait in
this manner for them: I observed, if they saw me in the vallies, though they
were upon the rocks, they would run away as in a terrible fright; but if they
were feeding in the vallies, and I was upon the rocks, they took no notice of
me; from whence I concluded, that by the position of their optics, their sight
was so directed downward, that they did not readily see objects that were above
them; so afterward I took this method; I always climbed the rocks first, to get
above them, and then had frequently a fair mark. The first shot I made among
these creatures killed a she-goat, which had a little kid by her which she gave
suck to, which grieved me heartily; but when the old one fell, the kid stood
stock still by her till I came and took her up; and not only so; but when I
carried the old one with me upon my shoulders, the kid followed me quite to my
enclosure; upon which I laid down the dam, and took the kid in my arms, and
carried it over my pale, in hopes to have bred it up tame; but it would not eat;
so I was forced to kill it, and eat it myself. These two supplied me with flesh
a great while, for I ate sparingly, and saved my provisions (my bread
especially) as much as possibly I could.
Having now fixed my habitation, I found it absolutely necessary to provide a
place to make a fire in, and fuel to burn; and what I did for that, as also how
I enlarged my cave, and what conveniencies I made, I shall give a full account
of in its place; but I must first give some little account of myself, and of my
thoughts about living, which it may well be supposed were not a few.
I had a dismal prospect of my condition; for as I was not cast away upon that
island without being driven, as is said, by a violent storm quite out of the
course of our intended voyage, and a great way, viz. some hundreds of leagues
out of the ordinary course of the trade of mankind, I had great reason to
consider it as a determination of Heaven, that in this desolate place, and in
this desolate manner, I should end my life. The tears would run plentifully down
my face when I made these reflections; and sometimes I would expostulate with
myself, why Providence should thus completely ruin his creatures, and render
them so absolutely miserable, so without help abandoned, so entirely depressed,
that it could hardly be rational to be thankful for such a life.
But something always returned swift upon me to check these thoughts, and to
reprove me; and particularly one day, walking with my gun in my hand by the
sea-side, I was very pensive upon the subject of my present condition, when
reason, as it were, expostulating with the t'other way, thus: "Well, you are in
a desolate condition, 'tis true, but pray remember, where are the rest of you?
Did not you come eleven of you into the boat? Where are the ten? Why were they
not saved and you lost? Why were you singled out? Is it better to be here or
there?" And then I pointed to the sea. All evils are to be considered with the
good that is in them, and with what worse attended them.
Then it occurred to me again, how well I was furnished for my subsistence,
and what would have been my ease if it had not happened, which was an hundred
thousand to one, that the ship floated from the place where she first struck,
and was driven so near the shore that I had time to get all these things out of
her. What would have been my case, if I had been to have lived in the condition
in which I at first came on shore, without necessaries of life, or necessaries
to supply and procure them? "particularly," said I, loud (though to myself),
"what should I have done without a gun, without ammunition, without any tools to
make any thing, or to work with; without clothes, bedding, a tent, or any manner
of covering?" and that now I had all these to a sufficient quantity, and was in
a fair way to provide myself in such a manner, as to live without my gun when my
ammunition was spent; so that I had a tolerable view of subsisting, without any
want, as long as I lived; for I considered from the beginning how I should
provide for the accidents that might happen, and for the time that was to come,
even not only after my ammunition should be spent, but even after my health or
strength should decay.
I confess I had not entertained any notion of my ammunition being destroyed
at one blast, I mean my powder being blown up by lightning; and this made the
thoughts of it so surprising to me when it lightned and thundered, as I observed
just now.
And now, being about to enter into a melancholy relation of a scene of silent
life, such perhaps as was never heard of in the world before, I shall take it
from its beginning, and continue it in its order. It was, by my account, the
30th of September, when, in the manner as above said, I first set foot upon this
horrid island, when the sun being, to us, in its autumnal equinox, was almost
just over my head, for I reckoned myself, by observation, to be in the latitude
of 9 degrees 22 minutes north of the line.
After I had been there about ten or twelve days, it came into my thoughts,
that I should lose my reckoning of time for want of books, and pen and ink, and
should even forget the sabbath days from the working days; but to prevent this,
I cut it with my knife upon a large post, in capital letters, and making it into
a great cross, I set it up on the shore where I first landed, viz. "I came on
shore here on the 30th of September 1659." Upon the sides of this square post, I
cut every day a notch with my knife, and every seventh notch was as long again
as the rest, and every first day of the month as long again as that long one;
and thus I kept my calendar, or weekly, monthly, and yearly reckoning of time.
In the next place we are to observe, that among the many things which I
brought out of the ship in the several voyages, which, as above mentioned, I
made to it, I got several things of less value, but not all less useful to me,
which I omitted setting down before; as in particular, pens, ink, and paper,
several parcels in the captain's, mate's, gunner's, and carpenter's keeping,
three or four compasses, some mathematical instruments, dials, perspectives,
charts, and books of navigation; all which I huddled together, whether I might
want them or no. Also I found three very good Bibles, which came to me in my
cargo from England, and which I had packed up among my things; some Portuguese
books also, and among them two or three popish prayer-books, and several other
books; all which I carefully secured. And I must not forget, that we had in the
ship a dog and two cats, of whose eminent history I may have occasion to say
something in it's place; for I carried both the cats with me; and as for the
dog, he jumped out of the ship of himself, and swam on shore to me the day after
I went on shore with my first cargo, and was a trusty servant to me many years;
I wanted nothing that he could fetch me, nor any company that he could make up
to me; I only wanted to have him talk to me, but that he could not do. As I
observed before, I found pen, ink, and paper, and I husbanded them to the
utmost; and I shall shew, that while my ink lasted, I kept things very exact;
but after that was gone I could not, for I could not make any ink by any means
that I could devise.
And this put me in mind that I wanted many things, notwithstanding all that I
had amassed together; and of these, this of ink was one, as also spade, pickaxe,
and shovel, to dig or remove the earth; needles, pins, and thread. As for linen,
I soon learnt to want that without much difficulty.
This want of tools made every work I did go on heavily, and it was near a
whole year before I had entirely finished my little pale or surrounded
habitation: the piles or stakes, which were as heavy as I could well lift, were
a long time in cutting and preparing in the woods, and more by far in bringing
home; so that I spent sometimes two days in cutting and bringing home one of
those posts, and a third day in driving it into the ground; for which purpose I
got a heavy piece of wood at first, but at last bethought myself of one of the
iron crows, which however, though I found it, yet it made driving those posts or
piles very laborious and tedious work.
But what need I have been concerned at the tediousness of any thing I had to
do, seeing I had time enough to do it in? Nor had I any other employment if that
had been over, at least that I could foresee, except the ranging the island to
seek for food, which I did more or less every day.
I now began to consider seriously my condition, and the circumstance I was
reduced to, and I drew up the state of my affairs in writing, not so much to
leave them to any that were to come after me, for I was like to have but few
heirs, as to deliver my thoughts from daily poring upon them, and afflicting my
mind; and as my reason began now to master my despondency, I began to comfort
myself as well as I could, and to set the good against the evil, that I might
have something to distinguish my case from worse; and I stated it very
impartially, like debtor and creditor, the comforts I enjoyed against the
miseries I suffered, thus:
_Evil_. _Good_.
I am cast upon a horrible But I am alive, and desolate island, void not
drowned, as all my of all hope of recovery. ship's company was.
I am singled out and But I am singled out separated, as it were, too from all
the ship's from all the world to be crew to be spared from miserable. death; and
He that miraculously saved me from death, can deliver me from this condition.
I am divided from But I am not starved mankind, a solitaire, one and
perishing on a barren banished from human society. place, affording no
sustenance.
I have not clothes to But I am in a hot climate, cover me. where if I had
clothes I could hardly wear them.
I am without any defence But I am cast on an or means to resist island, where
I see no any violence of man or wild beasts to hurt me, beast. as I saw on the
coast of Africa: and what if I had been shipwrecked there?
I have no soul to speak But God wonderfully to, or relieve me. sent the ship
in near enough to the shore, that I have gotten out so many necessary things as
will either supply my wants, or enable me to supply myself even as long as I
live.
Upon the whole, here was an undoubted testimony, that there was scarce any
condition in the world so miserable, but there was something _negative_ or
something _positive_ to be thankful for in it; and let this stand as a direction
from the experience of the most miserable of all conditions in this world, that
we may always find in it something to comfort ourselves from, and to set, in the
description of good and evil, on the credit side of the account.
Having now brought my mind a little to relish my condition, and given over
looking out to sea, to see if I could spy a ship; I say, giving over these
things, I began to apply myself to accommodate my way of living, and to make
things as easy to me as I could.
I have already described my habitation, which was a tent under the side of a
rock, surrounded with a strong pale of posts and cables; but I might now rather
call it a wall, for I raised a kind of wall up against it of turfs, about two
foot thick on the outside; and after some time, I think it was a year and half,
I raised rafters from it, leaning to the rock, and thatched or covered it with
boughs of trees, and such things as I could get to keep out the rain, which I
found at some times of the year very violent.
I have already observed how I brought all my goods into this pale, and into
the cave which I had made behind me: but I must observe too that at first this
was a confused heap of goods, which as they lay in no order, so they took up all
my place: I had no room to turn myself; so I set myself to enlarge my cave, and
work farther into the earth; for it was a loose sandy rock, which yielded easily
to the labour I bestowed on it: and so when I found I was pretty safe as to
beasts of prey, I worked sideways to the right hand into the rock; and then,
turning to the right again, worked quite out, and made me a door to come out, on
the outside of my pale or fortification.
This gave me not only egress and regress, as it were a back-way to my tent
and to my storehouse, but gave me room to stow my goods.
And now I began to apply myself to make such necessary things as I found I
most wanted, particularly a chair and a table; for without these I was not able
to enjoy the few comforts I had in the world; I could not write or eat, or do
several things with so much pleasure without a table.
So I went to work; and here I must needs observe, that as reason is the
substance and original of the mathematics, so by stating and squaring every
thing by reason, and by making the most rational judgment of things, every man
may be in time master of every mechanic art. I had never handled a tool in my
life, and yet in time, by labour, application, and contrivance, I found at last
that I wanted nothing but I could have made it, especially if I had had tools;
however, I made abundance of things, even without tools, and some with no more
tools than an adze and a hatchet, which perhaps were never made that way before,
and that with infinite labour: for example, if I wanted a board, I had no other
way but to cut down a tree, set it on an edge before me, and hew it flat on
either side with my axe, till I had brought it to be as thin as a plank, and
then dub it smooth with my adze. It is true, by this method I could make but one
board out of a whole tree; but this I had no remedy for but patience, any more
than I had for the prodigious deal of time and labour which it took me up to
make a plank or board: but my time or labour was little worth, and so it was as
well employed one way as another.
However, I made me a table and a chair, as I observed above, in the first
place; and this I did out of the short pieces of boards that I brought on my
raft from the ship: but when I had wrought out some boards, as above, I made
large shelves of the breadth of a foot and a half one over another, all along
one side of my cave, to lay all my tools, nails, and iron-work, and in a word,
to separate every thing at large in their places, that I might come easily at
them. I knocked pieces into the wall of the rock to hang my guns and all things
that would hang up.
So that, had my cave been to be seen, it looked like a general magazine of
all necessary things; and I had every thing so ready at my hand, that it was a
great pleasure to me to see all my goods in such order, and especially to find
my stock of all necessaries so great.
And now it was that I began to keep a journal of every day's employment; for
indeed at first I was in too much a hurry; and not only hurry as to labour, but
in too much discomposure of mind, and my journal would have been full of many
dull things. For example, I must have said thus: Sept. the 30th, after I got to
shore, and had escaped drowning, instead of being thankful to God for my
deliverance, having first vomited with the great quantity of salt water which
was gotten into my stomach, and recovering myself a little, I ran about the
shore, wringing my hands, and beating my head and face, exclaiming at my misery,
and crying out, I was undone, undone; till tired and faint I was forced to lie
down on the ground to repose, but durst not sleep for fear of being devoured.
Some days after this, and after I had been on board the ship, and got all
that I could out of her, yet I could not forbear getting up to the top of a
little mountain, and looking out to sea in hopes of seeing a ship; then fancy at
a vast distance I spied a sail; please myself with the hopes of it; and then
after looking steadily till I was almost blind, lose it quite, and sit down and
weep like a child, and thus increase my misery by my folly.
But having gotten over these things in some measure, and having settled my
household-stuff and habitation, made me a table and a chair, and all as handsome
about me as I could, I began to keep my journal, of which I shall here give you
the copy (though in it will be told all those particulars over again) as long as
it lasted; for having no more ink, I was forced to leave it off.
* * * * *
THE JOURNAL.
_September 30, 1659_.
I poor miserable Robinson Crusoe, being shipwrecked, during a dreadful storm
in the offing, came on shore on this dismal unfortunate island, which I called
the Island of Despair; all the rest of the ship's company being drowned, and
myself almost dead.
All the rest of that day I spent in afflicting myself at the dismal
circumstances I was brought to, viz. I had neither food, house, clothes, weapon,
or place to fly to, and in despair of any relief, saw nothing but death before
me, either that I should be devoured by wild beasts, murdered by savages, or
starved to death for want of food. At the approach of night I slept in a tree,
for fear of wild creatures, but slept soundly, though it rained all night.
October 1. In the morning I saw, to my great surprise, the ship had floated
with the high tide, and was driven on shore again much nearer the island; which
as it was some comfort on one hand, for seeing her sit upright, and not broken
to pieces, I hoped, if the wind abated, I might get on board, and get some food
and necessaries out of her for my relief; so on the other hand, it renewed my
grief at the loss of my comrades, who I imagined, if we had all staid on board,
might have saved the ship, or at least that they would not have been all
drowned, as they were; and that, had the men been saved, we might perhaps have
built us a boat out of the ruins of the ship, to have carried us to some other
part of the world. I spent great part of this day in perplexing myself on these
things; but at length, seeing the ship almost dry, I went upon the sand as near
as I could, and then swam on board. This day also it continued raining, though
with no wind at all.
From the 1st of October to the 24th. All these days entirely spent in many
several voyages to get all I could out of the ship, which I brought on shore,
every tide of flood, upon rafts. Much rain also in these days, though with some
intervals of fair weather: but, it seems, this was the rainy season.
Oct. 20. I overset my raft, and all the goods I had got up upon it; but being
in shoal water, and the things being chiefly heavy, I recovered many of them
when the tide was out.
Oct. 25. It rained all night and all day, with some gusts of wind; during
which time the ship broke in pieces, the wind blowing a little harder than
before, and was no more to be seen, except the wreck of her, and that only at
low water. I spent this day in covering and securing the goods which I had
saved, that rain might not spoil them.
Oct. 26. I walked about the shore almost all day, to find out a place to fix
my habitation, greatly concerned to secure myself from any attack in the night,
either from wild beasts or men. Towards night I fixed upon a proper place under
a rock, and marked out a semicircle for my encampment, which I resolved to
strengthen with a work, wall, or fortification made of double piles, lined
within with cable, and without with turf.
From the 26th to the 30th I worked very hard in carrying all my goods to my
new habitation, though some part of the time it rained exceeding hard.
The 31st in the morning I went out into the island with my gun, to see for
some food, and discover the country; when I killed a she goat, and her kid
followed me home, which I afterwards killed also, because it would not feed.
November 1. I set up my tent under a rock, and lay there for the first night,
making it as large as I could with stakes driven in to swing my hammock upon.
Nov. 2. I set up all my chests and boards, and the pieces of timber which
made my rafts, and with them formed a fence round me, a little within the place
I had marked out for my fortification.
Nov. 3. I went out with my gun, and killed two fowls like ducks, which were
very good food. In the afternoon went to work to make me a table.
Nov. 4. This morning I began to order my times of work, of going out with my
gun, time of sleep, and time of diversion; viz. every morning I walked out with
my gun for two or three hours, if it did not rain, then employed myself to work
till about eleven o'clock, then ate what I had to live on, and from twelve to
two I lay down to sleep, the weather being excessive hot, and then in the
evening to work again: the working part of this day and of the next were wholly
employed in making my table, for I was yet but a very sorry workman, though time
and necessity make me a complete natural mechanic soon after, as I believe it
would do any one else.
Nov. 5. This day went abroad with my gun and my dog, and killed a wild cat,
her skin pretty soft, but her flesh good for nothing: every creature I killed I
took off the skins and preserved them. Coming back by the sea-shore I saw many
sorts of sea-fowls, which I did not understand; but was surprised and almost
frighted with two or three seals, which, while I was gazing at, not well knowing
what they were, got into the sea, and escaped me for that time.
Nov. 6. After my morning walk I went to work with my table again, and
finished it, though not to my liking, nor was it long before I learnt to mend
it.
Nov. 7. Now it began to be settled fair weather. The 7th, 8th, 9th, 10th, and
part of the 12th (for the 11th was Sunday), I took wholly up to make me a chair,
and with much ado brought it to a tolerable shape, but never to please me; and
even in the making I pulled it in pieces several times. _Note_, I soon neglected
my keeping Sundays, for omitting my mark for them on my post, I forgot which was
which.
Nov. 13. This day it rained, which refreshed me exceedingly, and cooled the
earth, but it was accompanied with terrible thunder and lightning, which
frighted me dreadfully for fear of my powder: as soon as it was over I resolved
to separate my stock of powder into as many little parcels as possible, that it
might not be in danger.
Nov. 14, 15, 16. These three days I spent in making little square chests or
boxes, which might hold a pound, or two pound, at most, of powder; and so
putting the powder in, I stowed it in places as secure and remote from one
another as possible. On one of these three days I killed a large bird that was
good to eat, but I knew not what to call it.
Nov. 17. This day I began to dig behind my tent into the rock, to make room
for my farther conveniency. _Note_, Three things I wanted exceedingly for this
work, viz. a pickaxe, a shovel, and a wheel-barrow or basket; so I desisted from
my work, and began to consider how to supply that want, and make me some tools:
as for a pickaxe, I made use of the iron crows, which were proper enough, though
heavy; but the next thing was a shovel or spade; this was so absolutely
necessary, that indeed I could do nothing effectually without it; but what kind
of one to make I knew not.
Nov. 18. The next day in searching the woods I found a tree of that wood, or
like it, which in the Brasils they call the iron tree, for its exceeding
hardness: of this, with great labour and almost spoiling my axe, I cut a piece,
and brought it home too with difficulty enough, for it was exceeding heavy.
The excessive hardness of the wood, and having no other way, made me a long
while upon this machine; for I worked it effectually by little and little into
the form of a shovel or spade, the handle exactly shaped like ours in England,
only that the broad part having no iron shod upon it at bottom, it would not
last me so long; however, it served well enough for the uses which I had
occasion to put it to; but never was a shovel, I believe, made after that
fashion, or so long a making.
I was still deficient, for I wanted a basket or a wheel-barrow; a basket I
could not make by any means, having no such things as twigs that would bend to
make wicker-ware, at least none yet found out; and as to a wheel-barrow, I
fancied I could make; all but the wheel, but that I had no notion of, neither
did I know how to go about it; besides, I had no possible way to make the iron
gudgeons for the spindle or axis of the wheel to run in, so I gave it over; and
so for carrying away the earth which I dug out of the cave, I made me a thing
like a hod which the labourers carry mortar in, when they serve the bricklayers.
This was not so difficult to me as the making the shovel; and yet this, and
the shovel, and the attempt which I made in vain to make a wheel-barrow, took me
up no less than four days, I mean always excepting my morning walk with my gun,
which I seldom failed; and very seldom failed also bringing home something to
eat.
Nov. 23. My other work having now stood still, because of my making these
tools, when they were finished I went on, and working every day, as my strength
and time allowed, I spent eighteen days entirely in widening and deepening my
cave, that it might hold my goods commodiously.
_Note_, During all this time, I worked to make this room or cave spacious
enough to accommodate me as a warehouse or magazine, a kitchen, a dining-room,
and a cellar: as for my lodging, I kept to the tent, except that sometimes in
the wet season of the year, it rained so hard that I could not keep myself dry,
which caused me afterwards to cover all my place within my pale with long poles
in the form of rafters, leaning against the rock, and load them with flags and
large leaves of trees like a thatch.
Dec. 10. I began now to think my cave or vault finished, when on a sudden (it
seems I had made it too large) a great quantity of earth fell down from the top
and one side, so much that in short it frighted me, and not without reason too;
for if I had been under it I had never wanted a gravedigger. Upon this disaster
I had a great deal of work to do over again; for I had the loose earth to carry
out, and, which was of more importance, I had the ceiling to prop up, so that I
might be sure no more would come down.
Dec. 11. This day I went to work with it accordingly, and got two shores or
posts pitched upright to the top, with two pieces of boards across over each
post; this I finished the next day; and setting more posts up with boards, in
about a week more I had the roof secured; and the posts, standing in rows,
served me for partitions to part off my house.
Dec. 17. From this day to the twentieth I placed shelves, and knocked up
nails on the posts to hang every thing up that could be hung up: and now I began
to be in some order within doors.
Dec. 20. Now I carried every thing into the cave, and began to furnish my
house, and set up some pieces of boards like a dresser, to order my victuals
upon; but boards began to be very scarce with me: also I made me another table.
Dec. 24. Much rain all night and all day; no stirring out.
Dec. 25. Rain all day.
Dec. 26. No rain, and the earth much cooler than before and pleasanter.
Dec. 27. Killed a young goat, and lamed another, so that I caught it, and led
it home in a string; when I had it home, I bound and splintered up its leg which
was broke. N.B. I took such care of it that it lived, and the leg grew well and
as strong as ever; but by nursing it so long it grew tame, and fed upon the
little green at my door, and would not go away. This was the first time that I
entertained a thought of breeding up some tame creatures, that I might have food
when my powder and shot was all spent.
Dec. 28, 29, 30. Great heats and no breeze; so that there was no stirring
abroad, except in the evening for food. This time I spent in putting all my
things in order within doors.
January 1. Very hot still, but I went abroad early and late with my gun, and
lay still in the middle of the day. This evening, going farther into the vallies
which lay towards the centre of the island, I found there was plenty of goats,
though exceeding shy and hard to come at; however, I resolved to try if I could
not bring my dog to hunt them down.
Jan. 2. Accordingly, the next day I went out with my dog, and set him upon
the goats; but I was mistaken, for they all faced about upon the dog; and he
knew his danger too well, for he would, not come near them.
Jan. 3. I began my fence or wall; which, being still jealous of my being
attacked by somebody, I resolved to make very thick and strong.
N.B. This wall being described before, I purposely omit what was said, in the
Journal; it is sufficient to observe, that I was no less time than from the 3d
of January to the 14th of April, working, finishing, and perfecting this wall,
though it was no more than about twenty-four yards in length, being a
half-circle from one place in the rock to another place about eight yards from
it, the door of the cave being in the centre behind it.
All this time I worked very hard, the rains hindering me many days, nay,
sometimes weeks together; But I thought I should never be perfectly secure until
this wall was finished; and it is scarce credible what inexpressible labour
every thing was done with, especially the bringing piles out of the woods, and
driving them into the ground, for I made them much bigger than I need to have
done.
When this wall was finished, and the outside double fenced with a turf wall
raised up close to it, I persuaded myself that if any people were to come on
shore there, they would not perceive any thing like a habitation; and it was
very well I did so, as may be observed hereafter upon a very remarkable
occasion.
During this time I made my rounds in the woods for game every day, when the
rain admitted me, and made frequent discoveries in these walks of something or
other to my advantage; particularly I found a kind of wild pigeons, who built
not as wood pigeons in a tree, but rather as house pigeons, in the holes of the
rocks; and taking some young ones, I endeavoured to breed them up tame, and did
so; but when they grew older they flew away, which perhaps was at first for want
of feeding them, for I had nothing to give them; however, I frequently found
their nests, and got their young ones, which were very good meat.
And now, in the managing my household affairs, I found myself wanting in many
things, which I thought at first it was impossible for me to make, as indeed as
to some of them it was; for instance, I could never make a cask to be hooped; I
had a small runlet or two, as I observed before, but I could never arrive to the
capacity of making one by them, though I spent many weeks about it; I could
neither put in the heads, or joint the staves so true to one another as to make
them hold water: so I gave that also over.
In the next place, I was at a great loss for candle; so that as soon as ever
it was dark, which was generally by seven o'clock, I was obliged to go to bed: I
remembered the lump of bees-wax with which I made candles in my African
adventure, but I had none of that now; the only remedy I had, was, that when I
had killed a goat I saved the tallow, and with a little dish made of clay, which
I baked in the sun, to which I added a wick of some oakum, I made me a lamp; and
this gave me light, though not a clear steady light like a candle. In the middle
of all my labours it happened, that, rummaging my things, I found a little bag,
which, as I hinted before, had been filled with corn for the feeding of poultry;
not for this voyage, but before, as I suppose, when the ship came from Lisbon;
what little remainder of corn had been in the bag, was all devoured with the
rats, and I saw nothing in the bag but husks and dust; and being willing to have
the bag for some other use, I think it was to put powder in, when I divided it
for fear of the lightning, or some such use, I shook the husks of corn out of it
on one side of my fortification under the rock.
It was a little before the great rains, just now mentioned, that I threw this
stuff away, taking no notice of any thing, and not so much as remembering that I
had thrown any thing there; when about a month after, or thereabout, I saw some
few stalks of something green shooting out of the ground, which I fancied might
be some plant I had not seen; but I was surprised and perfectly astonished, when
after a little longer time I saw about ten or twelve ears come out, which were
perfect green barley of the same kind as our European, nay, as our English
barley.
It is impossible to express the astonishment and confusion of my thoughts on
this occasion; I had hitherto acted upon no religious foundation at all; indeed
I had very few notions of religion in my head, or had entertained any sense of
any thing that had befallen me, otherwise than as a chance, or, as we lightly
say, what pleases God; without so much as inquiring into the end of Providence
in these things, or his order in governing events in the world: but after I saw
barley grow there, in a climate which I knew was not proper for corn, and
especially that I knew not how it came there, it startled me strangely, and I
began to suggest, that God had miraculously caused this grain to grow without
any help of seed sown, and that it was so directed purely for my sustenance on
that wild miserable place.
This touched my heart a little, and brought tears out of my eyes, and I began
to bless myself, that such a prodigy of nature should happen upon my account;
and this was the more strange to me, because I saw near it still, all along by
the side of the rock, some other straggling stalks, which proved to be stalks of
rice, and which I knew, because I had seen it grow in Africa, when I was ashore
there.
I not only thought these the pure productions of Providence for my support,
but not doubting but that there was more in the place, I went all over that part
of the island, where I had been before, peeping in every corner and under every
rock to see for more of it, but I could not find any; at last it occurred to my
thought, that I had shook a bag of chicken's meat out in that place, and then
the wonder began to cease; and I must confess, my religious thankfulness to
God's providence began to abate too upon discovering that all this was nothing
but what was common; though I ought to have been as thankful for so strange and
unforeseen a providence as if it had been miraculous; for it was really the work
of Providence as to me, that should order or appoint ten or twelve grains of
corn to remain unspoiled, when the rats had destroyed all the rest, as if it had
been dropped from heaven: as also, that I should throw it out in that particular
place, where, it being in the shade of a high rock, it sprang up immediately;
whereas if I had thrown it any were else at that time, it had been burnt up and
destroyed.
I carefully saved the ears of corn, you may be sure, in their season, which
was about the end of June, and laying up every corn, I resolved to sow them all
again, hoping in time to have some quantity sufficient to supply me with bread;
but it was not till the fourth year that I could allow myself the least grain of
this corn to eat, and even then but sparingly, as I shall say afterwards in its
order; for I lost all that I sowed the first season, by not observing the proper
time; for I sowed it just before the dry season, so that it never came up at
all, at least not as it would have done: of which in its place.
Besides this barley there were, as above, twenty or thirty stalks of rice,
which I preserved with the same care, and whose use was of the same kind or to
the same purpose, viz. to make me bread, or rather food; for I found ways to
cook it up without baking, though I did that also after some time. But to return
to my journal.
I worked excessive hard these three or four months to get my wall done; and
the 14th of April I closed it up, contriving to go into it, not by a door, but
over the wall by a ladder, that there might be no sign in the outside of my
habitation.
April 16. I finished the ladder; so I went up with the ladder to the top, and
then pulled it up after me, and let it down on the inside: this was a complete
enclosure to me; for within I had room enough, and nothing could come at me from
without, unless it could first mount my wall.
The very next day after this wall was finished, I had almost had all my
labour overthrown at once, and myself killed; the case was thus: As I was busy
in the inside of it behind my tent, just in the entrance into my cave, I was
terribly frighted with a most dreadful surprising thing indeed; for on a sudden
I found the earth come crumbling down from the roof of my cave, and from the
edge of the hill, over my head, and two of the posts I had set up in the cave
cracked in a frightful manner: I was heartily scared, but thought nothing of
what was really the cause, only thinking that the top of my cave was falling in,
as some of it had done before; and for fear I should be buried in it, I ran
forward to my ladder, and not thinking myself safe there neither, I got over my
wall for fear of the pieces of the hill which I expected might roll down upon
me. I was no sooner stept down upon the firm ground, but I plainly saw it was a
terrible earthquake, for the ground I stood on shook three times at about eight
minutes distance, with three such shocks, as would have overturned the strongest
building that could be supposed to have stood on the earth; and a great piece of
the top of a rock, which stood about half a mile from me next the sea, fell down
with such a terrible noise as I never heard in all my life: I perceived also the
very sea was put into violent motion by it; and I believe the shocks were
stronger under the water than on the island.
I was so amazed with the thing itself, having never felt the like, or
discoursed with any one that had, that I was like one dead or stupified; and the
motion of the earth made my stomach sick, like one that was tossed at sea; but
the noise of the falling of the rock awaked me, as it were, and rousing me from
the stupified condition I was in, filled me with horror, and I thought of
nothing then but the hill falling upon my tent and all my household goods, and
burying all at once; and this sunk my very soul within me a second time.
After the third shock was over, and I felt no more for some time, I began to
take courage, and yet I had not heart enough to get over my wall again, for fear
of being buried alive, but sat still upon the ground, greatly cast down and
disconsolate, not knowing what to do. All this while I had not the least serious
religious thought, nothing but the common "Lord have mercy upon me!" and when it
was over, that went away too.
While I sat thus, I found the air overcast, and grow cloudy, as if it would
rain; soon after that the wind rose by little and little, so that in less than
half an hour it blew a most dreadful hurricane: the sea was all on a sudden
covered over with foam and froth, the shore was covered with the breach of the
water, the trees were torn up by the roots, and a terrible storm it was; and
this held about three hours, and then began to abate, and in two hours more it
was stark calm, and began to rain very hard.
All this while I sat upon the ground, very much terrified and dejected, when
on a sudden it came into my thoughts, that these winds and rain being the
consequence of the earthquake, the earthquake itself was spent and over, and I
might venture into my cave again: with this thought my spirits began to revive,
and the rain also helping to persuade me, I went in and sat down in my tent; but
the rain was so violent, that my tent was ready to be beaten down with it; and I
was forced to go into my cave, though very much afraid and uneasy, for fear it
should fall on my head.
This violent rain forced me to a new work, viz. to cut a hole through my new
fortification like a sink, to let water go out, which would else have drowned my
cave. After I had been in my cave some time, and found still no more shocks of
the earthquake follow, I began to be more composed; and now, to support my
spirits, which indeed wanted it very much, I went to my little store, and took a
small sup of rum, which however I did then and always very sparingly, knowing I
could have no more when that was gone.
It continued raining all that night, and great part of the next day, so that
I could not stir abroad; but my mind being more composed, I began to think of
what I had best do, concluding, that if the island was subject to these
earthquakes, there would be no living for me in a cave, but I must consider of
building me some little hut in an open place, which I might surround with a wall
as I had done here, and so make myself secure from wild beasts or men: but
concluded, if I staid where I was, I should certainly, one time or other, be
buried alive.
With these thoughts I resolved to remove my tent from the place where it
stood, which was just under the hanging precipice of the hill, and which, if it
should be shaken again, would certainly fall upon my tent. And I spent the two
next days, being the 19th and 20th of April, in contriving where and how to
remove my habitation.
The fear of being swallowed up alive, made me that I never slept in quiet,
and yet the apprehension of lying abroad without any fence was almost equal to
it; but still, when I looked about and saw how every thing was put in order, how
pleasantly concealed I was, and how safe from danger, it made me very loth to
remove.
In the meantime it occurred to me that it would require a vast deal of time
for me to do this, and that I must be contented to run the venture where I was,
till I had formed a camp for myself, and had secured it so as to remove to it.
So with this resolution I composed myself for a time, and resolved that I would
go to work with all speed to build me a wall with piles and cables, &c. in a
circle as before; and set my tent up in it when it was finished, but that I
would venture to stay where I was till it was finished and fit to remove to.
This was the 21st.
April 22. The next morning I began to consider of means to put this resolve
in execution, but I was at a great loss about my tools. I had three large axes
and abundance of hatchets (for we carried the hatchets for traffic with the
Indians); but with much chopping and cutting knotty hard wood, they were all
full of notches and dull; and though I had a grindstone, I could not turn it and
grind my tools too: this cost me as much thought as a statesman would have
bestowed upon a grand point of politics, or a judge upon the life and death of a
man. At length I contrived a wheel with a string, to turn it with my foot, that
I might have both my hands at liberty. _Note_, I had never seen any such thing
in England, or at least not to take notice how it was done, though since I have
observed it is very common there; besides that, my grindstone was very large and
heavy. This machine cost me a full week's work to bring it to perfection.
April 28, 29. These two whole days I took up in grinding my tools, my machine
for turning my grindstone performing very well.
April 30. Having perceived my bread had been low a great while, now I took a
survey of it, and reduced myself to one biscuit-cake a day, which made my heart
very heavy.
May 1. In the morning, looking towards the sea-side, the tide being low, I
saw something lie on the shore bigger than ordinary; and it looked like a cask;
when I came to it, I found a small barrel, and two or three pieces of the wreck
of the ship, which were driven on shore by the late hurricane; and looking
towards the wreck itself, I thought it seemed to lie higher out of the water
than it used to do. I examined the barrel which was driven on shore, and soon
found it was a barrel of gunpowder, but it had taken water, and the powder was
caked as hard as a stone; however, I rolled it farther on shore for the present,
and went on upon the sands as near as I could to the wreck of the ship, to look
for more.
When I came down to the ship, I found it strangely removed; the forecastle,
which lay before buried in sand, was heaved up at least six foot; and the stern,
which was broke to pieces, and parted from the rest by the force of the sea,
soon after I had left rummaging her, was tossed, as it were, up, and cast on one
side, and the sand was thrown so high on that side next her stern, that whereas
there was a great place of water before, so that I could not come within a
quarter of a mile of the wreck without swimming, I could now walk quite up to
her when the tide was out. I was surprised with this at first, but soon
concluded it must be done by the earthquake: and as by this violence the ship
was more broken open than formerly, so many things came daily on shore, which
the sea had loosened, and which the winds and water rolled by degrees to the
land.
This wholly diverted my thoughts from the design of removing my habitation;
and I busied myself mightily, that day especially, in searching whether I could
make any way into the ship; but I found nothing was to be expected of that kind,
for that all the inside of the ship was choked up with sand: however, as I had
learnt not to despair of any thing, I resolved to pull every thing to pieces
that I could of the ship, concluding, that every thing I could get from her
would be of some use or other to me.
May 3. I began with my saw, and cut a piece of a beam through, which I
thought held some of the upper part or quarter-deck together, and when I had cut
it through, I cleared away the sand as well as I could from the side which lay
highest; but the tide coming in, I was obliged to give over for that time.
Way 4. I went a-fishing, but caught not one fish that I durst eat of, till I
was weary of my sport; when just going to leave off, I caught a young dolphin. I
had made me a long line of some rope yarn, but I had no hooks, yet I frequently
caught fish enough, as much as I cared to eat; all which I dried in the sun, and
ate them dry.
May 5. Worked on the wreck, cut another beam asunder, and brought three great
fir planks off from the decks, which I tied together, and made swim on shore
when the tide of flood came on.
May 6. Worked on the wreck, got several iron bolts out of her, and other
pieces of iron-work; worked very hard, and came home very much tired, and had
thoughts of giving it over.
May 7. Went to the wreck again, but with an intent not to work, but found the
weight of the wreck had broke itself down, the beams being cut, that several
pieces of the ship seemed to lie loose, and the inside of the hold lay so open,
that I could see into it, but almost full of water and sand.
May 8. Went to the wreck, and carried an iron crow to wrench up the deck,
which lay now quite clear of the water or sand; I wrenched open two planks, and
brought them on shore also with the tide: I left the iron crow in the wreck for
next day.
May 9. Went to the wreck, and with the crow made way into the body of the
wreck, and felt several casks, and loosened them with the crow, but could not
break them up: I felt also the roll of English lead, and could stir it, but it
was too heavy to remove.
May 10, 11, 12, 13, 14. Went every day to the wreck, and got a great many
pieces of timber, and boards, or plank, and two or three hundred weight of iron.
May 15. I carried two hatchets, to try if I could not cut a piece off the
roll of lead, by placing the edge of one hatchet, and driving it with the other;
but as it lay about a foot and a half in the water, I could not make any blow to
drive the hatchet.
May 16. It had blown hard in the night, and the wreck appeared more broken by
the force of the water; but I staid so long in the woods to get pigeons for
food, that the tide prevented me going to the wreck that day.
May 17. I saw some pieces of the wreck blown on shore, at a great distance,
near two miles off me, but resolved to see what they were, and found it was a
piece of the head, but too heavy for me to bring away.
May 24. Every day to this day I worked on the wreck, and with hard labour I
loosened some things so much with the crow, that the first flowing tide several
casks floated out, and two of the seamen's chests; but the wind blowing from the
shore, nothing came to land that day but pieces of timber, and a hogshead, which
had some Brasil pork in it, but the salt water and the sand had spoiled it.
I continued this work every day to the 15th of June, except the time
necessary to get food, which I always appointed, during this part of my
employment, to be when the tide was up, that I might be ready when it was ebbed
out; and by this time I had gotten timber, and plank, and iron-work enough to
have built a good boat, if I had known how; and also I got at several times, and
in several pieces, near one hundred weight of the sheet-lead.
June 16. Going down to the sea-side, I found a large tortoise or turtle: this
was the first I had seen, which it seems was only my misfortune, not any defect
of the place, or scarcity; for had I happened to be on the other side of the
island, I might have had hundreds of them every day, as I found afterwards; but
perhaps had paid dear enough for them.
June 17. I spent in cooking the turtle; I found in her threescore eggs; and
her flesh was to me at that time the most savory and pleasant that ever I tasted
in my life, having had no flesh, but of goats and fowls, since I landed in this
horrid place.
June 18. Rained all day, and I stayed within. I thought at this time the rain
felt cold, and I was something chilly, which I knew was not usual in that
latitude.
June 19. Very ill, and shivering, as if the weather had been cold.
June 20. No rest all night, violent pains in my head, and feverish.
June 21. Very ill, frighted almost to death with the apprehensions of my sad
condition, to be sick, and no help. Prayed to God for the first time since the
storm off Hull, but scarce knew what I said, or why; my thoughts being all
confused.
June 22. A little better, but under dreadful apprehensions of sickness.
June 23. Very bad again, cold and shivering, and then a violent headach.
June 24. Much better.
June 25. An ague very violent; the fit held me seven hours, cold fit and hot,
with faint sweats after it.
June 26. Better; and having no victuals to eat, took my gun, but found myself
very weak; however, I killed a she-goat, and with much difficulty got it home,
and broiled some of it, and ate; I would fain have stewed it, and made some
broth, but had no pot.
June 27. The ague again so violent, that I lay abed all day, and neither ate
or drank. I was ready to perish for thirst, but so weak I had not strength to
stand up, or to get myself any water to drink. Prayed to God again, but was
light-headed; and when I was not I was so ignorant, that I knew not what to say;
only I lay and cried, "Lord look upon me! Lord pity me! Lord have mercy upon
me!" I suppose I did nothing else for two or three hours, till the fit wearing
off, I fell asleep, and did not wake till far in the night; when I waked, I
found myself much refreshed, but weak, and exceeding thirsty: however, as I had
no water in my whole habitation, I was forced to lie till morning, and went to
sleep again. In this second sleep I had this terrible dream.
I thought that I was sitting on the ground on the outside of my wall, where I
sat when the storm blew after the earthquake, and that I saw a man descend from
a great black cloud, in a bright flame of fire, and light upon the ground. He
was all over as bright as a flame, so that I could but just bear to look towards
him; his countenance was most inexpressibly dreadful, impossible for words to
describe; when he stepped upon the ground with his feet I thought the earth
trembled, just as it had done before in the earthquake, and all the air looked
to my apprehension as if it had been filled with flashes of fire.
He was no sooner landed upon the earth, but he moved forward towards me, with
a long spear or weapon in his hand to kill me; and when he came to a rising
ground, at some distance, he spoke to me, or I heard a voice so terrible, that
it is impossible to express the terror of it; all that I can say I understood
was this, "Seeing all these things have not brought thee to repentance, now thou
shall die:" at which words I thought he lifted up the spear that was in his hand
to kill me.
No one, that shall ever read this account, will expect that I should be able
to describe the horrors of my soul at this terrible vision; I mean, that even
while it was a dream, I even dreamed of those horrors; nor is it any more
possible to describe the impression that remained upon my mind, when I awaked,
and found it was but a dream.
I had, alas! no divine knowledge; what I had received by the good instruction
of my father was then worn out by an uninterrupted series, for eight years, of
seafaring wickedness, and a constant conversation with nothing but such as were,
like myself, wicked and profane to the last degree. I do not remember that I had
in all that time one thought that so much as tended either to looking upwards
toward God, or inwards towards a reflection upon my own ways. But a certain
stupidity of soul, without desire of good, or conscience of evil, had entirely
overwhelmed me, and I was all that the most hardened, unthinking, wicked
creature among our common sailors can be supposed to be, not having the least
sense, either of the fear of God in danger, or of thankfulness to God in
deliverances.
In the relating what is already past of my story, this will be the more
easily believed, when I shall add, that through all the variety of miseries that
had to this day befallen me, I never had so much as one thought of it being the
hand of God, or that it was a just punishment for my sin, my rebellious
behaviour against my father, or my present sins, which were great; or so much as
a punishment for the general course of my wicked life. When I was on the
desperate expedition on the desert shores of Africa, I never had so much as one
thought of what would become of me; or one wish to God to direct me whither I
should go, or to keep me from the danger which apparently surrounded me, as well
from voracious creatures as cruel savages: but I was merely thoughtless of a
God, or a Providence, acted like a mere brute from the principles of nature, and
by the dictates of common sense only, and indeed hardly that.
When I was delivered, and taken up at sea by the Portugal captain, well used,
and dealt justly and honourably with, as well as charitably, I had not the least
thankfulness on my thoughts. When again I was shipwrecked, ruined, and in danger
of drowning on this island, I was as far from remorse, or looking on it as a
judgment; I only said to myself often, that I was _an unfortunate dog_, and born
to be always miserable.
It is true, when I got on shore first here, and found all my ship's crew
drowned, and myself spared, I was surprised with a kind of ecstasy, and some
transports of soul, which, had the grace of God assisted, might have come up to
true thankfulness; but it ended where it begun, in a mere common flight of joy,
or, as I may say, _being glad I was alive_, without the least reflection upon
the distinguishing goodness of the Hand which had preserved me, and had singled
me out to be preserved, when all the rest were destroyed; or an inquiry why
Providence had been thus merciful to me; even just the same common sort of joy
which seamen generally have, after they have got safe on shore from a shipwreck,
which they drown all in the next bowl of punch, and forget almost as soon as it
is over; and all the rest of my life was like it.
Even when I was afterwards, on due consideration, made sensible of my
condition, how I was cast on this dreadful place, out of the reach of human
kind, out of all hope of relief, or prospect of redemption, as soon as I saw but
a prospect of living, and that I should not starve and perish for hunger, all
the sense of my affliction wore off, and I began to be very easy, applied myself
to the works proper for my preservation and supply, and was far enough from
being afflicted at my condition, as a judgment from Heaven, or as the hand of
God against me: these were thoughts which very seldom entered into my head.
The growing up of the corn, as is hinted in my Journal, had at first some
little influence upon me, and began to affect me with seriousness, as long as I
thought it had something miraculous in it; but as soon as ever that part of
thought was removed, all the impression which was raised from it wore off also,
as I have noted already.
Even the earthquake, though nothing could be more terrible in its nature, or
more immediately directing to the invisible Power which alone directs such
things; yet no sooner was the first fright over, but the impression it had made
went off also. I had no more sense of God, or his judgments, much less of the
present affliction of my circumstances being from his hand, than if I had been
in the most prosperous condition of life.
But now, when I began to be sick, and a leisurely view of the miseries of
death came to place itself before me; when my spirits began to sink under the
burden of a strong distemper, and nature was exhausted with the violence of the
fever; conscience, that had slept so long, began to awake, and I began to
reproach myself with my past life, in which I had so evidently, by uncommon
wickedness, provoked the justice of God to lay me under uncommon strokes, and to
deal with me in so vindictive a manner.
These reflections oppressed me from the second or third day of my distemper,
and in the violence, as well of the fever as of the dreadful reproaches of my
conscience, extorted some words from me, like praying to God, though I cannot
say they were either a prayer attended with desires, or with hopes; it was
rather the voice of mere fright and distress; my thoughts were confused, the
convictions great upon my mind, and the horror of dying in such a miserable
condition, raised vapours into my head with the mere apprehensions; and, in
these hurries of my soul, I knew not what my tongue might express: but it was
rather exclamation, such as, "Lord! what a miserable creature am I! If I should
be sick, I shall certainly die for want of help, and what will become of me!"
Then the tears burst out of my eyes, and I could say no more for a good while.
In this interval, the good advice of my father came to my mind; and presently
his prediction, which I mentioned in the beginning of this story, viz. that if I
did take this foolish step, God would not bless me, and I would have leisure
hereafter to reflect upon having neglected his counsel, when there might be none
to assist in my recovery. "Now," said I aloud, "my dear father's words are come
to pass: God's justice has overtaken me, and I have none to help or hear me: I
rejected the voice of Providence, which had mercifully put me in a posture or
station of life wherein I might have been happy and easy; but I would neither
see it myself, nor learn to know the blessing of it from my parents; I left them
to mourn over my folly, and now I am left to mourn under the consequences of it:
I refused their help and assistance, who would have lifted me into the world,
and would have made every thing easy to me; and now I have difficulties to
struggle with, too great for even nature itself to support, and no assistance,
no help, no comfort, no advice." Then I cried out, "Lord be my help, for I am in
great distress!"
This was the first prayer, if I might call it so, that I had made for many
years. But I return to my journal.
June 28. Having been somewhat refreshed with the sleep I had had, and the fit
being entirely off, I got up: and though the fright and terror of my dream was
very great, yet I considered, that the fit of the ague would return again the
next day, and now was my time to get something to refresh and support myself
when I should be ill; and the first thing I did, I filled a large square
case-bottle with water, and set it upon my table, in reach of my bed; and to
take off the chill or aguish disposition of the water, I put about a quarter of
a pint of rum into it, and mixed them together; then I got me a piece of the
goat's flesh, and broiled it on the coals, but could eat very little. I walked
about, but was very weak, and withal very sad and heavy-hearted under a sense of
my miserable condition, dreading the return of my distemper the next day. At
night I made my supper of three of the turtle's eggs, which I roasted in the
ashes, and ate, as we call it, in the shell; and this was the first bit of meat
I had ever asked God's blessing to, even, as I could remember, in my whole life.
After I had eaten I tried to walk; but found myself so weak, that I could
hardly carry the gun (for I never went out without that): so I went but a little
way, and sat down upon the ground, looking out upon the sea, which was just
before me, and very calm and smooth. As I sat here, some such thoughts as these
occurred to me:
What is the earth and sea, of which I have seen so much? Whence is it
produced? And what am I, and all the other creatures, wild and tame, human and
brutal? whence are we?
Sure we are all made by some secret Power, who formed the earth and sea, the
air and sky; and who is that?
Then it followed, most naturally: it is God that has made it all: well, but
then it came on strangely; if God has made all these things, he guides and
governs them all, and all things that concern them; for the Being that could
make all things, must certainly have power to guide and direct them.
If so, nothing can happen in the great circuit of his works, either without
his knowledge or appointment.
And if nothing happens without his knowledge, he knows that I am here, and am
in a dreadful condition; and if nothing happens without his appointment, he has
appointed all this to befal me.
Nothing occurred to my thoughts to contradict any of these conclusions; and
therefore it rested upon me with the greater force, that it must needs be, that
God had appointed all this to befal me; that I was brought to this miserable
circumstance by his direction, he having the sole power, not of me only, but of
every thing that happened in the world. Immediately it followed,
Why has God done this to me? What have I done to be thus used?
My conscience presently checked me in that inquiry, as if I had blasphemed;
and methought it spoke to me, like a voice; "Wretch! dost thou ask what thou
hast done? look back upon a dreadful mispent life, and ask thyself what thou
hast not done? ask, why is it that thou wert not long ago destroyed? why wert
thou not drowned in Yarmouth Roads? killed in the fight when the ship was taken
by the Sallee man of war? devoured by the wild beasts on the coast of Africa?
or, drowned here, when all the crew perished but thyself? Dost thou ask, What
have I done?"
I was struck with these reflections as one astonished, and had not a word to
say, no, not to answer to myself: but rose up pensive and sad, walked back to my
retreat, and went up over my wall, as if I had been going to bed; but my
thoughts were sadly disturbed, and I had no inclination to sleep; so I sat down
in my chair, and lighted my lamp, for it began to be dark. Now, as the
apprehensions of the return of my distemper terrified me very much, it occurred
to my thought, that the Brasilians take no physic but their tobacco, for almost
all distempers; and I had a piece of a roll of tobacco in one of the chests,
which was quite cured, and some also that was green, and not quite cured.
I went, directed by Heaven, no doubt; for in this chest I found a cure both
for soul and body. I opened the chest, and found what I looked for, viz. the
tobacco; and as the few books I had saved lay there too, I took out one of the
Bibles which I mentioned before, and which, to this time, I had not found
leisure, or so much as inclination, to look into; I say I took it out, and
brought both that and the tobacco with me to the table.
What use to make of the tobacco I knew not, as to my distemper, or whether it
was good for it or no; but I tried several experiments with it, as if I was
resolved it should hit one way or other: I first took a piece of a leaf, and
chewed it in my mouth, which indeed at first almost stupified my brain, the
tobacco being green and strong, and that I had not been much used to it; then I
took some, and steeped it an hour or two in some rum, and resolved to take a
dose of it when I lay down; and lastly, I burnt some upon a pan of coals, and
held my nose close over the smoke of it, as long as I could bear it, as well for
the heat as the virtue of it, and I held almost to suffocation.
In the interval of this operation I took up the Bible, and began to read; but
my head was too much disturbed with the tobacco to bear reading, at least at
that time; only having opened the book casually, the first words that occurred
to me were these: "Call on me in the day of trouble, and I will deliver, and
thou shalt glorify me."
The words were very apt to my case, and made some impression upon my thoughts
at the time of reading them, though not so much as they did afterwards; for as
for being delivered, the word had no sound, as I may say, to me; the thing was
so remote, so impossible in my apprehension of things, that I began to say as
the children of Israel did, when they were promised flesh to eat, "Can God
spread a table in the wilderness?" So I began to say, Can God himself deliver me
from this place? And as it was not for many years that any hope appeared, this
prevailed very often upon my thoughts: but, however, the words made a very great
impression upon me, and I mused upon them very often. It grew now late, and the
tobacco had, as I said, dozed my head so much, that I inclined to sleep; so that
I left my lamp burning in the cave, lest I should want any thing in the night,
and went to bed; but before I lay down, I did what I never had done in all my
life: I kneeled down, and prayed to God to fulfil the promise to me, that if I
called upon him in the day of trouble, he would deliver me. After my broken and
imperfect prayer was over, I drank the rum in which I had steeped the tobacco,
which was so strong and rank of the tobacco, that indeed I could scarce get it
down. Immediately upon this I went to bed, and I found presently it flew up into
my head violently; but I fell into a sound sleep, and waked no more, till by the
sun it must necessarily be near three o'clock in the afternoon the next day;
nay, to this hour I am partly of the opinion, that I slept all the next day and
night, and till almost three the day after; for otherwise I knew not how I
should lose a day out of my reckoning in the days of the week, as it appeared
some years after I had done; for if I had lost it by crossing and recrossing the
line, I should have lost more than a day; but in my account it was lost, and I
never knew which way.
Be that however one way or other; when I awaked, I found myself exceedingly
refreshed, and my spirits lively and cheerful; when I got up, I was stronger
than I was the day before, and my stomach better; for I was hungry; and, in
short, I had no fit the next day, but continued much altered for the better:
this was the 29th.
The 30th was my well day of course, and I went abroad with my gun, but did
not care to travel too far: I killed a sea-fowl or two, something like a brand
goose, and brought them home, but was not very forward to eat them: so I ate
some more of the turtle's eggs, which were very good. This evening I renewed the
medicine which I had supposed did me good the day before, viz. the tobacco
steeped in rum; only I did not take so much as before, nor did I chew any of the
leaf, or hold my head over the smoke; however, I was not so well the next day,
which was the 1st of July, as I hoped I should have been; for I had a little
spice of the cold fit, but it was not much.
July 2. I renewed the medicine all the three ways, and dozed myself with it
at first, and doubled the quantity which I drank.
July 3. I missed the fit for good and all, though I did not recover my full
strength for some weeks after. While I was thus gathering strength, my thoughts
ran exceedingly upon this scripture, "I will deliver thee;" and the
impossibility of my deliverance lay much upon my mind, in bar of my ever
expecting it: but as I was discouraging myself with such thoughts, it occurred
to my mind, that I pored so much upon my deliverance from the main affliction,
that I disregarded the deliverance I had received; and I was, as it were, made
to ask myself such questions as these; viz. Have I not been delivered, and
wonderfully too, from sickness? from the most distressed condition that could
be, and that was so frightful to me? and what notice had I taken of it? had I
done my part? _God had delivered me;_ but _I had not glorified him_: that is to
say, I had not owned and been thankful for that as a deliverance; and how could
I expect greater deliverance?
This touched my heart very much, and immediately I kneeled down, and gave God
thanks aloud, for my recovery from my sickness.
July 4. In the morning I took the Bible; and, beginning at the New Testament,
I began seriously to read it, and imposed upon myself to read a while every
morning and every night, not tying myself to the number of chapters, but as long
as my thoughts should engage me. It was not long after I set seriously to this
work, but I found my heart more deeply and sincerely affected with the
wickedness of my past life; the impression of my dream revived, and the words,
"All these things have not brought thee to repentance," ran seriously in my
thoughts: I was earnestly begging of God to give me repentance, when it happened
providentially the very day, that, reading the Scripture, I came to these words,
"He is exalted a Prince, and a Saviour, to give repentance, and to give
remission." I threw down the book, and with my heart as well as my hand lifted
up to heaven, in a kind of ecstasy of joy, I cried out aloud, "Jesus, thou Son
of David, Jesus, thou exalted Prince and Saviour, give me repentance!"
This was the first time that I could say, in the true sense of the words,
that I prayed in all my life; for now I prayed with a sense of my condition, and
with a true Scripture view of hope, founded on the encouragement of the word of
God; and from this time, I may say, I began to have hope that God would hear me.
Now I began to construe the words mentioned above, "Call on me, and I will
deliver thee," in a different sense from what I had ever done before; for then I
had no notion of any thing being called deliverance, but my being delivered from
the captivity I was in; for though I was indeed at large in the place, yet the
island was certainly a prison to me, and that in the worst sense in the world;
but now I learnt to take it in another sense. Now I looked back upon my past
life with such horror, and my sins appeared so dreadful, that my soul sought
nothing of God, but deliverance from the load of guilt that bore down all my
comfort. As for my solitary life, it was nothing; I did not so much as pray to
be delivered from it, or think of it; it was all of no consideration in
comparison of this; and I added this part here, to hint to whoever shall read
it, that whenever they come to a true sense of things, they will find
deliverance from sin a much greater blessing than deliverance from affliction.
But, leaving this part, I return to my journal. My condition began now to be,
though not less miserable as to my way of living, yet much easier to my mind;
and my thoughts being directed, by a constant reading the Scripture, and praying
to God, to things of a higher nature, I had a great deal of comfort within,
which till now I knew nothing of; also as my health and strength returned, I
bestirred myself to furnish myself with every thing that I wanted, and make my
way of living as regular as I could.
From the 4th of July to the 14th, I was chiefly employed in walking about
with my gun in my hand a little and a little at a time, as a man that was
gathering up his strength after a fit of sickness; for it is hardly to be
imagined how low I was, and to what weakness I was reduced. The application
which I made use of was perfectly new, and perhaps what had never cured an ague
before; neither can I recommend it to any one to practise by this experiment;
and though it did carry off the fit, yet it rather contributed to weaken me; for
I had frequent convulsions in my nerves and limbs for some time.
I learnt from it also this in particular, that being abroad in the rainy
season was the most pernicious thing to my health that could be, especially in
those rains which came attended with storms and hurricanes of wind; for as the
rain which came in a dry season was always most accompanied with such storms, so
I found this rain was much more dangerous than the rain which fell in September
and October.
I had been now in this unhappy island above ten months; all possibility of
deliverance from this condition seemed to be entirely taken from me; and I
firmly believed that no human shape had ever set foot upon that place. Having
now secured my habitation, as I thought, fully to my mind, I had a great desire
to make a more perfect discovery of the island, and to see what other
productions I might find, which yet I knew nothing of.
It was the 15th of July that I began to take a more particular survey of the
island itself. I went up the creek first, where, as I hinted, I brought my rafts
on shore. I found, after I came about two miles up, that the tide did not flow
any higher, and that it was no more than a little brook of running water, and
very fresh and good: but this being the dry season, there was hardly any water
in some parts of it, at least not enough to run into any stream, so as it could
be perceived.
On the bank of this brook I found many pleasant savannas or meadows, plain,
smooth, and covered with grass; and on the rising parts of them next to the
higher grounds, where the water, as it might be supposed, never overflowed, I
found a great deal of tobacco, green, and growing to a great and very strong
stalk: there were divers other plants which I had no notion of, or understanding
about; and might perhaps have virtues of their own, which I could not find out.
I searched for the cassave root, which the Indians in all that climate make
their bread of, but I could find none. I saw large plants of aloes, but did not
then understand them: I saw several sugar-canes, but wild, and, for want of
cultivation, imperfect. I contented myself with these discoveries for this time,
and came back, musing with myself what course I might take to know the virtue
and goodness of any of the fruits or plants which I should discover, but could
bring it to no conclusion; for, in short, I had made so little observation while
I was in the Brasils, that I knew little of the plants of the field, at least
very little that might serve me to any purpose now in my distress.
The next day, the 16th, I went up the same way again; and, after going
something farther than I had done the day before, I found the brook and the
savannas began to cease, and the country became more woody than before. In this
part I found different fruits, and particularly I found melons upon the ground
in great abundance, and grapes upon the trees; the vines had spread indeed over
the trees, and the clusters of grapes were just now in their prime, very ripe
and rich. This was a surprising discovery, and I was exceeding glad of them; but
I was warned by my experience to eat sparingly of them, remembering, that when I
was ashore in Barbary, the eating of grapes killed several of our Englishmen who
were slaves there, by throwing them into fluxes and fevers: but I found an
excellent use for these grapes, and that was to cure or dry them in the sun, and
keep them as dried grapes or raisins are kept, which I thought would be, as
indeed they were, as wholesome, and as agreeable to eat, when no grapes might be
had.
I spent all that evening there, and went not back to my habitation, which by
the way was the first night, as I might say, I had lain from home. In the night
I took my first contrivance, and got up into a tree, where I slept well, and the
next morning proceeded upon my discovery, travelling near four miles, as I might
judge by the length of the valley, keeping still due north, with a ridge of
hills on the south and north side of me.
At the end of this march I came to an opening, where the country seemed to
descend to the west; and a little spring of fresh water, which issued out of the
side of the hill by me, ran the other way, that is, due east; and the country
appeared so fresh, so green, so flourishing, every thing being in a constant
verdure or flourish of spring, that it looked like a planted garden.
I descended a little on the side of that delicious valley, surveying it with
a secret kind of pleasure (though mixed with other afflicting thoughts) to think
that this was all my own, that I was king and lord of all this country
indefeasibly, and had a right of possession; and if I could convey it, I might
have it in inheritance, as completely as any lord of a manor in England. I saw
here abundance of cocoa-trees, orange and lemon, and citron-trees, but all wild,
and few bearing any fruit; at least, not then: however, the green limes that I
gathered were not only pleasant to eat, but very wholesome; and I mixed their
juice afterwards with water, which made it very wholesome, and very cool and
refreshing.
I found now I had business enough to gather and carry home; and resolved to
lay up a store, as well of grapes as limes and lemons, to furnish myself for the
wet season, which I knew was approaching.
In order to do this I gathered a great heap of grapes in one place, and a
lesser heap in another place, and a great parcel of limes and lemons in another
place; and taking a few of each with me, I travelled homeward, and resolved to
come again, and bring a bag or sack, or what I could make, to carry the rest
home.
Accordingly, having spent three days in this journey, I came home (so I must
now call my tent, and my cave;) but before I got thither, the grapes were
spoiled; the richness of the fruit, and the weight of the juice, having broken
them, and bruised them, they were good for little or nothing: as to the limes,
they were good, but I could bring but a few.
The next day, being the 19th, I went back, having made me two small bags to
bring home my harvest. But I was surprised, when coming to my heap of grapes,
which were so rich and fine when I gathered them, I found them all spread
abroad, trod to pieces, and dragged about, some here, some there, and abundance
eaten and devoured. By this I concluded there were some wild creatures
thereabouts, which had done this; but what they were I knew not.
However, as I found there was no laying them up on heaps, and no carrying
them away in a sack, but that one way they would be destroyed, and the other way
they would be crushed with their own weight, I took another course; for I
gathered a large quantity of the grapes, and hung them upon the out branches of
the trees, that they might cure and dry in the sun; and as for the limes and
lemons, I carried as many back as I could well stand under.
When I came home from this journey, I contemplated with great pleasure on the
fruitfulness of that valley, and the pleasantness of the situation, the security
from storms on that side of the water, and the wood; and concluded that I had
pitched upon a place to fix my abode, which was by far the worst part of the
country. Upon the whole, I began to consider of removing my habitation, and to
look out for a place equally safe as where I now was situated, if possible, in
that pleasant fruitful part of the island.
This thought ran long in my head, and I was exceeding fond of it for some
time, the pleasantness of the place tempting me; but when I came to a nearer
view of it, and to consider that I was now by the sea-side, where it was at
least possible that something might happen to my advantage, and that the same
ill fate that brought me hither might bring some other unhappy wretches to the
same place; and though it was scarce probable that any such thing should ever
happen, yet to enclose myself among the hills and woods, in the centre of the
island, was to anticipate my bondage, and to render such an affair not only
improbable, but impossible; and that therefore I ought not by any means to
remove.
However, I was so enamoured with this place, that I spent much of my time
there for the whole remaining part of the month of July; and though, upon second
thoughts, I resolved as above, not to remove, yet I built me a little kind of a
bower, and surrounded it at a distance with a strong fence, being a double
hedge, as high as I could reach, well staked and filled between with brushwood;
and here I lay very secure, sometimes two or three nights together, always going
over it with a ladder, as before; so that I fancied now I had my country house,
and my sea-coast house: and this work took me up the beginning of August.
I had but newly finished my fence, and began to enjoy my labour, but the
rains came on, and made me stick close to my first habitation; for though I had
made me a tent like the other, with a piece of a sail, and spread it very well,
yet I had not the shelter of a hill to keep me from storms, nor a cave behind me
to retreat into when the rains were extraordinary.
About the beginning of August, as I said, I had finished my bower, and began
to enjoy myself. The 3d of August I found the grapes I had hung up were
perfectly dried, and indeed were excellent good raisins of the sun; so I began
to take them down from the trees, and it was very happy that I did so; for the
rains which followed would have spoiled them, and I had lost the best part of my
winter food; for I had above two hundred large bunches of them. No sooner had I
taken them all down, and carried most of them home to my cave, but it began to
rain; and from thence, which was the 14th of August, it rained more or less
every day, till the middle of October; and sometimes so violently, that I could
not stir out of my cave for several days.
In this season I was much surprised with the increase of my family: I had
been concerned for the loss of one of my cats, who ran away from me, or, as I
thought, had been dead; and I heard no more tale or tidings of her, till to my
astonishment she came home about the end of August, with three kittens. This was
the more strange to me, because though I had killed a wild cat, as I called it,
with my gun, yet I thought it was a quite different kind from our European cats;
yet the young cats were the same kind of house breed like the old one; and both
my cats being females, I thought it very strange: but from these three cats I
afterwards came to be so pestered with cats, that I was forced to kill them like
vermin, or wild beasts, and to drive them from my house as much as possible.
From the 14th of August to the 26th, incessant rain, so that I could not
stir, and was now very careful not to be much wet. In this confinement I began
to be straitened for food; but venturing out twice, I one day killed a goat: and
the last day, which was the 26th, found a very large tortoise, which was a treat
to me, and my food was regulated thus: I ate a bunch of raisins for my
breakfast, a piece of the goat's flesh, or of the turtle, for my dinner, broiled
(for, to my great misfortune, I had no vessel to boil or stew any thing;) and
two or three of the turtle's eggs for supper. During this confinement in my
cover by the rain, I worked daily two or three hours at enlarging my cave; and,
by degrees, worked it on towards one side, till I came to the outside of the
hill, and made a door or way out, which came beyond my fence or wall; and so I
came in and out this way: but I was not perfectly easy at lying so open; for as
I had managed myself before, I was in a perfect enclosure, whereas now I thought
I lay exposed; and yet I could not perceive that there was any living thing to
fear, the biggest creature that I had seen upon the island being a goat.
September the 30th. I was now come to the unhappy anniversary of my landing:
I cast up the notches on my post, and found I had been on shore three hundred
and sixty-five days. I kept this day as a solemn fast, setting it apart to a
religious exercise, prostrating myself to the ground with the most serious
humiliation, confessing myself to God, acknowledging his righteous judgment upon
me, and praying to him to have mercy on me, through Jesus Christ; and having not
tasted the least refreshment for twelve hours, even till the going down of the
sun, I then ate a biscuit-cake and a bunch of grapes, and went to bed, finishing
the day as I began it.
I had all this time observed no sabbath-day; for as at first I had no sense
of religion upon my mind, I had after some time omitted to distinguish the
weeks, by making a longer notch than ordinary for the sabbath-day, and so did
not really know what any of the days were; but now, having cast up the days as
before, I found I had been there a year; so I divided it into weeks, and set
apart every seventh day for a sabbath; though I found at the end of my account I
had lost a day or two of my reckoning.
A little after this my ink began to fail me, and so I contented myself to use
it more sparingly, and to write down only the most remarkable events of my life,
without continuing a daily memorandum of other things.
The rainy season, and the dry season, began now to appear regular to me, and
I learnt to divide them so as to provide for them accordingly. But I bought all
my experience before I had it; and this I am going to relate, was one of the
most discouraging experiments that I made at all. I have mentioned, that I had
saved the few ears of barley and rice which I had so surprisingly found spring
up, as I thought, of themselves, and believe there were about thirty stalks of
rice, and about twenty of barley: and now I thought it a proper time to sow it
after the rains, the sun being in its southern position going from me.
Accordingly I dug up a piece of ground, as well as I could, with my wooden
spade, and dividing it into two parts, I sowed my grain; but as I was sowing, it
casually occurred to my thought, that I would not sow it all at first, because I
did not know when was the proper time for it; so I sowed about two thirds of the
seeds, leaving about a handful of each.
It was a great comfort to me afterwards that I did so; for not one grain of
that I sowed this time came to any thing; for the dry months following, the
earth having had no rain after the seed was sown, it had no moisture to assist
its growth, and never came up at all, till the wet season had come again, and
then it grew as if it had been newly sown.
Finding my first seed did not grow, which I easily imagined was by the
drought, I sought for a moister piece of ground to make another trial in; and I
dug up a piece of ground near my new bower, and sowed the rest of my seed in
February, a little before the vernal equinox; and this, having the rainy months
of March and April to water it, sprung up very pleasantly, and yielded a very
good crop; but having part of the seed left only, and not daring to sow all that
I had yet, I had but a small quantity at last, my whole crop not amounting to
above half a peck of each kind.
But by this experience I was made master of my business, and knew exactly
when the proper season was to sow; and that I might expect two seed-times, and
two harvests, every year.
While this corn was growing, I made a little discovery, which was of use to
me afterwards. As soon as the rains were over, and the weather began to settle,
which was about the month of November, I made a visit up the country to my
bower, where though I had not been some months, yet I found all things just as I
left them. The circle or double hedge that I had made, was not only firm and
entire, but the stakes which I had cut off of some trees that grew thereabouts,
were all shot out, and grown with long branches, as much as a willow tree
usually shoots the first year after lopping its head. I could not tell what tree
to call it that these stakes were cut from. I was surprised, and yet very well
pleased, to see the young trees grow; and I pruned them, and led them up to grow
as much alike as I could; and it is scarce credible, how beautiful a figure they
grew into in three years; so that though the hedge made a circle of about
twenty-five yards in diameter, yet the trees, for such I might now call them,
soon covered it; and it was a, complete shade, sufficient to lodge under all the
dry season.
This made me resolve to cut some more stakes, and make me an hedge like this
in a semicircle round my wall, I mean that of my first dwelling, which I did;
and placing the trees or stakes in a double row, at above eight yards distance
from my first fence, they grew presently, and were at first a fine cover to my
habitation, and afterwards served for a defence also, as I shall observe in its
order.
I found now, that the seasons of the year might generally be divided, not
into summer and winter, as in Europe, but into the rainy seasons and the dry
seasons, which were generally thus:
Half February,} Rainy, the sun being then on, or near, March, } the equinox.
Half April, }
Half April,} May,} Dry, the sun being then to the north June,} of the line.
July,} Half August,} September,} Rain, the sun being then come back. Half
October,} Half October,} November,} Dry, the sun being then to the south
December,} of the line. January,} Half February,}
The rainy season sometimes held longer or shorter, as the winds happened to
blow; but this was the general observation I made. After I had found, by
experience, the ill consequence of being abroad in the rain, I took care to
furnish myself with provision beforehand, that I might not be obliged to go out;
and I sat within doors as much as possible during the wet months.
In this time I found much employment, (and very suitable also to the time)
for I found great occasion of many things which I had no way to furnish myself
with, but by hard labour and constant application; particularly, I tried many
ways to make myself a basket; but all the twigs I could get for the purpose
proved so brittle, that they would do nothing. It proved of excellent advantage
to me now, that when I was a boy I used to take great delight in standing at a
basket-maker's in the town where my father lived, to see them make their
wicker-ware; and being, as boys usually are, very officious to help, and a great
observer of the manner how they worked those things, and sometimes lent an hand,
I had by this means so full knowledge of the methods of it, that I wanted
nothing but the materials; when it came into my mind, that the twigs of that
tree from whence I cut my stakes that grew, might possibly be as tough as the
sallows, and willows, and osiers, in England; and I resolved to try.
Accordingly the next day I went to my country-house, as I called it, and
cutting some of the smaller twigs, I found them to my purpose as much as I could
desire; whereupon I came the next time prepared with an hatchet to cut down a
quantity, which I soon found, for there was a great plenty of them: these I set
up to dry within my circle or hedges; and when they were fit for use, I carried
them to my cave; and here during the next season I employed myself in making (as
well as I could) a great many baskets, both to carry earth, or to carry or lay
up any thing, as I had occasion; and though I did not finish them very
handsomely, yet I made them sufficiently serviceable for my purpose; and thus
afterwards I took care never to be without them; and as my wicker-ware decayed I
made more; especially I made strong deep baskets to place my corn in, instead of
sacks, when I should come to have any quantity of it.
Having mastered this difficulty, and employed a world of time about it, I
bestirred myself to see, if possible, how to supply two wants. I had no vessels
to hold any thing that was liquid, except two rundlets, which were almost full
of rum, and some glass bottles, some of the common size, and others which were
case-bottles square, for the holding of waters, spirits, &c. I had not so much
as a pot to boil any thing in, except a great kettle which I saved out of the
ship, and which was too big for such uses as I desired it for, viz. to make
broth, and stew a bit of meat by itself. The second thing I would fain have had,
was a tobacco-pipe, but it was impossible for me to make one; however, I found a
contrivance for that too at last.
I employed myself in planting my second rows of stakes of piles, and in this
wicker-work, all the summer, or dry season; when another business took me up
more time than it could be imagined I could spare.
I mentioned before, that I had a great mind to see the whole island, and that
I had travelled up the brook, and so on to where I built my bower, and where I
had an opening quite to the sea, on the other side of the island. I now resolved
to travel quite across to the sea shore on that side. So taking my gun and
hatchet, and my dog, and a larger quantity of powder and shot than usual, with
two biscuit-cakes and a great bunch of raisins in my pouch, for my store, I
began my journey. When I had passed the vale where my bower stood, as above, I
came within view of the sea, to the west; and it being a very clear day, I
fairly descried land, whether an island or continent I could not tell; but it
lay very high, extending from the west to the W.S.W. at a very great distance;
by my guess it could not be less than fifteen or twenty leagues off.
I could not tell what part of the world this might be, otherwise than that I
knew it must be part of America; and, as I concluded by all my observations,
must be near the Spanish dominions, and perhaps was all inhabited by savages,
where if I should have landed, I had been in a worse condition than I was now;
and therefore I acquiesced in the dispositions of Providence, which I began now
to own, and to believe, ordered every thing for the best; I say, I quieted my
mind with this, and left afflicting myself with fruitless wishes of being there.
Besides, after some pause upon this affair, I considered, that if this land
was the Spanish coast, I should certainly, one time or other, see some vessels
pass or repass one way or other; but if not, then it was the savage coast
between the Spanish country and Brasil, which were indeed the worst of savages;
for they are cannibals, or men-eaters, and fail not to murder and devour all the
human bodies that fall into their hands. With these considerations I walked very
leisurely forward. I found that side of the island where I now was, much
pleasanter than mine, the open or savanna fields sweet, adorned with flowers and
grass, and full of very fine woods. I saw abundance of parrots, and fain would I
have caught one, if possible, to have kept it to be tame, and taught it to speak
to me. I did, after some painstaking, catch a young parrot; for I knocked it
down with a stick, and having recovered it, I brought it home, but it was some
years before I could make him speak. However, at last I taught him to call me by
my name very familiarly: but the accident that followed, though it be a trifle,
will be very diverting in its place.
I was exceedingly diverted with this journey: I found in the low grounds,
hares, as I thought them to be, and foxes, but they differed greatly from all
the other kinds I had met with; nor could I satisfy myself to eat them, though I
killed several: but I had no need to be venturous; for I had no want of food,
and of that which was very good too; especially these three sorts, viz. goats,
pigeons, and turtle or tortoise; which added to my grapes. Leadenhall-market
could not have furnished a better table than I, in proportion to the company:
and though my case was deplorable enough, yet I had great cause for
thankfulness, that I was not driven to any extremities for food; but rather
plenty, even to dainties.
I never travelled in this journey above two miles outright in a day, or
thereabouts; but I look so many turns and returns, to see what discoveries I
could make, that I came weary enough to the place where I resolved to sit down
for all night; and then either reposed myself in a tree, or surrounded myself
with a row of stakes set upright in the ground, either from one tree to another,
or so as no wild creature could come at me without waking me.
As soon as I came to the sea-shore, I was surprised to see that I had taken
up my lot on the worst side of the island; for here indeed the shore was covered
with innumerable turtles, whereas on the other side I had found but three in a
year and an half. Here was also an infinite number of fowls of many kinds, some
of which I had not seen before, and many of them very good meat; but such as I
knew not the names of except those called penguins.
I could have shot as many as I pleased, but was very sparing of my powder and
shot: and therefore had more mind to kill a she-goat, if I could, which I could
better feed on: and though there were many goats here more than on the other
side of the island, yet it was with much more difficulty that I could come near
them; the country being flat and even, and they saw me much sooner than when I
was on the hills.
I confess this side of the country was much pleasanter than mine, but yet I
had not the least inclination to remove; for as I was fixed in my habitation, it
became natural to me, and I seemed all the while I was here to be, as it were,
upon a journey, and from home: however, I travelled along the shore of the sea
towards the east, I suppose, about twelve miles; and then setting up a great
pole upon the shore for a mark, I concluded I would go home again; and the next
journey I took should be on the other side of the island, east from my dwelling,
and so round, till I came to my post again: of which in its place.
I took another way to come back than that I went, thinking I could easily
keep all the island so much in my view, that I could not miss finding my first
dwelling by viewing the country; but I found myself mistaken; for being come
about two or three miles, I found myself descended into a very large valley; but
so surrounded with hills, and those hills covered with woods, that I could not
see which was my way by any direction but that of the sun; nor even then, unless
I knew very well the position of the sun at that time of the day.
It happened, to my farther misfortune, that the weather proved hazy for three
or four days, while I was in this valley; and not being able to see the sun, I
wandered about very uncomfortably, and at last was obliged to find out the
sea-side, look for my post, and come back the same way I went; and then by easy
journies I turned homeward, the weather being exceeding hot; and my gun,
ammunition, hatchet, and other things, very heavy.
In this journey my dog surprised a young kid, and seized upon it; and I
running in to take hold of it, caught it, and saved it alive from the dog. I had
a great mind to bring it home, if I could; for I had often been musing whether
it might not be possible to get a kid or two, and so raise a breed of tame
goats, which might supply me when my powder and shot should be spent.
I made a collar for this little creature, and with a string which I made of
some rope-yarn, which I always carried about me, I led him along, though with
some difficulty, till I came to my bower, and there I enclosed him, and left
him; for I was very impatient to be at home, from whence I had been absent above
a month.
I cannot express what a satisfaction it was to me to come into my old hutch,
and lie down in my hammock-bed: this little wandering journey, without a settled
place of abode, had been so unpleasant to me that my own house, as I called it
to myself, was a perfect settlement to me, compared to that; and it rendered
every thing about me so comfortable, that I resolved I would never go a great
way from it again, while it should be my lot to stay on the island.
I reposed myself here a week, to rest and regale myself after my long
journey; during which, most of the time was taken up in the weighty affair of
making a cage for my Pol, who began now to be a mere domestic, and to be mighty
well acquainted with me. Then I began to think of the poor kid, which I had pent
in within my little circle, and resolved to go and fetch it home, and give it
some food; accordingly I went, and found it where I left it; for indeed it could
not get out, but was almost starved for want of food; I went and cut boughs of
trees and branches of such shrubs as I could find, and threw it over, and having
fed it, I tied it as I did before to lead it away; but it was so tame with being
hungry, that I had no need to have tied it; for it followed me like a dog; and
as I continually fed it, the creature became so loving, so gentle, and so fond,
that it became from that time one of my domestics also, and would never leave me
afterwards.
The rainy season of the autumnal equinox was now come, and I kept the 30th of
September in the same solemn manner as before, being the anniversary of my
landing on the island, having now been there two years, and no more prospect of
being delivered than the first day I came there. I spent the whole day in humble
and thankful acknowledgments of the many wonderful mercies which my solitary
condition was attended with, and without which it might have been infinitely
more miserable. I gave humble and hearty thanks, that God had been pleased to
discover to me even that it was possible I might be more happy in this solitary
condition than I should have been in a liberty of society, and in all the
pleasures of the world: that he could fully make up to me the deficiencies of my
solitary state, and the want of human society, by his presence, and the
communication of his grace to my soul, supporting, comforting, and encouraging
me to depend upon his providence here, and hope for his eternal presence
hereafter.
It was now that I began sensibly to feel how much more happy the life I now
led was, with all its miserable circumstances, than the wicked, cursed,
abominable life I led all the past part of my days; and now, having changed both
my sorrows and my joys, my very desires altered, my affections changed their
gust, and my delights were perfectly new from what they were at first coming, or
indeed for the two years past.
Before, as I walked about, either on my hunting, or for viewing the country,
the anguish of my soul at my condition would break out upon me on a sudden, and
my very heart would die within me, to think of the woods, the mountains, the
deserts I was in; and how I was a prisoner, locked up with the eternal bars and
bolts of the ocean, in an uninhabited wilderness, without redemption. In the
midst of the greatest composures of my mind, this would break out upon me like a
storm, and made me wring my hands, and weep like a child. Sometimes it would
take me in the middle of my work, and I would immediately sit down and sigh, and
look upon the ground for an hour or two together, and this was still worse to
me; for if I could burst out into tears, or vent myself by words, it would go
off; and the grief, having exhausted itself, would abate.
But now I began to exercise myself with new thoughts; I daily read the word
of God, and applied all the comforts of it to my present state. One morning
being very sad, I opened the Bible upon these words, "I will never, never leave
thee, nor forsake thee!" Immediately it occurred, that these words were to me,
why else should they be directed in such a manner, just at the moment when I was
mourning over my condition, as one forsaken of God and man? "Well then," said I,
"if God does not forsake me, of what ill consequence can it be, or what matters
it, though the world should all forsake me; seeing, on the other hand, if I had
all the world, and should lose the favour and blessing of God, there would be no
comparison in the loss?"
From this moment I began to conclude in my mind, that it was possible for me
to be more happy in this forsaken, solitary condition, than it was probable I
should have ever been in any other particular state in the world; and with this
thought I was going to give thanks to God for bringing me to this place.
I know not what it was, but something shocked my mind at that thought, and I
durst not speak the words, "How canst thou be such an hypocrite," said I, even
audibly, "to pretend to be thankful for a condition, which, however thou mayst
endeavour to be contented with, thou wouldst rather pray heartily to be
delivered from?" So I stopped there; but though I could not say I thanked God
for being there, yet I sincerely gave thanks to God for opening my eyes, by
whatever afflicting providences, to see the former condition, of my life, and to
mourn for my wickedness, and repent. I never opened the Bible, or shut it, but
my very soul within me blessed God for directing my friend in England, without
any order of mine, to pack it up among my goods; and for assisting me afterwards
to save it out of the wreck of the ship.
Thus, and in this disposition of mind, I began my third year; and though I
have not given the reader the trouble of so particular an account of my works
this year as at the first, yet in general it may be observed, that I was very
seldom idle; having regularly divided my time, according to the several daily
employments that were before me; such as, first, my duty to God, and reading the
Scriptures, which I constantly set apart some time for, thrice, every day:
secondly, the going abroad with my gun for food, which generally took me up
three hours every morning when it did not rain: thirdly, the ordering, curing,
preserving, and cooking what I had killed or catched for my supply; these took
up great part of the day: also it is to be considered, that in the middle of the
day, when the sun was in the zenith, the violence of the heat was too great to
stir out; so that about four hours in the evening was all the time I could be
supposed to work in; with this exception, that sometimes I changed my hours of
hunting and working, and went to work in the morning, and abroad with my gun in
the afternoon.
To this short time allowed for labour, I desire may be added the exceeding
laboriousness of my work; the many hours, which for want of tools, want of help,
and want of skill, every thing that I did, took up out of my time: for example,
I was full two-and-forty days making me a board for a long shelf, which I wanted
in my cave; whereas two sawyers, with their tools and saw-pit, would have cut
six of them out of the same tree in half a day.
My case was this: it was to be a large tree which was to be cut down, because
my board was to be a broad one. The tree I was three days a cutting down, and
two more cutting off the boughs, and reducing it to a log, or piece of timber.
With inexpressible hacking and hewing I reduced both the sides of it into chips,
till it began to be light enough to move; then I turned it, and made one side of
it smooth and flat, as a board, from end to end: then turning that side
downward, cut the other side till I brought the plank to be about three inches
thick, and smooth on both sides. Any one may judge the labour of my hands in
such a piece of work; but labour and patience carried me through that and many
other things; I only observe this in particular, to shew the reason why so much
of my time went away with so little work, viz. that what might be a little to be
done with help and tools, was a vast labour, and required a prodigious time to
do alone, and by hand.
But notwithstanding this, with patience and labour, I went through many
things, and indeed ever thing that my circumstances made necessary for me to do,
as will appear by what follows.
I was now in the months of November and December, expecting my crop of barley
and rice. The ground I had manured or dug up for them was not great; for, as I
observed, my seed of each, was not above the quantity of half a peck; for I had
lost one whole crop by sowing in the dry season; but now my crop promised very
well, when on a sudden I found I was in danger of losing it all again by enemies
of several sorts, which it was scarce possible to keep from it; as first, the
goats, and wild creatures which I called hares, which, tasting the sweetness of
the blade, lay in it night and day, as soon as it came up, and ate it so close,
that it could get no time to shoot up into stalks.
This I saw no remedy for, but by making an enclosure about it with a hedge,
which I did with a great deal of toil; and the more, because it required a great
deal of speed; the creatures daily spoiling my corn. However, as my arable land
was but small, suited to my crop, I got it totally well fenced in about three
weeks time, and shooting some of the creatures in the day-time, I set my dog to
guard it in the night, tying him up to a stake at the gate, where he would stand
and bark all night long; so in a little time the enemies forsook the place, and
the corn grew very strong and well, and began to ripen apace.
But as the beasts ruined me before, while my corn was in the blade, so the
birds were as likely to ruin me now, when it was in the ear; for going along by
the place to see how it throve, I saw my little crop surrounded with fowls of I
know not how many sorts, which stood as it were watching till I should be gone.
I immediately let fly among them (for I always had my gun with me.) I had no
sooner shot, but there arose up a little cloud of fowls, which I had not seen at
all, from among the corn itself.
This touched me sensibly; for I foresaw, that in a few days they would devour
all my hopes; that I should be starved, and never be able to raise a crop at
all; and what to do I could not tell: however, I resolved not to lose my corn,
if possible, though I should watch it night and day. In the first place, I went
among it to see what damage was already done, and found they had spoiled a good
deal of it; but that, as it was yet too green for them, the loss was not so
great, but the remainder was like to be a good crop, if it could be saved.
I stayed by it to load my gun, and then coming away, I could easily see the
thieves sitting upon all the trees about me, as if they only waited till I was
gone away, and the event proved it to be so; for as I walked off as if I was
gone, I was no sooner out of their sight, but they dropped down one by one into
the corn again. I was so provoked, that I could not have patience to stay till
more came on, knowing that every grain that they ate now was, as it might be
said, a peck loaf to me in the consequence; but coming up to the hedge, I fired
again, and killed three of them. This was what I wished for; so I took them up,
and served them as we serve notorious thieves in England, viz. hanged them in
chains for a terror to others. It is impossible to imagine almost, that this
should have such an effect as it had; for the fowls would not only not come at
the corn, but in short they forsook all that part of the island, and I could
never see a bird near the place as long as my scarecrows hung there.
This I was very glad of, you may be sure; and about the latter end of
December, which was our second harvest of the year, I reaped my corn.
I was sadly put to it for a scythe or a sickle to cut it down, and all I
could do was to make one as well as I could out of one of the broad-swords, or
cutlasses, which I saved among the arms out of the ship. However, as my crop was
but small, I had no great difficulty to cut it down: in short, I reaped it my
way, for I cut nothing off but the ears, and carried it away in a great basket
which I had made, and so rubbed it out with my hands: and at the end of all my
harvesting I found, that out of my half-peck of seed I had near two bushels of
rice, and above two bushels and a half of barley, that is to say, by my guess,
for I had no measure at that time.
However, this was a great encouragement to me; and I foresaw, that in time it
would please God to supply me with bread: and yet here I was perplexed again;
for I neither knew how to grind or make meal of my corn, or indeed how to clean
it and part it; nor, if made into meal, how to make bread of it; and if how to
make it, yet. I knew not how to bake it. These things being added to my desire
of having a good quantity for store, and to secure a constant supply, I resolved
not to taste any of this crop, but to preserve it all for seed against the next
season, and in the meantime to employ all my study and hours of working to
accomplish this great work of providing myself with corn and bread.
It might be truly said, that I now worked for my bread. It is a little
wonderful, and what I believe few people have thought much upon; viz. the
strange multitude of little things necessary in the providing, producing,
curing, dressing, making, and finishing this one article of bread.
I, that was reduced to a mere state of nature, found this to be my daily
discouragement, and was made more and more sensible of it every hour, even after
I got the first handful of seed corn, which, as I have said, came up
unexpectedly, and indeed to a surprise. First, I had no plough to turn the
earth, no spade or shovel to dig it. Well, this I conquered by making a wooden
spade, as I observed before; but this did my work but in a wooden manner; and
though it cost me a great many days to make it, yet, for want of iron, it not
only wore out the sooner, but made my work the harder, and made it be performed
much worse.
However, this I bore with too, and was content to work it out with patience,
and bear with the badness of the performance. When the corn was sowed, I had no
harrow, but was forced to go over it myself, and drag a great heavy bough of a
tree over it, to scratch the earth, as it may be called, rather than rake or
harrow it.
When it was growing or grown, I have observed already how many things I
wanted, to fence it, secure it, mow or reap it, cure or carry it home, thresh,
part it from the chaff, and save it. Then I wanted a mill to grind it, sieves to
dress it, yeast and salt to make it into bread, and an oven to bake it in; and
all these things I did without, as shall be observed; and yet the corn was an
inestimable comfort and advantage to me too; but all this, as I said, made every
thing laborious and tedious to me, but that there was no help for; neither was
my time so much loss to me, because I had divided it; a certain part of it was
every day appointed to these works; and as I resolved to use none of the corn
for bread till I had a greater quantity by me, I had the next six months to
apply myself wholly by labour and invention, to furnish myself with utensils
proper for the performing all the operations necessary for the making the corn,
when I had it, fit for my use.
But first I was to prepare more land, for I had now seed enough to sow above
an acre of ground. Before I did this, I had a week's work at least to make me a
spade, which, when it was done, was a very sorry one indeed, and very heavy, and
required double labour to work with it; however, I went through that, and sowed
my seeds in two large flat pieces of ground, as near my house as I could find
them to my mind, and fenced them in with a good hedge, the stakes of which were
all cut off that wood which I had set before, which I knew would grow; so that
in one year's time I knew I should have a quick or living hedge, that would want
but little repair. This work was not so little as to take me up less than three
months; because great part of that time was in the wet season, when I could not
go abroad.
Within-door, that is, when it rained, and I could not go out, I found
employment on the following occasion, always observing, that all the while I was
at work, I diverted myself with talking to my parrot, and teaching him to speak;
and I quickly learnt him to know his own name; at last, to speak it out pretty
loud, Pol; which was the first word I ever heard spoken in the island by any
mouth but my own. This therefore was not my work, but an assistant to my work;
for now, as I said, I had a great employment upon my hands, as follows: viz. I
had long studied, by some means or other, to make myself some earthen vessels,
which indeed I wanted sorely, but knew not where to come at them: however,
considering the heat of the climate, I did not doubt but, if I could find out
any such clay, I might botch up some such pot as might, being dried by the sun,
be hard enough and strong enough to bear handling, and to hold any thing that
was dry, and required to be kept so; and as this was necessary in preparing
corn, meal, &c. which was the thing I was upon, I resolved to make some as large
as I could, and fit only to stand like jars to hold what should be put into
them.
It would make the reader pity me, or rather laugh at me, to tell how many
awkward ways I look to raise this paste, what odd misshapen ugly things I made,
how many of them fell in, and how many fell out, the clay not being stiff enough
to bear its own weight; how many cracked by the over-violent heat of the sun,
being set out too hastily; and how many fell to pieces with only removing, as
well before as after they were dried; and, in a word, how, after having laboured
hard to find the clay, to dig it, to temper it, to bring it home, and work it, I
could not make above two large earthen ugly things, I cannot call them jars, in
about two months labour.
However, as the sun baked these two very dry and hard, I lifted them very
gently up and set them down again in two great wicker-baskets, which I had made
on purpose for them that they might not break; and, as between the pot and the
basket there was a little room to spare, I stuffed it full of the rice and
barley-straw; and these two pots being to stand always dry, I thought would hold
my dry corn, and perhaps the meal when the corn was bruised.
Though I miscarried so much in my design for large pots, yet I made several
smaller things with better success; such as little round pots, flat dishes,
pitchers, and pipkins, and any thing my hand turned to; and the heat of the sun
baked them strangely hard.
But all this would not answer my end, which was to get an earthen pot to hold
what was liquid, and bear the fire, which none of these could do. It happened
after some time, making a pretty large fire for cooking my meat, when I went to
put it out, after I had done with it, I found a broken piece of one of my
earthenware vessels in the fire, burnt as hard as a stone, and red as a tile. I
was agreeably surprised to see it, and said to myself, that certainly they might
be made to burn whole, if they would burn broken.
This set me to study how to order my fire, so as to make it burn me some
pots. I had no notion of a kiln such as the potters burn in, or of glazing them
with lead, though I had some lead to do it with; but I placed three large
pipkins, and two or three pots, in a pile one upon another, and placed my
fire-wood all round it with a great heap of embers under them: I piled the fire
with fresh fuel round the outside, and upon the top, till I saw the pots in the
inside red-hot quite through, and observed that they did not crack at all: when
I saw them clear red, I let them stand in that heat about five or six hours,
till I found one of them, though it did not crack, did melt or run; for the sand
which was mixed with the clay melted by the violence of the heat, and would have
run into glass, if I had gone on; so I slacked my fire gradually, till the pots
began to abate of the red colour; and watching them all night that I might not
let the fire abate too fast, in the morning I had three very good, I will not
say handsome pipkins, and two other earthen pots, as hard burnt as could be
desired; and one of them perfectly glazed with the running of the sand.
After this experiment I need not say that I wanted no sort of earthenware for
my use; but I must needs say, as to the shapes of them, they were very
indifferent, as any one may suppose, when I had no way of making them, but as
the children make dirt-pies, or as a woman would make pies that never learnt to
raise paste.
No joy at a thing of so mean a nature was ever equal to mine, when I found I
had made an earthen pot that would bear the fire; and I had hardly patience to
stay till they were cold, before I set one upon the fire again with some water
in it, to boil me some meat, which I did admirably well; and with a piece of a
kid I made some very good broth, though I wanted oatmeal, and several other
ingredients requisite to make it so good as I would have had it.
My next concern was to get me a stone mortar to stamp or beat some corn in;
for as to the mill, there was no thought of arriving to that perfection of art
with one pair of hands. To supply this want, I was at a great loss; for of all
trades in the world I was as perfectly unqualified for a stone-cutter, as for
any whatever; neither had I any tools to go about it with. I spent many a day to
find out a great stone big enough to cut hollow, and make fit for a mortar, and
could find none at all except what was in the solid rock, and which I had no way
to dig or cut out; nor indeed were the rocks in the island of hardness
sufficient, but were all of a sandy crumbling stone, which would neither bear
the weight of an heavy pestle, nor would break the corn without filling it with
sand; so, after a great deal of time lost in searching for a stone, I gave it
over, and resolved to look out a great block of hard wood, which I found indeed
much easier; and getting one as big as I had strength to stir, I rounded it, and
formed it on the outside with my axe and hatchet; and then with the help of fire
and infinite labour, made an hollow place in it, as the Indians in Brasil make
their canoes. After this, I made a great heavy pestle or beater of the wood
called the iron-wood, and this I prepared and laid by against I had my next crop
of corn, when I proposed to myself to grind, or rather pound, my corn or meal to
make my bread.
My next difficulty was to make a sieve or searce, to dress my meal, and part
it from the bran and the husk, without which I did not see it possible I could
have any bread. This was a most difficult thing, so much as but to think on; for
to be sure I had nothing like the necessary things to make it with; I mean fine
thin canvass, or stuff, to searce the meal through. And here I was at a full
stop for many months; nor did I really know what to do: linen I had none left
but what was mere rags; I had goat's hair, but neither knew I how to weave or
spin it; and had I known how, here were no tools to work it with. All the remedy
that I found for this, was, that at last I did remember I had among the seamen's
clothes which were saved out of the ship, some neckcloths of calico or muslin;
and with some pieces of these I made three small sieves, but proper enough for
the work; and thus I made shift for some years; how I did afterwards, I shall
shew in its place.
The baking part was the next thing to be considered, and how I should make
bread when I came to have corn; for, first, I had no yeast: as to that part,
there was no supplying the want, so I did not concern myself much about it. But
for an oven, I was indeed in great pain. At length I found out an experiment for
that also, which was this; I made some earthen vessels very broad, but not deep;
that is to say, about two feet diameter, and not above nine inches deep; these I
burnt in the fire, as I had done the other, and laid them by; and when I wanted
to bake, I made a great fire upon the hearth, which I had paved with some square
tiles of my own making and burning also; but I should not call them square.
When the fire-wood was burnt pretty much into embers, or live coals, I drew
them forward upon this hearth, so as to cover it all over; and there I let them
lie, till the hearth was very hot; then sweeping away all the embers, I set down
my loaf, or loaves; and whelming down the earthen pot upon them, drew the embers
all round the outside of the pot, to keep in, and add to the heat; and thus, as
well as in the best oven in the world, I baked my barley-loaves, and became in a
little time a mere pastry-cook into the bargain; for I made myself several cakes
of the rice, and puddings; indeed I made no pies, neither had I any thing to put
into them, supposing I had, except the flesh either of fowls or goats.
It need not be wondered at, if all these things took me up most part of the
third year of my abode here; for it is to be observed, that in the intervals of
these things I had my new harvest and husbandry to manage: for I reaped my corn
in its season, and carried it home as well as I could, and laid it up in the
ear, in my large baskets, till I had time to rub it out; for I had no floor to
thresh it on, or instrument to thresh it with.
And now indeed my stock of corn increasing, I really wanted to build my barns
bigger: I wanted a place to lay it up in; for the increase of the corn now
yielded me so much, that I had of the barley about twenty bushels, and of the
rice as much, or more; insomuch that I now resolved to begin to use it freely,
for my bread had been quite gone a great while; also I resolved to see what
quantity would be sufficient for me a whole year, and to sow but once a year.
Upon the whole, I found that the forty bushels of barley and rice were much
more than I could consume in a year: so I resolved to sow just the same quantity
every year that I sowed the last, in hopes that such a quantity would fully
provide me with bread, &c.
All the while these things were doing, you may be sure my thoughts ran many
times upon the prospect of land which I had seen from the other side of the
island; and I was not without secret wishes, that I was on shore there, fancying
that seeing the main land, and an inhabited country, I might find some way or
other to convey myself farther, and perhaps at last find some means of escape.
But all this while I made no allowance for the dangers of such a condition,
and how I might fall into the hands of savages, and perhaps such as I might have
reason to think far worse than the lions and tigers of Africa: that if I once
came into their power, I should run an hazard more than a thousand to one of
being killed, and perhaps of being eaten; for I had heard that the people of the
Caribean coasts were cannibals, or men-eaters; and I knew by the latitude that I
could not be far off from that shore: that, suppose they were not cannibals, yet
they might kill me, as many Europeans who had fallen into their hands had been
served, even when they had been ten or twenty together; much more I that was but
one, and could make little or no defence. All these things, I say, which I ought
to have considered well of, and I did cast up in my thoughts afterwards, yet
took none of my apprehensions at first; and my head ran mightily upon the
thoughts of getting over to that shore.
Now I wished for my boy Xury, and the long-boat, with the shoulder of mutton
sail, with which I sailed above a thousand miles on the coast of Africa; but
this was in vain. Then I thought I would go and look on our ship's boat, which,
as I have said, was blown up upon the shore a great way in the storm, when we
were first cast away. She lay almost where she did at first, but not quite; and
was turned by the force of the waves and the winds almost bottom upwards,
against the high ridge of a beachy rough sand, but no water about her as before.
If I had had hands to have refitted her, and have launched her into the
water, the boat would have done well enough, and I might have gone back into the
Brasils with her easy enough; but I might have easily foreseen, that I could no
more turn her, and set her upright upon her bottom, than I could remove the
island. However, I went to the wood, and cut levers and rollers, and brought
them to the boat, resolving to try what I could do; suggesting to myself, that
if I could but turn her down, I might easily repair the damage she had received,
and she would be a very good boat, and I might go to sea in her very easily.
I spared no pains indeed in this piece of fruitless toil, and spent, I think,
three or four weeks about it; at last finding it impossible to heave it up with
my little strength, I fell to digging away the sand to undermine it; and so to
make it fall down, setting pieces of wood to thrust and guide it right in the
fall.
But when I had done this, I was unable to stir it up again, or to get under
it, much less to move it forwards towards the water; so I was forced to give it
over: and yet, though I gave over the hopes of the boat, my desire to venture
over for the main increased, rather than decreased, as the means for it seemed
impossible.
This at length set me upon thinking whether it was not possible to make
myself a canoe or periagua, such as the natives of those climates make, even
without tools, or, as I might say, without hands, viz. of the trunk of a great
tree. This I not only thought possible, but easy: and pleased myself extremely
with my thoughts of making it, and with my having much more convenience for it
than any of the Negroes or Indians; but not at all considering the particular
inconveniences which I lay under more than the Indians did, viz. want of hands
to move it into the water, when it was made; a difficulty much harder for me to
surmount than all the consequences of want of tools could be to them: for what
was it to me, that when I had chosen a vast tree in the woods, I might with
great trouble cut it down, if after I might be able with my tools to hew and dub
the outside into a proper shape of a boat, and burn or cut out the inside to
make it hollow, so to make a boat of it, if, after all this, I must leave it
just there where I found it, and was not able to launch it into the water?
One would have thought I could not have had the least reflection upon my mind
of this circumstance, while I was making this boat, but I should have
immediately thought how I should get it into the sea; but my thoughts were so
intent upon my voyage over the sea in it, that I never once considered how I
should get it off the land; and it was really in its own nature more easy for me
to guide it over forty-five miles of sea, than about forty-five fathoms of land,
where it lay, to set it afloat in the water.
I went to work upon this boat the most like a fool that ever man did, who had
any of his senses awake. I pleased myself with the design, without determining
whether I was ever able to undertake it; not but that the difficulty of
launching my boat came often into my head; but I put a stop to my own inquiries
into it by this foolish answer, which I gave myself; Let me first make it, I'll
warrant I'll find some way or other to get it along, when it is done.
This was a most preposterous method; but the eagerness of my fancy prevailed,
and to work I went, and felled a cedar-tree: I question much whether Solomon
ever had such an one for the building the temple at Jerusalem; it was five feet
ten inches diameter at the lower part next the stump, and four feet eleven
inches diameter at the end of twenty-two feet, after which it lessened for a
while, and then parted into branches. It was not without infinite labour that I
felled this tree: I was twenty days hacking and hewing at it at the bottom; I
was fourteen more getting the branches and limbs, and the vast spreading head of
it, cut off, which I hacked and hewed through with my axe and hatchet, with
inexpressible labour: after this it cost me a month to shape it, and dub it to a
proportion, and to something like the bottom of a boat, that it might swim
upright as it ought to do. It cost me near three months more to clear the
inside, and work it out so as to make an exact boat of it: this I did indeed
without fire, by mere mallet and chissel, and by the dint of hard labour; till I
had brought it to be a very handsome periagua, and big enough to have carried
six-and-twenty men, and consequently big enough to have carried me and all my
cargo.
When I had gone through this work, I was extremely delighted with it: the
boat was really much bigger than I ever saw a canoe or periagua, that was made
of one tree, in my life; many a weary stroke it had cost, you may be sure, for
there remained nothing but to get it into the water; and had I gotten it into
the water, I make no question but I should have begun the maddest voyage, and
the most unlikely to be performed, that ever was undertaken.
But all my devices to get it into the water failed me, though they cost
infinite labour too; it lay about one hundred yards from the water, and not
more; but the first inconvenience was, it was up hill towards the creek. Well,
to take away this discouragement, I resolved to dig into the surface of the
earth, and so make a declivity; this I began, and it cost me a prodigious deal
of pains: but who grudge pains, that have their deliverance in view? but when
this was worked through, and this difficulty managed, it was still much at one;
for I could no more stir the canoe, than I could the other boat.
Then I measured the distance of ground, and resolved to cut a dock, or canal,
to bring the water up to the canoe, seeing I could not bring the canoe down to
the water: well, I began this work, and when I began to enter into it, and
calculated how deep it was to be dug, how broad, how the stuff to be thrown out,
I found, that by the number of hands I had, being none but my own, it must have
been ten or twelve years before I should have gone through with it; for the
shore lay high, so that at the upper end it must have been at least twenty feet
deep: so at length, though with great reluctancy, I gave this attempt over also.
This grieved me heartily; and now I saw, though too late, the folly of
beginning a work before we count the cost, and before we judge lightly of our
own strength to go through with it.
In the middle of this work I finished my fourth year in this place, and kept
my anniversary with the same devotion, and with as much comfort, as ever before;
for by a constant study, and serious application of the word of God, and by the
assistance of his grace, I gained a different knowledge from what I had before;
I entertained different notions of things; I looked now upon the world as a
thing remote; which I had nothing to do with, no expectation from, and indeed no
desires about: in a word, I had nothing indeed to do with it, nor was ever like
to have; so I thought it looked as we may perhaps look upon it hereafter; viz.
as a place I had lived in, but was come out of it; and well I might say, as
father Abraham to Dives, "Between me and thee there is a great gulf fixed."
In the first place, I was removed from all the wickedness of the world here:
I had neither the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eye, or the pride of life:
I had nothing to covet, for I had all I was now capable of enjoying; I was lord
of the whole manor, or, if I pleased, I might call myself king or emperor over
the whole country which I had possession of: there were no rivals: I had no
competitor, none to dispute sovereignty or command with me; I might have raised
ship-loadings of corn, but I had no use for it; so I let as little grow as I
thought enough for my occasion: I had tortoises or turtles enough; but now and
then one was as much as I could put to any use: I had timber enough to have
built a fleet of ships; I had grapes enough to have made wine, or to have cured
into raisins, to have loaded that fleet when they had been built.
But all I could make use of, was all that was valuable: I had enough to eat,
and to supply my wants, and what was all the rest to me? If I killed more flesh
than I could eat, the dog must eat it, or the vermin; if I sowed more corn than
I could eat, it must be spoiled. The trees that I cut down were lying to rot on
the ground, I could make no more use of them, than for fuel; and that I had no
occasion for, but to dress my food.
In a word, the nature and experience of things dictated to me upon just
reflection, that all the good things of this world are no farther good to us,
than as they are for our use: and that whatever we may heap up indeed to give to
others, we enjoy as much as we can use, and no more. The most covetous griping
miser in the world would have been cured of the vice of covetousness, if he had
been in my case; for I possessed infinitely more than I knew what to do with. I
had no room for desire, except it was of things which I had not, and they were
but trifles, though indeed of great use to me. I had, as I hinted before, a
parcel of money, as well gold as silver, about thirty-six pounds sterling; alas!
there the nasty, sorry, useless stuff lay; I had no manner of business for it;
and I often thought with myself, that I would have given an handful of it for a
gross of tobacco-pipes, or for an hand-mill to grind my corn; nay, I would have
given it all for six-penny-worth of turnip and carrot seed out of England, or
for an handful of peas and beans, and a bottle of ink: as it was, I had not the
least advantage by it, or benefit from it; but there it lay in a drawer, and
grew mouldy with the damp of the cave, in the wet season; and if I had had the
drawer full of diamonds, it had been the same case; and they had been of no
manner of value to me, because of no use.
I had now brought my state of life to be much easier in itself than it was at
first, and much easier to my mind, as well as to my body. I frequently sat down
to my meat with thankfulness, and admired the hand of God's providence, which
had thus spread my table in the wilderness: I learnt to look more upon the
bright side of my condition, and less upon the dark side; and to consider what I
enjoyed, rather than what I wanted; and this gave me sometimes such secret
comforts, that I cannot express them; and which I take notice of here, to put
those discontented people in mind of it, who cannot enjoy comfortably what God
hath given them, because they see and covet something that he has not given
them: all our discontents about what we want, appeared to me to spring from the
want of thankfulness for what we have.
Another reflection was of great use to me, and doubtless would be so to any
one that should fall into such distress as mine was; and this was, to compare my
present condition with what I at first expected it should be; nay, with what it
would certainly have been, if the good providence of God had not wonderfully
ordered the ship to be cast up near to the shore, where I not only could come at
her, but could bring what I got out of her to the shore for my relief and
comfort; without which I had wanted tools to work, weapons for defence, or
gunpowder and shot for getting my food.
I spent whole hours, I may say whole days, in representing to myself in the
most lively colours, how I must have acted, if I had got nothing out of the
ship; how I could not have so much as got any food, except fish and turtles; and
that, as it was long before I found any of them, I must have perished first:
that I should have lived, if I had not perished, like a mere savage: that if I
had killed a goat or a fowl by any contrivance, I had no way to flay or open
them, or part the flesh from the skin and the bowels, or to cut it up; but must
gnaw it with my teeth, and pull it with my claws, like a beast.
These reflections made me very sensible of the goodness of Providence to me,
and very thankful for my present condition, with all its hardships and
misfortunes: and this part also I cannot but recommend to the reflection of
those who are apt in their misery to say, Is any affliction like mine? Let them
consider, how much worse the cases of some people are, and what their case might
have been, if Providence had thought fit.
I had another reflection which assisted me also to comfort my mind with
hopes; and this was, comparing my present condition with what I had deserved,
and had therefore reason to expect from the hand of Providence. I had lived a
dreadful life, perfectly destitute of the knowledge and fear of God: I had been
well instructed by father and mother; neither had they been wanting to me in
their early endeavours to infuse a religious awe of God into my mind, a sense of
my duty, and of what the nature and end of my being required of me. But, alas!
falling early into the seafaring life, which of all the lives is the most
destitute of the fear of God, though his terrors are always before them; I say,
falling early into the seafaring life, and into seafaring company, all that
little sense of religion which I had entertained, was laughed out of me by my
messmates; by an hardened despising of dangers, and the views of death, which
grew habitual to me; by my long absence from all manner of opportunities to
converse with any thing but what was like myself, or to hear any thing of what
was good, or tended towards it.
So void was I of every thing that was good, or of the least sense of what I
was, or was to be, that in the greatest deliverance I enjoyed, such as my escape
from Sallee, my being taken up by the Portuguese master of the ship, my being
planted so well in Brasil, my receiving the cargo from England, and the like, I
never once had the words, Thank God, so much as on my mind, or in my mouth; nor
in the greatest distress had I so much thought as to pray to him; nor so much as
to say, Lord, have mercy upon me! no, not to mention the name of God, unless it
was to swear by, and blaspheme it.
I had terrible reflections upon my mind for many months, as I have already
observed, on the account of my wicked and hardened life past; and when I looked
about me, and considered what particular providences had attended me, since my
coming into this place, and how God had dealt bountifully with me; had not only
punished me less than my iniquity deserved, but had so plentifully provided for
me; this gave me great hopes that my repentance was accepted, and that God had
yet mercies in store for me.
With these reflections I worked my mind up, not only to resignation to the
will of God in the present disposition of my circumstances, but even to a
sincere thankfulness of my condition; and that I, who was yet a living man,
ought not to complain, seeing I had not the due punishment of my sins; that I
enjoyed so many mercies, which I had no reason to have expected in that place,
that I ought never more to repine at my condition, but to rejoice, and to give
daily thanks, for that daily bread, which nothing but a cloud of wonders could
have brought: that I ought to consider I had been fed even by a miracle, even as
great as that of feeding Elijah by ravens; nay, by a long series of miracles;
and that I could hardly have named a place in the uninhabited part of the world,
where I could have been cast more to my advantage: a place, where as I had no
society, which was my affliction on one hand, so I found no ravenous beasts, no
furious wolves or tigers, to threaten my life; no venomous creatures, or
poisonous, which I might have fed on to my hurt; no savages to murder and devour
me.
In a word, as my life was a life of sorrow one way, so it was a life of mercy
another; and I wanted nothing to make it a life of comfort, but to be able to
make my sense of God's goodness to me, and care over me in this condition, be my
daily consolation; and after I made a just improvement of these things, I went
away, and was no more sad.
I had now been here so long, that many things which I brought on shore for my
help, were either quite gone, or very much wasted, and near spent.
My ink, as I observed, had been gone for some time, all but a very little,
which I eked out with water a little and a little, till it was so pale it scarce
left any appearance of black upon the paper: as long as it lasted, I made use of
it to minute down the days of the month on which any remarkable thing happened
to me; and first, by casting up times past, I remember that there was a strange
concurrence of days, in the various providences which befel me, and which, if I
had been superstitiously inclined to observe days as fatal or fortunate, I might
have had reason to have looked upon with a great deal of curiosity.
First, I had observed, that the same day that I broke away from my father and
my friends, and ran away to Hull in order to go to sea, the same day afterwards
I was taken by the Sallee man of war, and made a slave.
The same day of the year that I escaped out of the wreck of the ship in
Yarmouth Roads, that same day of the year afterwards I made my escape from
Sallee in the boat.
The same day of the year I was born on, viz. the 20th of September, the same
day I had my life so miraculously saved twenty-six years after, when I was cast
on shore in this island; so that my wicked life, and solitary life, both began
on a day.
The next thing to my ink's being wasted, was that of my bread, I mean the
biscuit which I brought out of the ship. This I had husbanded to the last
degree, allowing myself but one cake of bread a day, for above a year: and yet I
was quite without bread for a year before I got any corn of my own: and great
reason I had to be thankful that I had any at all, the getting it being, as has
been already observed, next to miraculous.
My clothes too began to decay mightily: as to linen, I had none a good while,
except some chequered shirts which I found in the chests of the other seamen,
and which I carefully preserved, because many times I could bear no other
clothes on but a shirt; and it was a very great help to me, that I had among all
the men's clothes of the ship almost three dozen of shirts. There were also
several thick watch-coats of the seamen, which were left behind, but they were
too hot to wear; and though it is true, that the weather was so violent hot,
that there was no need of clothes, yet I could not go quite naked; no, though I
had been inclined to it, which I was not; nor could I abide the thought of it,
though I was all alone.
One reason why I could not go quite naked, was, I could not bear the heat of
the sun so well when quite naked as with some clothes on; nay, the very heat
frequently blistered my skin; whereas, with a shirt on, the air itself made some
motion, and whistling under the shirt, was twofold cooler than without it: no
more could I ever bring myself to go out in the heat of the sun without a cap or
a hat; the heat of the sun beating with such violence as it does in that place,
would give me the headach presently, by darting so directly on my head, without
a cap or hat on, so that I could not bear it; whereas, if I put on my hat, it
would presently go away.
Upon these views I began to consider about putting the few rags I had, which
I called clothes, into some order; I had worn out all the waistcoats I had, and
my business was now to try if I could not make jackets out of the great
watch-coats which I had by me, and with such other materials as I had; so I set
to work a-tailoring, or rather indeed a-botching; for I made most piteous work
of it. However, I made shift to make two or three waistcoats, which I hoped
would serve me a great while; as for breeches or drawers, I made but very sorry
shift indeed, till afterwards.
I have mentioned that I saved the skins of all the creatures that I killed, I
mean four-footed ones; and I had hung them up stretched out with sticks in the
sun; by which means some of them were so dry and hard, that they were fit for
little; but others, it seems, were very useful. The first thing I made of these
was a great cap for my head, with the hair on the outside to shoot off the rain;
and this I performed so well, that after this I made a suit of clothes wholly of
those skins; that is to say, a waistcoat and breeches open at the knees, and
both loose; for they were rather wanted to keep me cool, than to keep me warm. I
must not omit to acknowledge, that they were wretchedly made; for if I was a bad
carpenter, I was a worse tailor; however, they were such as I made a very good
shift with; and when I was abroad, if it happened to rain, the hair of the
waistcoat and cap being outmost, I was kept very dry.
After this I spent a deal of time and pains to make me an umbrella: I was
indeed in great want of one, and had a great mind to make one: I had seen them
made in the Brasils, where they are very useful in the great heats which are
there; and I felt the heats every jot as great here, and greater too, being
nearer the equinox; besides, as I was obliged to be much abroad, it was a most
useful thing to me, as well for the rains as the heats. I took a world of pains
at it, and was a great while before I could make any thing likely to hold; nay,
after I thought I had hit the way, I spoiled two or three before I made one to
my mind; but at last I made one that answered indifferently well. The main
difficulty I found was to make it to let down: I could make it to spread; but if
it did not let down too, and draw in, it would not be portable for me any way,
but just over my head, which would not do. However, at last, as I said, I made
one to answer; I covered it with skins, the hair upwards, so that it cast off
the rain like a penthouse, and kept off the sun so effectually, that I could
walk out in the hottest of the weather, with greater advantage than I could
before in the coolest; and when I had no need of it, I could close it, and carry
it under my arm.
Thus I lived mighty comfortably, my mind being entirely composed by resigning
to the will of God, and throwing myself wholly upon the disposal of his
providence: this made my life better than sociable; for when I began to regret
the want of conversation, I would ask myself, whether thus conversing mutually
with my own thoughts, and, as I hope I may say, with even my Maker, by
ejaculations and petitions, was not better than the utmost enjoyment of human
society in the world?
I cannot say, that after this, for five years, any extraordinary thing
happened to me; but I lived on in the same course, in the same posture and
place, just as before. The chief thing I was employed in, besides my yearly
labour of planting my barley and rice, and curing my raisins, of both which I
always kept up just enough to have sufficient stock of the year's provisions
beforehand; I say, besides this yearly labour, and my daily labour of going out
with my gun, I had one labour to make me a canoe, which at last I finished: so
that by digging a canal to it, six feet wide, and four feet deep, I brought it
into the creek, almost half a mile. As for the first, that was so vastly big, as
I made it without considering beforehand, as I ought to do, how I should be able
to launch it; so never being able to bring it to the water, or bring the water
to it, I was obliged to let it lie where it was, as a memorandum to teach me to
be wiser next time. Indeed the next time, though I could not get a tree proper
for it, and was in a place where I could not get the water to it, at any less
distance than, as I have said, of near half a mile; yet as I saw it was
practicable at last, I never gave it over; and though I was near two years about
it, yet I never grudged my labour, in hopes of having a boat to go off to sea at
last.
However, though my little periagua was finished, yet the size of it was not
at all answerable to the design which I had in view, when I made the first; I
mean of venturing over to the Terra Firma, where it was above forty miles broad;
accordingly, the smallness of my boat assisted to put an end to that design, and
now I thought no more of it. But as I had a boat, my next design was to make a
tour round the island: for as I had been on the other side, in one place,
crossing, as I have already described it, over the land, so the discoveries I
made in that journey made me very eager to see the other parts of the coast; and
now I had a boat, I thought of nothing but sailing round the island.
For this purpose, and that I might do every thing with discretion and
consideration, I fitted up a little mast to my boat, and made a sail to it out
of some of the pieces of the ship's sails, which lay in store, and of which I
had a great store by me.
Having fitted my mast and sail, and tried the boat, I found she would sail
very well. Then I made little lockers and boxes at each end of my boat, to put
provisions, necessaries, and ammunition, &c. into, to be kept dry, either from
rain, or the spray of the sea; and a little long hollow place I cut in the
inside of the boat, where I could lay my gun, making a flap to hang down over it
to keep it dry.
I fixed my umbrella also in a step at the stern, like a mast, to stand over
my head, and keep the heat of the sun off me, like an awning; and thus I every
now and then took a little voyage upon the sea, but never went far out, nor far
from the little creek; but at last, being eager to view the circumference of my
little kingdom, I resolved upon my tour, and accordingly I victualled my ship
for the voyage; putting in two dozen of my loaves (cakes I should rather call
them) of barley-bread; an earthen pot full of parched rice, a food I ate a great
deal of, a little bottle of rum, half a goat, and powder with shot for killing
more, and two large watch-coats, of those which, as I mentioned before, I had
saved out of the seamen's chests; these I took, one to lie upon, and the other
to cover me in the night.
It was the 6th of November, in the sixth year of my reign, or my captivity,
which you please, that I set out on this voyage, and I found it much longer than
I expected; for though the island itself was not very large, yet when I came to
the east side of it, I found a great ledge of rocks lie out about two leagues
into the sea, some above water, some under it; and beyond this a shoal of sand,
lying dry half a league more; so that I was obliged to go a great way out to sea
to double that point.
When I first discovered them, I was going to give over my enterprise, and
come back again, not knowing how far it might oblige me to go out to sea, and
above all, doubting how I should get back again; so I came to an anchor, for I
had made me a kind of an anchor with a piece of broken grappling which I got out
of the ship.
Having secured my boat, I took my gun, and went on shore, climbing up an
hill, which seemed to over-look that point, where I saw the full extent of it,
and resolved to venture.
In my viewing the sea from that hill where I stood, I perceived a strong, and
indeed a most furious current, which ran to the east, even came close to the
point; and I took the more notice of it, because I saw there might be some
danger, that when I came into it, I might be carried out to sea by the strength
of it, and not be able to make the island again. And indeed, had I not gotten
first upon this hill, I believe it would have been so; for there was the same
current on the other side of the island, only that it set off at a farther
distance; and I saw there was a strong eddy under the shore; so I had nothing to
do but to get out of the first current, and I should presently be in an eddy.
I lay here, however, two days; because the wind blowing pretty fresh (at
E.S.E. and that being just contrary to the said current) made a great breach of
the sea upon the point; so that it was not safe for me to keep too close to the
shore for the breach, nor to go too far off because of the stream.
The third day in the morning, the wind having abated over-night, the sea was
calm, and I ventured; but I am a warning-piece again to all rash and ignorant
pilots; for no sooner was I come to the point, when I was not my boat's length
from the shore, but I found myself in a great depth of water, and a current like
a sluice of a mill. It carried my boat along with it with such violence, that
all I could do could not keep her so much as on the edge of it: but I found it
hurried me farther and farther out from the eddy, which was on the left hand.
There was no wind stirring to help me, and all that I could do with my paddles
signified nothing; and now I began to give myself over for lost; for, as the
current was on both sides the island, I knew in a few leagues distance they must
join again, and then I was irrecoverably gone; nor did I see any possibility of
avoiding it; so that I had no prospect before me but of perishing; not by the
sea, for that was calm enough, but of starving for hunger. I had indeed found a
tortoise on the shore, as big almost as I could lift, and had tossed it into the
boat; and I had a great jar of fresh water, that is to say, one of my earthen
pots; but what was all this to being driven into the vast ocean, where, to be
sure, there was no shore, no main land or island, for a thousand leagues at
least?
And now I saw how easy it was for the providence of God to make the most
miserable condition that mankind could be in, worse. Now I looked back upon my
desolate solitary island, as the most pleasant place in the world, and all the
happiness my heart could wish for, was to be there again: I stretched out my
hands to it with eager wishes; "O happy desert!" said I, "I shall never see thee
more! O miserable creature!" said I, "whither am I going!" Then I reproached
myself with my unthankful temper, and how I had repined at my solitary
condition; and now what would I give to be on shore there again? Thus we never
see the true state of our condition, till it is illustrated to us by its
contraries; nor know how to value what we enjoy, but by the want of it. It is
scarce possible to imagine the consternation I was now in, being driven from my
beloved island (for so it appeared to me now to be) into the wide ocean, almost
two leagues, and in the utmost despair of ever recovering it again: however, I
worked hard, till indeed my strength was almost exhausted; and kept my boat as
much to the northward, that is, towards the side of the current which the eddy
lay on, as possibly I could; when about noon, as the sun passed the meridian, I
thought I felt a little breeze of wind in my face, springing up from the S.S.E.
This cheered my heart a little, and especially when in about half an hour more
it blew a pretty small gentle gale. By this time I was gotten at a frightful
distance from the island; and, had the least cloud or hazy weather intervened, I
had been undone another way too; for I had no compass on board, and should never
have known how to have steered towards the island, if I had but once lost sight
of it; but the weather continuing clear, I applied myself to get up my mast
again, and spread my sail, standing away to the north as much as possible, to
get out of the current.
Just as I had set my mast and sail, and the boat began to stretch away, I saw
even by the clearness of the water, some alteration of the current was near;
where the current was so strong, the water was foul; but perceiving the water
clear, I found the current abate, and presently I found to the east, at about
half a mile, a breach of the sea upon some rocks: these rocks I found caused the
current to part again; and as the main stress of it ran away more southerly,
leaving the rocks to the north-east, so the other returned by the repulse of the
rock, and made a strong eddy, which ran back again to the north-west with a very
sharp stream.
They who know what it is to have a reprieve brought to them upon the ladder,
or to be rescued from thieves just going to murder them, or who have been in
such like extremities, may guess what my present surprise of joy was, and how
gladly I put my boat into the stream of this eddy; and the wind also freshening,
how gladly I spread my sail to it, running cheerfully before the wind, and with
a strong tide or eddy under foot.
This eddy carried me about a league in my way back again directly towards the
island, but about two leagues more towards the northward than the current lay,
which carried me away at first; so that when I came near the island, I found
myself open to the northern shore of it, that is to say, the other end of the
island, opposite to that which I went out from.
When I had made something more than a league of way by the help of this
current or eddy, I found it was spent, and served me no farther. However I
found, that being between the two great currents, viz. that on the south side
which had hurried me away, and that on the north which lay about two leagues on
the other side; I say, between these two, in the west of the island, I found the
water at least still, and running no way; and having still a breeze of wind fair
for me, I kept on steering directly for the island, though not making such fresh
way as I did before.
About four o'clock in the evening, being then within about a league of the
island, I found the point of the rocks which occasioned this distance stretching
out as is described before, to the southward, and casting off the current more
southwardly, had of course made another eddy to the north; and this I found very
strong, but directly setting the way my course lay, which was due west, but
almost full north. However, having a fresh gale, I stretched across this eddy
slanting north-west, and in about an hour came within about a mile of the shore,
where, it being smooth water, I soon got to land.
When I was on shore, I fell on my knees, and gave God thanks for my
deliverance, resolving to lay aside all thoughts of my deliverance by my boat;
and refreshing myself with such things as I had, I brought my boat close to the
shore, in a little cove that I had espied under some trees, and laid me down to
sleep, being quite spent with the labour and fatigue of the voyage.
I was now at a great loss which way to get home with my boat; I had run so
much hazard, and knew too much the case to think of attempting it by the way I
went out; and what might be at the other side (I mean the west side) I knew not,
nor had I any mind to run any more ventures; so I only resolved in the morning
to make my way westward along the shore, and to see if there was no creek where
I might lay up my frigate in safety, so as to have her again if I wanted her. In
about three miles, or thereabouts, coasting the shore, I came to a very good
inlet, or bay, about a mile over, which narrowed till it came to a very little
rivulet, or brook, where I found a convenient harbour for my boat, and where she
lay as if she had been in a little dock made on purpose for her: here I put in,
and having stowed my boat very safe, I went on shore to look about me, and see
where I was.
I soon found I had but a little passed by the place where I had been before
when I travelled on foot to that shore; so taking nothing out of my boat but my
gun and my umbrella, for it was exceeding hot, I began my march: the way was
comfortable enough after such a voyage as I had been upon, and I reached my old
bower in the evening, where I found every thing standing as I left it; for I
always kept it in good order, being, as I said before, my country-house.
I got over the fence, and laid me down in the shade to rest my limbs, for I
was very weary, and fell asleep: but judge you if you can, that read my story,
what a surprise I must be in when I was awaked out of my sleep by a voice
calling me by my name several times, "Robin, Robin, Robin Crusoe, poor Robin
Crusoe! Where are you, Robin Crusoe? Where are you? Where have you been?"
I was so dead asleep at first, being fatigued with rowing, or paddling, as it
is called, the first part of the day, and walking the latter part, that I did
not awake thoroughly; and dozing between sleeping and waking, thought I dreamed
that somebody spoke to me: but as the voice continued to repeat Robin Crusoe,
Robin Crusoe; at last I began to awake more perfectly, and was at first
dreadfully frighted, and started up in the utmost consternation: but no sooner
were my eyes open, but I saw my Pol sitting on the top of the hedge, and
immediately knew that this was he that spoke to me; for just in such bemoaning
language I had used to talk to him, and teach him; and he had learnt it so
perfectly, that he would sit upon my finger, and lay his bill close to my face,
and cry, "Poor Robin Crusoe, where are you? Where have you been? How came you
here?" and such things as I had taught him.
However, even though I knew it was the parrot, and that indeed it could be
nobody else, it was a good while before I could compose myself. First, I was
amazed how the creature got thither, and then how he should just keep about the
place, and no where else: but as I was well satisfied it could be nobody but
honest Poll, I got it over; and holding out my Hand, and calling him by his Name
Poll, the sociable Creature came to me, and sat upon my Thumb, as he used to do,
and continued talking to me, Poor Robin Crusoe, and how did I come here? and
where had I been? just as if he had been overjoyed to see me again; and so I
carried him Home along with me.
I had now had enough of rambling to sea for some time, and had enough to do
for many days to sit still, and reflect upon the danger I had been in: I would
have been very glad to have had my boat again on my side of the island; but I
knew not how it was practicable to get it about as to the east side of the
island, which I had gone round; I knew well enough there was no venturing that
way; my very heart would shrink, and my very blood run chill but to think of it:
and as to the other side of the island, I did not know how it might be there;
but supposing the current ran with the same force against the shore at the east
as it passed by it on the other, I might run the same risk of being driven down
the stream, and carried by the island, as I had been before, of being carried
away from it; so with these thoughts I contented my self to be without any boat,
though it had been the product of so many months labour to make it, and of so
many more to get it unto the sea.
In this government of my temper, I remained near a year, lived a very sedate
retired life, as you may well suppose; and my thoughts being very much composed
as to my condition, and fully comforted in resigning my self to the dispositions
of Providence, I thought I lived really very happily in all things, except that
of society.
I improved my self in this time in all the mechanic exercises which my
necessities put me upon applying my self to, and I believe could, upon occasion,
make a very good carpenter, especially considering how few tools I had.
Besides this, I arrived at an unexpected perfection in my earthen ware, and
contrived well enough to make them with a wheel, which I found infinitely easier
and better; because I made things round and shapeable, which before were filthy
things indeed to look on. But I think I was never more vain of my own
performance, or more joyful for any thing I found out, than for my being able to
make a tobacco-pipe. And tho it was a very ugly clumsy thing, when it was done,
and only burnt red like other earthen ware, yet as it was hard and firm, and
would draw the smoke, I was exceedingly comforted with it, for I had been always
used to smoke, and there were pipes in the ship, but I forgot them at first, not
knowing that there was tobacco in the island; and afterwards, when I searched
the ship again, I could not come at any pipes at all.
In my wicker ware also I improved much, and made abundance of necessary
baskets, as well as my invention shewed me, tho not very handsome, yet they were
such as were very handy and convenient for my laying things up in, or fetching
things home in. For example, if I killed a goat abroad, I could hang it up in a
tree, flea it, and dress it, and cut it in pieces, and bring it home in a
basket, and the like by a turtle, I could cut it up, take out the eggs, and a
piece or two of the flesh, which was enough for me, and bring them home in a
basket, and leave the rest behind me. Also large deep baskets were my receivers
for my corn, which I always rubbed out as soon as it was dry, and cured, and
kept it in great baskets.
I began now to perceive my powder abated considerably, and this was a want
which it was impossible for me to supply, and I began seriously to consider what
I must do when I should have no more powder; that is to say, how I should do to
kill any goat. I had, as is observed in the third year of my being here, kept a
young kid, and bred her up tame, and I was in hope of getting a he-goat, but I
could not by any means bring it to pass, 'till my kid grew an old goat; and I
could never find in my heart to kill her, till she dyed at last of mere age.
But being now in the eleventh year of my residence, and, as I have said, my
ammunition growing low, I set myself to study some art to trap and snare the
goats, to see whether I could not catch some of them alive; and particularly I
wanted a she-goat great with young.
To this purpose I made snares to hamper them; and believe they were more than
once taken in them; but my tackle was not good, for I had no wire, and always
found them broken, and my bait devoured.
At length I resolved to try a pitfall; so I dug several large pits in the
earth, in places where I had observed the goats used to feed, and over these
pits I placed hurdles of my own making too, with a great weight upon them; and
several times I put ears of barley, and dry rice, without setting the trap; and
I could easily perceive, that the goats had gone in, and eaten up the corn, that
I could see the mark of their feet: at length, I set three traps in one night,
and going the next morning, I found them all standing, and yet the bait eaten
and gone. This was very discouraging; however, I altered my trap; and, not to
trouble you with particulars, going one morning to see my traps, I found in one
of them a large old he-goat; and, in one of the other, three kids, a male and
two females.
As to the old one, I knew not what to do with him; he was so fierce I durst
not go into the pit to him; that is to say, to go about to bring him away alive,
which was what I wanted; I could have killed him, but that was not my business,
nor would it answer my end; so I e'en let him out, and he ran away as if he had
been frightened out of his wits; but I did not then know what I afterwards
learnt, that hunger would tame a lion: if I had let him stay there three or four
days without food, and then have carried him some water to drink, and then a
little corn, he would have been as tame as one of the kids; for they are mighty
sagacious tractable creatures, where they are well used.
However, for the present I let him go, knowing no better at that time; then I
went to the three kids; and, taking them one by one, I tied them with strings
together; and with some difficulty brought them all home.
It was a good while before they would feed; but throwing them some sweet
corn, it tempted them, and they began to be tame: and now I found, that if I
expected to supply myself with goat's flesh, when I had no powder or shot left,
breeding some up tame was my only way, when perhaps I might have them about my
house like a flock of sheep.
But then it presently occurred to me, that I must keep the tame from the
wild, or else they would always run wild when they grew up; and the only way for
this was to have some enclosed piece of ground, well fenced either with hedge or
pale, to keep them up so effectually, that those within might not break out, or
those without break in.
This was a great undertaking for one pair of hands; yet as I saw there was an
absolute necessity of doing it, my first piece of work was to find out a proper
piece of ground; viz. where there was likely to be herbage for them to eat,
water for them to drink, and cover to keep them from the sun.
Those who understand such enclosures, will think I had very little
contrivance, when I pitched upon a place very proper for all these, being a
plain open piece of meadow-land or savanna (as our people call it in the western
colonies) which had two or three little drills of fresh water in it, and at one
end was very woody; I say they will smile at my forecast, when I shall tell them
I began my enclosing of this piece of ground in such a manner, that my hedge or
pale must have been at least two miles about; nor was the madness of it so great
as to the compass; for if it was ten miles about, I was like to have time enough
to do it in; but I did not consider; that my goats would be as wild in so much
compass, as if they had had the whole island; and I should have so much room to
chase them in, that I should never catch them.
My hedge was begun and carried on, I believe, about fifty yards, when this
thought occurred to me; so I presently stopped short, and for the first
beginning I resolved to enclose a piece of about one hundred and fifty yards in
length, and one hundred yards in breadth, which as it would maintain as many as
I should have in any reasonable time, so, as my flock increased, I could add
more ground to my enclosure.
This was acting with some prudence, and I went to work with courage. I was
about three months hedging in the first piece; and, till I had done it, I
tethered the three kids in the best part of it, and used them to feed as near me
as possible, to make them familiar; and very often I would go and carry them
some ears of barley, or a handful of rice, and feed them out of my hand; so that
after my enclosure was finished, and I let them loose, they would follow me up
and down, bleating after me for a handful of corn.
This answered my end, and in about a year and a half I had a flock of about
twelve goats, kids and all; and in two years more I had three-and-forty, besides
several that I took and killed for my food; and after that I enclosed five
several pieces of ground to feed them in, with little pens to drive them into,
to take them as I wanted them; and gates out of one piece of ground into
another.
But this was not all; for now I not only had goat's flesh to feed on when I
pleased, but milk too, a thing which indeed in my beginning I did not so much as
think of, and which, when it came into my thoughts, was really an agreeable
surprise; for now I set up my dairy, and had sometimes a gallon or two of milk
in a day. And as nature, who gives supplies of food to every creature, dictates
even naturally how to make use of it; so I, that never milked a cow, much less a
goat, or saw butter or cheese made, very readily and handily, though after a
great many essays and miscarriages, made me both butter and cheese at last, and
never wanted it afterwards.
How mercifully can our great Creator treat his creatures, even in those
conditions in which they seemed to be overwhelmed in destruction! How can he
sweeten the bitterest providences, and give us cause to praise him for dungeons
and prisons! What a table was here spread for me in a wilderness, where I saw
nothing at first but to perish for hunger!
It would have made a stoic smile, to have seen me and my little family sit
down to dinner: there was my majesty, the prince and lord of the whole island; I
had the lives of all my subjects at absolute command; I could hang, draw, give
life and liberty, and take it away, and no rebels among all my subjects.
Then to see how like a king I dined too, all alone, attended by my servants!
Pol, as if he had been my favourite, as the only person permitted to talk to me;
my dog, which was now grown very old and crazy, and found no species to multiply
his kind upon, sat always at my right hand; and two cats, one on one side the
table, and one on the other, expecting now and then a bit from my hand, as a
mark of special favour.
But these were not the two cats which I brought on shore at first; for they
were both of them dead, and had been interred near my habitation by my own
hands; but one of them having multiplied by I know not what kind of creature,
these were two which I preserved tame, whereas the rest ran wild into the woods,
and became indeed troublesome to me at last; for they would often come into my
house, and plunder me too, till at last I was obliged to shoot them, and did
kill a great many: at length they left me. With this attendance, and in this
plentiful manner, I lived; neither could I be said to want any thing but
society, and of that, in some time after this, I was like to have too much.
I was something impatient, as I had observed, to have the use of my boat,
though very loath to run any more hazard; and therefore sometimes I sat
contriving ways to get her about the island, and at other times I sat myself
down contented enough without her. But I had a strange uneasiness in my mind to
go down to the point of the island, where, as I have said in my last ramble, I
went up the hill to see how the shore lay, and how the current set, that I might
see what I had to do. This inclination increased upon me every day, and at
length I resolved to travel thither by land, and following the edge of the
shore, I did so; but had any one in England been to meet such a man as I was, it
must either have frighted them, or raised a great deal of laughter; and as I
frequently stood still to look at myself, I could not but smile at the notion of
my travelling through Yorkshire with such an equipage, and in such a dress. Be
pleased to take a sketch of my figure as follows:
I had a great high shapeless cap, made of goat's skin, with a flap hanging
down behind, as well to keep the sun from me, as to shoot the rain off from
running into my neck; nothing being so hurtful in these climates, as the rain
upon the flesh under the clothes.
I had a short jacket of goat's skin, the skirts coming down to about the
middle of my thighs; and a pair of open-kneed breeches of the same; the breeches
were made of a skin of an old he-goat, whose hair hung down such a length on
either side, that, like pantaloons, it reached to the middle of my legs.
Stockings and shoes I had none; but I had made me a pair of something, I scarce
knew what to call them, like buskins, to flap over my legs, and lace on either
side like spatterdashes; but of a most barbarous shape, as indeed were all the
rest of my clothes.
I had on a broad belt of goat's skin dried, which I drew together with two
thongs of the same, instead of buckles; and in a kind of a frog on either side
of this, instead of a sword and dagger, hung a little saw and a hatchet; one on
one side, one on the other: I had another belt not so broad, and fastened in the
same manner, which hung over my shoulder; and at the end of it, under my left
arm, hung two pouches, both made of goat's skin too; in one of which hung my
powder, in the other my shot: at my back I carried my basket, on my shoulder my
gun, and over my head a great clumsy ugly goat's skin umbrella; but which, after
all, was the most necessary thing I had about me, next to my gun. As for my
face, the colour of it was really not so Mulatto-like as one might expect from a
man not at all careful of it, and living within nine or ten degrees of the
equinox. My beard I had once suffered to grow till it was about a quarter of a
yard long; but as I had both scissars and razors sufficient, I had cut it pretty
short, except what grew on my upper lip, which I had trimmed into a large pair
of Mahometan whiskers, such as I had seen worn by some Turks whom I saw at
Sallee; for the Moors did not wear such, though the Turks did: of these
mustachios, or whiskers, I will not say they were long enough to hang my hat
upon them; but they were of length and shape monstrous enough, and such as in
England would have passed for frightful.
But all this is by the by; for as to my figure, I had so few to observe me,
that it was of no manner of consequence; so I say no more to that part. In this
kind of figure I went my new journey, and was out five or six days. I travelled
first along the sea shore, directly to the place where I first brought my boat
to an anchor, to get up upon the rocks; and, having no boat now to take care of,
I went over the land a nearer way, to the same height that I was upon before;
when looking forward to the point of the rock which lay out, and which I was to
double with my boat, as I said above, I was surprised to see the sea all smooth
and quiet; no rippling, no motion, no current, any more there than in other
places.
I was at a strange loss to understand this, and resolved to spend some time
in the observing of it, to see if nothing from the sets of the tide had
occasioned it: but I was presently convinced how it was; viz. that the tide of
ebb setting from the west, and joining with the current of waters from some
great river on the shore, must be the occasion of this current, and that
according as the wind blew more forcible from the west, or from the north, this
current came near, or went farther from the shore; for, waiting thereabouts till
evening, I went up to the rock again, and then the tide of the ebb being made, I
plainly saw the current again as before, only that it ran farther off, being
near half a league from the shore; whereas, in my case, it set close upon the
shore, and hurried me in my canoe along with it, which at another time it would
not have done.
This observation convinced me, that I had nothing to do but to observe the
ebbing and the flowing of the tide, and I might very easily bring my boat about
the island again: but when I began to think of putting it in practice, I had
such a terror upon my spirits at the remembrance of the danger I had been in,
that I could not think of it again with any patience; but on the contrary, I
took up another resolution, which was more safe, though more laborious; and this
was, that I would build, or rather make me another periagua, or canoe; and so
have one for one side of the island, and one for the other.
You are to understand, that now I had, as I may call it, two plantations in
the island; one my little fortification or tent, with the wall about it under
the rock, with the cave behind me, which by this time I had enlarged into
several apartments or caves, one within another. One of these, which was the
driest and largest, and had a door out beyond my wall or fortification, that is
to say, beyond where my wall joined to the rock, was all filled up with large
earthen pots, of which I have given an account, and with fourteen or fifteen
great baskets, which would hold five or six bushels each, where I laid up my
stores of provision, especially my corn, some in the ear cut off short from the
straw, and the other rubbed out with my hands.
As for my wall, made as before, with long stakes or piles, those piles grew
all like trees, and were by this time grown so big, and spread so very much,
that there was not the least appearance, to any one's view, of any habitation
behind them.
Near this dwelling of mine, but a little farther within the land, and upon
lower ground, lay my two pieces of corn-ground; which I kept duly cultivated and
sowed, and which duly yielded me their harvest in its season: and whenever I had
occasion for more corn, I had more land adjoining as fit as that.
Besides this I had my country-seat, and I had now a tolerable plantation
there also; for first, I had my little bower, as I called it, which I kept in
repair; that is to say, I kept the hedge which circled it in constantly fitted
up to its usual height, the ladder standing always in the inside; I kept the
trees, which at first were no more than my stakes, but were now grown very firm
and tall; I kept them always so cut, that they might spread and grow thick and
wild, and make the more agreeable shade, which they did effectually to my mind.
In the middle of this I had my tent always standing, being a piece of a sail
spread over poles set up for that purpose, and which never wanted any repair or
renewing; and under this I had made me a squab or couch, with the skins of the
creatures I had killed, and with other soft things, and a blanket laid on them,
such as belonged to our sea-bedding, which I had saved, and a great watch-coat
to cover me; and here, whenever I had occasion to be absent from my chief seat,
I took up my country habitation.
Adjoining to this I had my enclosures for my cattle, that is to say, my
goats: and as I had taken an inconceivable deal of pains to fence and enclose
this ground, I was so uneasy to see it kept entire, lest the goats should break
through, that I never left off, till with infinite labour I had stuck the
outside of the hedge so full of small stakes, and so near to one another, that
it was rather a pale than a hedge, and there was scarce room to put a hand
through between them, which afterwards, when those stakes grew, as they all did
in the next rainy season, made the enclosure strong, like a wall, indeed
stronger than any wall.
This will testify for me that I was not idle, and that I spared no pains to
bring to pass whatever appeared necessary for my comfortable support; for I
considered the keeping up a breed of tame creatures thus at my hand, would be a
living magazine of flesh, milk, butter, and cheese, for me as long as I lived in
the place, if it were to be forty years; and that keeping them in my reach,
depended entirely upon my perfecting my enclosures to such a degree, that I
might be sure of keeping them together; which by this method indeed I so
effectually secured, that when these little stakes began to grow, I had planted
them so very thick, I was forced to pull some of them up again.
In this place also I had my grapes growing, which I principally depended on
for my winter store of raisins, and which I never failed to preserve very
carefully, as the best and most agreeable dainty of my whole diet; and indeed
they were not agreeable only, but physical, wholesome, nourishing, and
refreshing to the last degree.
As this was also about half way between my other habitation and the place
where I had laid up my boat, I generally staid and lay here in my way thither;
for I used frequently to visit my boat, and I kept all things about or belonging
to her in very good order: sometimes I went out in her to divert myself, but no
more hazardous voyages would I go, nor scarce ever above a stone's cast or two
from the shore, I was so apprehensive of being hurried out of my knowledge again
by the currents, or winds, or any other accident. But now I come to a new scene
of my life.
It happened one day about noon, going towards my boat, I was exceedingly
surprised with the print of a man's naked foot on the shore, which was very
plain to be seen in the sand: I stood like one thunder-struck, or as if I had
seen an apparition; I listened, I looked round me, I could hear nothing, nor see
any thing; I went up to a rising ground to look farther: I went up the shore,
and down the shore, but it was all one, I could see no other impression but that
one; I went to it again to see if there were any more, and to observe if it
might not be my fancy; but there was no room for that, for there was exactly the
very print of a foot, toes, heel, and every part of a foot; how it came thither
I knew not, nor could in the least imagine. But after innumerable fluttering
thoughts, like a man perfectly confused, and out of myself, I came home to my
mortification, not feeling, as we say, the ground I went on, but terrified to
the last degree, looking behind me at every two or three steps, mistaking every
bush and tree, and fancying every stump at a distance to be a man; nor is it
possible to describe how many various shapes an affrighted imagination
represented things to me in; how many wild ideas were formed every moment in my
fancy, and what strange unaccountable whimsies came into my thoughts by the way.
When I came to my castle, for so I think I called it ever after this, I fled
into it like one pursued; whether I went over by the ladder, as first contrived,
or went in at the hole in the rock, which I called a door, I cannot remember;
for never frighted hare fled to cover, or fox to earth, with more terror of mind
than I to this retreat.
I had no sleep that night: the farther I was from the occasion of my fright,
the greater my apprehensions were; which is something contrary to the nature of
such things, and especially to the usual practice of all creatures in fear. But
I was so embarrassed with my own frightful ideas of the thing, that I formed
nothing but dismal imaginations to myself, even though I was now a great way off
it. Sometimes I fancied it must be the devil; and reason joined in with me upon
this supposition. For how should any other thing in human shape come into the
place? Where was the vessel that brought them? What marks were there of any
other footsteps? And how was it possible a man should come there? But then to
think that Satan should take human shape upon him in such a place where there
could be no manner of occasion for it, but to leave the print of his foot behind
him, and that even for no purpose too (for he could not be sure I should see
it:) this was an amazement the other way: I considered that the devil might have
found out abundance of other ways to have terrified me, than this of the single
print of a foot; that as I lived quite on the other side of the island, he would
never have been so simple to leave a mark in a place where it was ten thousand
to one whether I should ever see it or not, and in the sand too, which the first
surge of the sea upon an high wind would have defaced entirely. All this seemed
inconsistent with the thing itself, and with all notions we usually entertain of
the subtlety of the devil.
Abundance of such things as these assisted to argue me out of all
apprehensions of its being the devil. And I presently concluded that it must be
some more dangerous creature; viz. that it must be some of the savages of the
main land over-against me, who had wandered out to sea in their canoes, and,
either driven by the currents, or by contrary winds, had made the island, and
had been on shore, but were gone away again to sea, being as loath, perhaps, to
have staid in this desolate island, as I would have been to have had them.
While these reflections were rolling upon my mind, I was very thankful in my
thought, that I was so happy as not to be thereabouts at that time, or that they
did not see my boat, by which they would have concluded, that some inhabitants
had been in the place, and perhaps have searched farther for me. Then terrible
thoughts racked my imaginations about their having found my boat, and that there
were people here; and that if so, I should certainly have them come again in
greater numbers, and devour me; that if it should happen so that they should not
find me, yet they would find my enclosure, destroy all my corn, carry away all
my flock of tame goats, and I should perish at last for mere want.
Thus my fear banished all my religious hope; all that former confidence in
God, which was founded upon such wonderful experience as I had had of his
goodness, now vanished; as if he that had fed me by miracle hitherto, could not
preserve by his power the provision which he had made for me by his goodness. I
reproached myself with my uneasiness, that I would not sow any more corn one
year, than would just serve me till the next season, as if no accident could
intervene, to prevent my enjoying the crop that was upon the ground. And this I
thought so just a reproof, that I resolved for the future to have two or three
years corn beforehand, so that, whatever might come, I might not perish for want
of bread.
How strange a chequer-work of Providence is the life of man! And by what
secret differing springs are the affections hurried about, as differing
circumstances present! To-day we love what to-morrow we hate; to-day we seek
what to-morrow we shun; to-day we desire what to-morrow we fear; nay, even
tremble at the apprehensions of. This was exemplified in me at this time in the
most lively manner imaginable; for I, whose only affliction was, that I seemed
banished from human society, that I was alone, circumscribed by the boundless
ocean, cut off from mankind, and condemned to what I call a silent life; that I
was as one whom Heaven thought not worthy to be numbered among the living, or to
appear among the rest of his creatures; that to have seen one of my own species,
would have seemed to me a raising me from death to life, and the greatest
blessing that Heaven itself, next to the supreme blessing of salvation, could
bestow; I say, that I should now tremble at the very apprehensions of seeing a
man, and was ready to sink into the ground, at but the shadow, or silent
appearance of a man's having set his foot on the island.
Such is the uneven state of human life; and it afforded me a great many
curious speculations afterwards, when I had a little recovered my first
surprise: I considered that this was the station of life the infinitely wise and
good providence of God had determined for me; that as I could not foresee what
the ends of divine wisdom might be in all this, so I was not to dispute his
sovereignty, who, as I was his creature, had an undoubted right by creation to
govern and dispose of me absolutely as he thought fit; and who, as I was a
creature who had offended him, had likewise a judicial right to condemn me to
what punishment he thought fit; and that it was my part to submit to bear his
indignation, because I had sinned against him.
I then reflected, that God, who was not only righteous, but omnipotent, as he
had thought fit thus to punish and afflict me, so he was able to deliver me;
that if he did not think fit to do it, it was my unquestioned duty to resign
myself absolutely and entirely to his will; and, on the other hand, it was my
duty also to hope in him, pray to him, and quietly to attend the dictates and
directions of his daily providence.
These thoughts took me up many hours, days, nay, I may say, weeks and months;
and one particular effect of my cogitations on this occasion I cannot omit; viz.
one morning early, lying in my bed, and filled with thoughts about my danger
from the appearance of savages, I found it discomposed me very much; upon which
those words of the Scripture came into my thoughts, "Call upon me in the day of
trouble, and I will deliver thee, and thou shalt glorify me."
Upon this, rising cheerfully out of my bed, my heart was not only comforted,
but I was guided and encouraged to pray earnestly to God for deliverance. When I
had done praying, I took up my Bible, and opening it to read, the first words
that presented to me were, "Wait on the Lord, and be of good cheer, and he shall
strengthen thy heart: Wait, I say, on the Lord." It is impossible to express the
comfort this gave me; and in return, I thankfully laid down the book, and was no
more sad, at least, not on that occasion.
In the middle of these cogitations, apprehensions, and reflections, it came
into my thoughts one day, that all this might be a mere chimera of my own, and
that this foot might be the print of my own foot, when I came on shore from my
boat. This cheered me up a little too, and I began to persuade myself it was all
a delusion; that it was nothing else but my own foot; and why might not I come
that way from the boat, as well as I was going that way to the boat? Again, I
considered also, that I could by no means tell for certain where I had trod, and
where I had not; and that if at last this was only the print of my own foot, I
had played the part of those fools, who strive to make stories of spectres and
apparitions, and then are themselves frighted at them more than any body else.
Now I began to take courage, and to peep abroad again; for I had not stirred
out of my castle for three days and nights, so that I began to starve for
provision; for I had little or nothing within doors, but some barley-cakes and
water. Then I knew that my goats wanted to be milked too, which usually was my
evening diversion; and the poor creatures were in great pain and inconvenience
for want of it; and indeed it almost spoiled some of them, and almost dried up
their milk.
Heartening myself therefore with the belief, that this was nothing but the
print of one of my own feet (and so I might be truly said to start at my own
shadow), I began to go abroad again, and went to my country-house to milk my
flock: but to see with what fear I went forward, how often I looked behind me,
how I was ready, every now and then, to lay down my basket, and run for my life;
it would have made any one have thought I was haunted with an evil conscience,
or that I had been lately most terribly frighted; and so indeed I had.
However, as I went down thus two or three days, and having seen nothing, I
began to be a little bolder, and to think there was really nothing in it but my
own imagination; but I could not persuade myself fully of this, till I should go
down to the shore again, and see this print of a foot, and measure it by my own,
and see if there was any similitude or fitness, that I might be assured it was
my own foot. But when I came to the place first, it appeared evidently to me,
that when I laid up my boat, I could not possibly be on shore any where
thereabouts. Secondly, when I came to measure the mark with my own foot, I found
my foot not so large by a great deal. Both these things filled my head with new
imaginations, and gave me the vapours again to the highest degree; so that I
shook with cold, like one in an ague, and I went home again, filled with the
belief, that some man or men had been on shore there; or, in short, that the
island was inhabited, and I might be surprised before I was aware; and what
course to take for my security, I knew not.
O what ridiculous resolutions men take, when possessed with fear! It deprives
them of the use of those means which reason offers for their relief. The first
thing I proposed to myself was, to throw down my enclosures, and turn all my
tame cattle wild into the woods, that the enemy might not find them, and then
frequent the island in prospect of the same, or the like booty; then to the
simple thing of digging up my two corn fields, that they might not find such a
grain there, and still to be prompted to frequent the island; then to demolish
my bower and tent, that they might not see any vestiges of my habitation, and be
prompted to look farther, in order to find out the persons inhabiting.
These were the subjects of the first night's cogitation, after I was come
home again, while the apprehensions which had so over-run my mind were fresh
upon me, and my head was full of vapours, as above. Thus fear of danger is ten
thousand times more terrifying than danger itself, when apparent to the eyes;
and, we find the burden of anxiety greater by much than the evil which we are
anxious about; but, which was worse than all this, I had not that relief in this
trouble from the resignation I used to practise, that I hoped to have. I looked,
I thought, like Saul, who complained not only that the Philistines were upon
him, but that God had forsaken him; for I did not now take due ways to compose
my mind, by crying to God in my distress, and resting upon his providence, as I
had done before, for my defence and deliverance; which if I had done, I had, at
least, been more cheerfully supported under this new surprise, and perhaps
carried through it with more resolution.
This confusion of my thoughts kept me waking all night; but in the morning I
fell asleep, and having by the amusement of my mind been, as it were, tired, and
my spirits exhausted, I slept very soundly, and I awaked much better composed
than I had ever been before. And now I began to think sedately; and, upon the
utmost debate with myself, I concluded, that this island, which was so exceeding
pleasant, fruitful, and no farther from the main land than as I had seen, was
not so entirely abandoned as I might imagine: that although there were no stated
inhabitants who lived on the spot; yet that there might sometimes come boats off
from the shore, who either with design, or perhaps never but when they were
driven by cross winds, might come to this place.
That I had lived here fifteen years now, and had not met with the
least-shadow or figure of any people before; and that if at any time they should
be driven here, it was probable they went away again as soon as ever they could,
seeing they had never thought fit to fix there upon any occasion, to this time.
That the most I could suggest any danger from, was, from any such casual
accidental landing of straggling people from the main, who, as it was likely, if
they were driven hither, were here against their wills; so they made no stay
here, but went off again with all possible speed, seldom staying one night on
shore, lest they should not have the help of the tides and daylight back again;
and that therefore I had nothing to do but to consider of some safe retreat, in
case I should see any savages land upon the spot.
Now I began sorely to repent that I had dug my cave so large, as to bring a
door through again, which door, as I said, came out beyond where my
fortification joined to the rock. Upon maturely considering this, therefore, I
resolved to draw me a second fortification, in the manner of a semicircle, at a
distance from my wall, just where I had planted a double row of trees about
twelve years before, of which I made mention: these trees having been planted so
thick before, there wanted but a few piles to be driven between them, that they
should be thicker and stronger, and my wall would be soon finished.
So that I had now a double wall, and my outer wall was thickened with pieces
of timber, old cables, and every thing I could think of to make it strong;
having in it seven little holes, about as big as I might put my arm out at. In
the inside of this I thickened my wall to about ten feet thick, continually
bringing earth out of my cave, and laying it at the foot of the wall, and
walking upon it; and through the seven holes I contrived to plant the muskets,
of which I took notice that I got seven on shore out of the ship; these, I say,
I planted like my cannon, and fitted them into frames that held them like a
carriage, that so I could fire all the seven guns in two minutes time. This wall
I was many a weary month in finishing, and yet never thought myself safe till it
was done.
When this was done, I stuck all the ground without my wall, for a great way
every way, as full with stakes or sticks of the osier-like wood, which I found
so apt to grow, as they could well stand; insomuch that I believe I might set in
near twenty thousand of them, leaving a pretty large space between them and my
wall, that I might have room to see an enemy, and they might have no shelter
from the young trees, if they attempted to approach my outer wall.
Thus in two years time I had a thick grove; and in five or six years time I
had a wood before my dwelling, grown so monstrous thick and strong, that it was
indeed perfectly impassable; and no man of what kind soever would ever imagine
that there was any thing beyond it, much less an habitation: as for the way I
proposed myself to go in and out (for I left no avenue), it was by setting two
ladders; one to a part of the rock which was low, and then broke in, and left
room to place another ladder upon that; so when the two ladders were taken down,
no man living could come down to me without mischiefing himself; and if they had
come down, they were still on the outside of my outer wall.
Thus I took all the measures human prudence could suggest for my own
preservation; and it will be seen at length, that they were not altogether
without just reason; though I foresaw nothing at that time more than my mere
fear suggested.
While this was doing, I was not altogether careless of my other affairs; for
I had a great concern upon me for my little herd of goats; they were not only a
present supply to me upon every occasion, and began to be sufficient for me,
without the expense of powder and shot, but also abated the fatigue of my
hunting after the wild ones; and I was loath to lose the advantage of them, and
to have them all to nurse up over again.
To this purpose, after long consideration, I could think but of two ways to
preserve them: one was to find another convenient place to dig a cave under
ground, and to drive them into it every night; and the other was to enclose two
or three little bits of land, remote from one another, and as much concealed as
I could, where I might keep about half a dozen young goats in each place; so
that if any disaster happened to the flock in general, I might be able to raise
them again with little trouble and time: and this, though it would require a
great deal of time and labour, I thought was the most rational design.
Accordingly I spent some time, to find out the most retired parts of the
island; and I pitched upon one, which was as private indeed as my heart could
wish; for it was a little damp piece of ground in the middle of the hollow and
thick woods, where, as is observed, I almost lost myself once before,
endeavouring to come back that way from the eastern part of the island: here I
found a clear piece of land near three acres, so surrounded with woods, that it
was almost an enclosure by nature; at least it did not want near so much labour
to make it so, as the other pieces of ground I had worked so hard at.
I immediately went to work with this piece of ground, and in less than a
month's time I had so fenced it round, that my flock or herd, call it which you
please, which were not so wild now as at first they might be supposed to be,
were well enough secured in it. So without any farther delay, I removed ten
she-goats and two he-goats to this piece; and when there, I continued to perfect
the fence, till I had made it as secure as the other, which, however, I did at
more leisure, and it took me up more time by a great deal.
All this labour I was at the expense of, purely from my apprehensions on the
account of the print of a man's foot which I had seen; for as yet, I never saw
any human creature come near the island, and I had now lived two years under
these uneasinesses, which indeed made my life much less comfortable than it was
before; as may well be imagined, by any who know what it is to live in the
constant snare of the fear of man; and this I must observe with grief too, that
the discomposure of my mind had too great impressions also upon the religious
part of my thoughts; for the dread and terror of falling into the hands of
savages and cannibals lay so upon my spirits, that I seldom found myself in a
due temper for application to my Maker; at least, not with the sedate calmness
and resignation of soul which I was wont to do. I rather prayed to God as under
great affliction and pressure of mind, surrounded with danger, and in
expectation every night of being murdered and devoured before the morning; and I
must testify from my experience, that a temper of peace, thankfulness, love, and
affection, is much more the proper frame for prayer than that of terror and
discomposure; and that under the dread of mischief impending, a man is no more
fit for a comforting performance of the duty of praying to God, than he is for
repentance on a sick bed; for these discomposures affect the mind as the others
do the body; and the discomposure of the mind must necessarily be as great a
disability as that of the body, and much greater; praying to God being properly
an act of the mind, not of the body.
But to go on: after I had thus secured one part of my little living stock, I
went about the whole island, searching for another private place, to make such
another deposit; when wandering more to the west point of the island than I had
ever done yet, and looking out to sea, I thought I saw a boat upon the sea at a
great distance; I had found a perspective glass or two in one of the seamen's
chests, which I saved out of our ship; but I had it not about me, and this was
so remote, that I could not tell what to make of it, though I looked at it till
my eyes were not able to look any longer: whether it was a boat, or not, I do
not know; but as I descended from the hill, I could see no more of it, so I gave
it over; only I resolved to go no more without a perspective glass in my pocket.
When I was come down the hill, to the end of the island, where indeed I had
never been before, I was presently convinced, that the seeing the print of a
man's foot, was not such a strange thing in the island as I imagined; and, but
that it was a special providence that I was cast upon the side of the island
where the savages never came, I should easily have known, that nothing was more
frequent than for the canoes from the main, when, they happened to be a little
too far out at sea, to shoot over to that side of the island for harbour;
likewise, as they often met, and fought in their canoes, the victors, having
taken any prisoners, would bring them over to this shore, where, according to
their dreadful customs, being all cannibals, they would kill and eat them: of
which hereafter.
When I was come down the hill to the shore, as I said above, being the S.W.
point of the island, I was perfectly confounded and amazed; nor is it possible
for me to express the horror of my mind, at seeing the shore spread with skulls,
hands, feet, and other bones of human bodies; and particularly I observed a
place where there had been a fire made, and a circle dug in the earth, like a
cock-pit, where it is supposed the savage wretches had sat down to their inhuman
feastings upon the bodies of their fellow-creatures.
I was so astonished with the sight of these things, that I entertained no
notions of any danger to myself from it, for a long while; all my apprehensions
were buried in the thoughts of such a pitch of inhuman, hellish brutality, and
the horror of the degeneracy of human nature; which, though I had heard of
often, yet I never had so near a view of before: in short, I turned away my face
from the horrid spectacle; my stomach grew sick, and I was just at the point of
fainting, when nature discharged the disorder from my stomach, and, having
vomited with an uncommon violence, I was a little relieved, but could not bear
to stay in the place a moment; so I got me up the hill again with all the speed
I could, and walked on towards my own habitation.
When I came a little out of that part of the island, I stood still a while as
amazed; and then recovering myself, I looked up with the utmost affection of my
soul, and, with a flood of tears in my eyes, gave God thanks, that had cast my
first lot in a part of the world where I was distinguished from such dreadful
creatures as these; and that though I had esteemed my present condition very
miserable, had yet given me so many comforts in it, that I had still more to
give thanks for than to complain of; and this above all, that I had, even in
this miserable condition, been comforted with the knowledge of himself, and the
hope of his blessing, which was a felicity more than sufficiently equivalent to
all the misery which I had suffered, or could suffer.
In this frame of thankfulness I went home to my castle, and began to be much
easier now, as to the safety of my circumstances, than ever I was before; for I
observed, that these wretches never came to this island in search of what they
could get; perhaps not seeking, not wanting, or not expecting, any thing here,
and having often, no doubt, been up in the covered woody part of it, without
finding any thing to their purpose. I knew I had been here now almost eighteen
years, and never saw the least footsteps of a human creature there before; and
might be here eighteen more as entirely concealed as I was now, if I did not
discover myself to them, which I had no manner of occasion to do, it being my
only business to keep myself entirely concealed where I was, unless I found a
better sort of creatures than cannibals to make myself known to.
Yet I entertained such an abhorrence of the savage wretches that I have been
speaking of, and of the wretched inhuman custom of their devouring and eating
one another up, that I continued pensive and sad, and kept close within my own
circle for almost two years after this: when I say my own circle, I mean by it
my three plantations, viz. my castle, my country-seat, which I called my bower,
and my enclosure in the woods; nor did I look after this for any other use than
as an enclosure for my goats; for the aversion which nature gave me to these
hellish wretches was such, that I was as fearful of seeing them as of seeing,
the devil himself; nor did I so much as go to look after my boat in all this
time, but began rather to think of making me another; for I could not think of
ever making any more attempts to bring the other boat round the island to me,
lest I should meet with some of those creatures at sea, in which, if I had
happened to have fallen into their hands, I knew what would have been my lot.
Time, however, and the satisfaction I had, that I was in no danger of being
discovered by these people, began to wear off my uneasiness about them; and I
began to live just in the same composed manner as before; only with this
difference, that I used more caution, and kept my eyes more about me than I did
before, lest I should happen to be seen by any of them; and particularly, I was
more cautious of firing my gun, lest any of them on the island should happen to
hear it; and it was therefore a very good providence to me, that I had furnished
myself with a tame breed of goats, that I had no need to hunt any more about the
woods, or shoot at them; and if I did catch any more of them after this, it was
by traps and snares, as I had done before; so that for two years after this, I
believe I never fired my gun once off, though I never went out without it; and,
which was more, as I had saved three pistols out of the ship, I always carried
them out with me, or at least two of them, sticking them in my goat-skin belt: I
likewise furbished up one of the great cutlasses that I had out of the ship, and
made me a belt to put it in also; so that I was now a most formidable fellow to
look at when I went abroad, if you add to the former description of myself, the
particular of two pistols, and a great broad-sword, hanging at my side in a
belt, but without a scabbard.
Things going on thus, as I have said, for some time, I seemed, excepting
these cautions, to be reduced to my former calm sedate way of living. All these
things tended to shew me more and more how far my condition was from being
miserable, compared to some others; nay, to many other particulars of life,
which it might have pleased God to have made my lot. It put me upon reflecting,
how little repining there would be among mankind, at any condition of life, if
people would rather compare their condition with those that are worse, in order
to be thankful, than be always comparing them with those which are better, to
assist their murmurings and complainings.
As in my present condition there were not really many things which I wanted,
so indeed I thought that the frights I had been in about these savage wretches,
and the concern I had been in for my own preservation, had taken off the edge of
my invention for my own conveniences, and I had dropped a good design, which I
had once bent my thoughts upon; and that was, to try if I could not make some of
my barley into malt, and then try to brew myself some beer: this was really a
whimsical thought, and I reproved myself often for the simplicity of it; for I
presently saw there would be the want of several things necessary to the making
my beer, that it would be impossible for me to supply; as, first, casks to
preserve it in, which was a thing that, as I have observed already, I could
never compass; no, though I spent not many days, but weeks, nay months, in
attempting it, but to no purpose. In the next place, I had no hops to make it
keep, no yeast to make it work, no copper or kettle to make it boil; and yet,
had not all these things intervened, I mean the frights and terrors I was in
about the savages, I had undertaken it, and perhaps brought it to pass too; for
I seldom gave any thing over without accomplishing it, when I once had it in my
head enough to begin it.
But my invention now ran quite another way; for night and day I could think
of nothing, but how I might destroy some of these monsters in their cruel bloody
entertainment, and, if possible, save the victim they should bring hither to
destroy. It would take up a larger volume than this whole work is intended to
be, to set down all the contrivances I hatched, or rather brooded upon in my
thoughts, for the destroying these creatures, or at least frightening them, so
as to prevent their coming hither any more; but all was abortive; nothing could
be possible to take effect, unless I was to be there to do it myself; and what
could one man do among them, when perhaps there might be twenty or thirty of
them together, with their darts, or their bows and arrows, with which they could
shoot as true to a mark as I could with my gun?
Sometimes I contrived to dig a hole under the place where they made their
fire, and put in five or six pounds of gunpowder, which, when they kindled their
fire, would consequently take fire, and blow up all that was near it; but, as in
the first place I should be very loath to waste so much powder upon them, my
store being now within the quantity of a barrel, so neither could I be sure of
its going off at any certain time, when it might surprise them; and, at best,
that it would do little more than just blow the fire about their ears, and
fright them, but not sufficient to make them forsake the place; so I laid it
aside, and then proposed, that I would place myself in ambush in some convenient
place, with my three guns all double-loaded, and in the middle of their bloody
ceremony let fly at them, when I should be sure to kill or wound perhaps two or
three at every shoot; and then falling in upon them with my three pistols, and
my sword, I made no doubt but that, if there were twenty, I should kill them
all: this fancy pleased my thoughts for some weeks, and I was so full of it that
I often dreamed of it; and sometimes, that I was just going to let fly at them
in my sleep.
I went so far with it in my indignation, that I employed myself several days
to find out proper places to put myself in ambuscade, as I said, to watch for
them; and I went frequently to the place itself, which was now grown more
familiar to me; and especially while my mind was thus filled with thoughts of
revenge, and of a bloody putting twenty or thirty of them to the sword, as I may
call it; but the horror I had at the place, and at the signals of the barbarous
wretches devouring one another, abated my malice.
Well, at length I found a place in the side of the hill, where I was
satisfied I might securely wait till I saw any of the boats coming, and might
then, even before they would be ready to come on shore, convey myself unseen
into thickets of trees, in one of which there was an hollow large enough to
conceal me entirely; and where I might sit, and observe all their bloody doings,
and take my full aim at their heads, when they were so close together, as that
it would be next to impossible that I should miss my shoot, or that I could fail
wounding three or four of them at the first shoot.
In this place then I resolved to fix my design; and accordingly I prepared
two muskets and my ordinary fowling-piece. The two muskets I loaded with a brace
of slugs each, and four or five smaller bullets, about the size of
pistol-bullets, and the fowling-piece I loaded with near an handful of
swan-shot, of the largest size; I also loaded my pistols with about four bullets
each: and in this posture, well provided with ammunition for a second and third
charge, I prepared myself for my expedition.
After I had thus laid the scheme for my design, and in my imagination put it
in practice, I continually made my tour every morning up to the top of the hill,
which was from my castle, as I called it, about three miles or more, to see if I
could observe any boats upon the sea, coming near the island, or standing over
towards it; but I began to tire of this hard duty, after I had for two or three
months constantly kept my watch; but came always back without any discovery,
there having not in all that time been the least appearance, not only on or near
the shore, but not on the whole ocean, so far as my eyes or glasses could reach
every way.
As long as I kept up my daily tour to the hill to look out, so long also I
kept up the vigour of my design, and my spirits seemed to be all the while in a
suitable frame for so outrageous an execution, as the killing twenty or thirty
naked savages for an offence, which I had not at all entered into a discussion
of in my thoughts, any further than my passions were at first fired by the
horror I conceived at the unnatural custom of the people of that country, who,
it seems, had been suffered by Providence, in his wise disposition of the world,
to have no other guide than that of their own abominable and vitiated passions;
and consequently were left, and perhaps had been for some ages, to act such
horrid things, and receive such dreadful customs, as nothing but nature,
entirely abandoned of Heaven, and actuated by some hellish degeneracy, could
have run them into; but now, when, as I have said, I began to be weary of the
fruitless excursion which I had made so long, and so far, every morning in vain;
so my opinion of the action itself began to alter, and I began, with cooler and
calmer thoughts, to consider what it was I was going to engage in; what
authority or call I had to pretend to be judge and executioner upon these men as
criminals, whom Heaven had thought fit for so many ages to suffer, unpunished,
to go on, and to be, as it were, the executioners of his judgments upon one
another; also, how far these people were offenders against me, and what right I
had to engage in the quarrel of that blood, which they shed promiscuously one
upon another. I debated this very often with myself thus: How do I know what God
himself judges in this particular case? It is certain these people do not commit
this as a crime; it is not against their own consciences reproving, or their
light reproaching them. They do not know it to be an offence, and then commit it
in defiance of divine justice, as we do in almost all the sins we commit. They
think it no more a crime to kill a captive taken in war, than we do to kill an
ox; nor to eat human flesh, than we do to eat mutton.
When I had considered this a little, it followed necessarily, that I was
certainly in the wrong in it; that these people were not murderers in the sense
that I had before condemned them in my thoughts, any more than those Christians
were murderers, who often put to death the prisoners taken in battle; or more
frequently, upon many occasions, put whole troops of men to the sword, without
giving quarter, though they threw down their arms and submitted.
In the next place, it occurred to me, that albeit the usage they gave one
another was thus brutish and inhuman, yet it was really nothing to me: these
people had done me no injury: that if they attempted me, or I saw it necessary
for my immediate preservation to fall upon them, something might be said for it;
but that I was yet out of their power, and they had really no knowledge of me,
and consequently no design upon me; and therefore it could not be just for me to
fall upon them: that this would justify the conduct of the Spaniards, in all
their barbarities practised in America, where they destroyed millions of these
people, who, however they were idolaters and barbarians, and had several bloody
and barbarous rites in these customs, such as sacrificing human bodies to their
idols, were yet, as to the Spaniards, very innocent people; and that the rooting
them out of the country is spoken of with the utmost abhorrence and detestation,
even by the Spaniards themselves, at this time, and by all other Christian
nations of Europe, as a mere butchery, a bloody and unnatural piece of cruelty,
unjustifiable either to God or man; and such, as for which the very name of a
Spaniard is reckoned to be frightful and terrible to all people of humanity, or
of Christian compassion: as if the kingdom of Spain were particularly eminent
for the product of a race of men, who were without principles of tenderness, or
the common bowels of pity to the miserable, which is reckoned to be a mark of a
generous temper in the mind.
These considerations really put me to a pause, and to a kind of a full stop;
and I began by little and little to be off of my design, and to conclude I had
taken a wrong measure in my resolutions to attack the savages; that it was not
my business to meddle with them, unless they first attacked me, and this it was
my business, if possible, to prevent; but that, if I were discovered and
attacked, then I knew my duty.
On the other hand, I argued with myself that this really was the way not to
deliver myself, but entirely to ruin and destroy myself; for unless I was sure
to kill every one that not only should be on shore at that time, but that should
ever come on shore afterwards, if but one of them escaped to tell their
country-people what had happened, they would come over again by thousands to
revenge the death of their fellows; and I should only bring upon myself a
certain destruction, which at present I had no manner of occasion for.
Upon the whole, I concluded, that neither in principles nor in policy, I
ought one way or other to concern myself in this affair: that my business was,
by all possible means to conceal myself from them, and not to leave the least
signal to them to guess by, that there were any living creatures upon the
island, I mean of human shape.
Religion joined in with this prudential, and I was convinced now many ways
that I was perfectly out of my duty, when I was laying all my bloody schemes for
the destruction of innocent creatures, I mean innocent as to me; as to the
crimes they were guilty of towards one another, I had nothing to do with them;
they were national punishments to make a just retribution for national offences;
and to bring public judgments upon those who offend in a public manner, by such
ways as best please God.
This appeared so clear to me now, that nothing was a greater satisfaction to
me, than that I had not been suffered to do a thing which I now saw so much
reason to believe would have been no less a sin than that of wilful murder, if I
had committed it; and I gave most humble thanks on my knees to God, that had
thus delivered me from blood-guiltiness; beseeching him to grant me the
protection of his Providence, that I might not fall into the hands of
barbarians; or that I might not lay my hands upon them, unless I had a more
clear call from Heaven to do it, in defence of my own life.
In this disposition I continued for near a year after this: and so far was I
from desiring an occasion for falling upon these wretches, that in all that time
I never once went up the hill to see whether there were any of them in sight, or
to know whether any of them had been on shore there, or not; that I might not be
tempted to renew any of my contrivances against them, or be provoked, by any
advantage which might present itself, to fall upon them; only this I did, I went
and removed my boat, which I had on the other side of the island, and carried it
down to the east end of the whole island, where I ran it into a little cove
which I found under some high rocks, and where I knew, by reason of the
currents, the savages durst not, at least would not, come with their boats upon
any account whatsoever.
With my boat I carried away every thing that I had left there belonging to
her, though not necessary for the bare going thither; viz. a mast and sail,
which I had made for her, and a thing like an anchor, but indeed which could not
be called either anchor or grappling; however, it was the best I could make of
its kind. All these I removed, that there might not be the least shadow of any
discovery, or any appearance of any boat, or of any habitation upon the island.
Besides this, I kept myself, as I said, more retired than ever, and seldom
went from my cell, other than upon my constant employment, viz. to milk my
she-goats, and manage my little flock in the wood, which, as it was quite on the
other part of the island, was quite out of danger: for certain it is, that these
savage people, who sometimes haunted this island, never came with any thoughts
of finding any thing here, and consequently never wandered off from the coast;
and I doubt not but they might have been several times on shore, after my
apprehensions of them had made me cautious, as well as before; and indeed I
looked back with some horror upon the thoughts of what my condition would have
been, if I had chopped upon them, and been discovered before that, when naked
and unarmed, except with one gun, and that loaded often only with small shot. I
walked every where, peeping and peering about the island, to see what I could
get: what a surprise should I have been in, if, when I discovered the print of a
man's foot, I had instead of that seen fifteen or twenty savages, and found them
pursuing me, and, by the swiftness of their running, no possibility of my
escaping them!
The thoughts of this sometimes sunk my very soul within me, and distressed my
mind so much, that I could not soon recover it; to think what I should have
done, and how I not only should not have been able to resist them, but even
should not have had presence of mind enough to do what I might have done; much
less what now, after so much consideration and preparation, I might be able to
do. Indeed, after serious thinking of these things, I would be very melancholy,
and sometimes it would last a great while; but I resolved it at last all into
thankfulness to that Providence which had delivered me from so many unseen
dangers, and had kept me from those mischiefs, which I could no way have been
the agent in delivering myself from; because I had not the least notion of any
such thing depending, or the least supposition of its being possible.
This renewed a contemplation, which often had come to my thoughts in former
time, when first I began to see the merciful dispositions of Heaven, in the
dangers we run through in this life; how wonderfully we are delivered when we
know nothing of it: how, when we are in a quandary, (as we call it) a doubt or
hesitation, whether to go this way, or that way, a secret hint shall direct us
this way, when we intended to go another way; nay, when sense, our own
inclination, and perhaps business, has called to go the other way, yet a strange
impression upon the mind, from we know not what springs, and by we know not what
power, shall over-rule us to go this way; and it shall afterwards appear, that
had we gone that way which we would have gone, and even to our imagination ought
to have gone, we should have been ruined and lost; upon these, and many like
reflections, I afterwards made it a certain rule with me, that whenever I found
those secret hints, or pressings of my mind, to doing or not doing any thing
that presented, or to going this way or that way, I never failed to obey the
secret dictate; though I new no other reason for it, than that such a pressure,
or such an hint, hung upon my mind: I could give many examples of the success of
this conduct in the course of my life; but more especially in the latter part of
my inhabiting this unhappy island; besides many occasions which it is very
likely I might have taken notice of, if I had seen with the same eyes then that
I saw with now: but 'tis never too late to be wise; and I cannot but advise all
considering men, whose lives are attended with such extraordinary incidents as
mine, or even though not so extraordinary, not to slight such secret intimations
of Providence, let them come from what invisible intelligence they will; that I
shall not discuss, and perhaps cannot account for; but certainly they are a
proof of the converse of spirits, and the secret communication between those
embodied, and those unembodied; and such a proof as can never be withstood: of
which I shall have occasion to give some very remarkable instances, in the
remainder of my solitary residence in this dismal place.
I believe the reader of this will not think it strange, if I confess that
these anxieties, these constant dangers I lived in, and the concern that was now
upon me, put an end to all invention, and to all the contrivances that I had
laid for my future accommodations and conveniences. I had the care of my safety
more now upon my hands than that of my food. I cared not to drive a nail, or
chop a stick of wood now, for fear the noise I should make should be heard; much
less would I fire a gun, for the same reason; and, above all, I was very uneasy
at making any fire, lest the smoke, which is visible at a great distance in the
day, should betray me; and for this reason I removed that part of my business
which required fire, such as burning of pots and pipes, &c. into my new
apartment in the wood; where, after I had been some time, I found, to my
unspeakable consolation, a mere natural cave in the earth, which went in a vast
way, and where, I dare say, no savage, had he been at the mouth of it, would be
so hardy as to venture in, nor indeed would any man else, but one who, like me,
wanted nothing so much as a safe retreat.
The mouth of this hollow was at the bottom of a great rock, where, by mere
accident, (I would say, if I did not see an abundant reason to ascribe all such
things now to Providence,) I was cutting down some thick branches of trees to
make charcoal; and before I go on, I must observe the reason of my making this
charcoal, which was thus:
I was afraid of making a smoke about my habitation, as I said before; and yet
I could not live there without baking my bread, cooking my meat, &c.; so I
contrived to burn some wood here, as I had seen done in England under turf, till
it became chark, or dry coal; and then putting the fire out, I preserved the
coal to carry home, and perform the other services, which fire was wanting for
at home, without danger or smoke.
But this by the by: while I was cutting down some wood here, I perceived that
behind a very thick branch of low brushwood, or underwood, there was a kind of
hollow place: I was curious to look into it, and getting with difficulty into
the mouth of it, I found it was pretty large, that is to say, sufficient for me
to stand upright in it, and perhaps another with me; but I must confess to you,
I made more haste out than I did in, when, looking further into the place, which
was perfectly dark, I saw two broad shining eyes of some creature, whether devil
or man I knew not, which twinkled like two stars, the dim light from the cave's
mouth shining directly in and making the reflection.
However, after some pause, I recovered myself, and began to call myself a
thousand fools, and tell myself, that he that was afraid to see the devil, was
not fit to live twenty years in an island all alone, and that I durst to believe
there was nothing in this cave that was more frightful than myself: upon this,
plucking up my courage, I took up a large firebrand, and in I rushed again, with
the stick flaming in my hand: I had not gone three steps in, but I was almost as
much frightened as I was before; for I heard a very loud sigh, like that of a
man in some pain; and it was followed by a broken noise, as if of words
half-expressed, and then a deep sigh again: I stepped back, and was indeed
struck with such a surprise, that it put me into a cold sweat; and if I had had
an hat on my head, I will not answer for it that my hair might not have lifted
it off. But still plucking up my spirits as well as I could, and encouraging
myself a little, with considering that the power and presence of God was every
where, and was able to protect me; upon this I stepped forward again, and by the
light of the firebrand, holding it up a little over my head, I saw lying on the
ground a most monstrous frightful old he-goat, just making his will, as we say,
gasping for life, and dying indeed of a mere old age.
I stirred him a little to see if I could get him out, and he essayed to get
up, but was not able to raise himself; and I thought with myself, he might even
lie there; for if he had frightened me so, he would certainly fright, any of the
savages, if any of them should be so hardy as to come in there, while he had any
life in him.
I was now recovered from my surprise, and began to look round me, when I
found the cave was but very small; that is to say, it might be about twelve feet
over, but in no manner of shape, either round or square, no hands having ever
been employed in making it but those of mere nature: I observed also, that there
was a place at the farther side of it that went in farther, but so low, that it
required me to creep upon my hands and knees to get into it, and whither it went
I knew not; so having no candle, I gave it over for some time, but resolved to
come again the next day, provided with candles and a tinder-box, which I had
made of the lock of one of the muskets, with some wildfire in the pan.
Accordingly, the next day, I came provided with six large candles of my own
making, for I made very good candles now of goats tallow; and going into this
low place, I was obliged to creep upon all fours, as I have said, almost ten
yards; which, by the way, I thought was a venture bold enough, considering that
I knew not how far it might go, or what was beyond it. When I was got through
the streight, I found the roof rose higher up, I believe near twenty feet; but
never was such a glorious sight seen in the island, I dare say, as it was, to
look round the sides and roof of this vault or cave. The walls reflected an
hundred thousand lights to me from my two candles; what it was in the rock,
whether diamonds, or any other precious stones, or gold, which I rather supposed
it to be, I knew not.
The place I was in was a most delightful cavity, or grotto, of its kind, as
could be expected, though perfectly dark; the floor was dry and level, and had a
sort of small loose gravel upon it; so that there was no nauseous creature to be
seen; neither was there any damp or wet on the sides of the roof: the only
difficulty in it was the entrance, which, however, as it was a place of
security, and such a retreat as I wanted, I thought that was a convenience; so
that I was really rejoiced at the discovery, and resolved, without any delay, to
bring some of those things which I was most anxious about to this place;
particularly, I resolved to bring hither my magazine of powder, and all my spare
arms, viz. two fowling-pieces (for I had three in all) and three muskets; (for
of them I had eight in all) so I kept at my castle only five, which stood ready
mounted, like pieces of cannon, on my utmost fence, and were ready also to take
out upon any expedition.
Upon this occasion of removing my ammunition, I was obliged to open the
barrel of powder which I took up out of the sea, and which had been wet; and I
found, that the water had penetrated about three or four inches into the powder
on every side, which, caking and growing hard, had preserved the inside like a
kernel in a shell; so that I had near sixty pounds of very good powder in the
centre of the cask; and this was an agreeable discovery to me at that time; so I
carried all away thither, never keeping above two or three pounds of powder with
me in my castle, for fear of a surprise of any kind; I also carried thither all
the lead I had left for bullets.
I fancied myself now like one of the ancient giants, which were said to live
in caves and holes in the rocks, where none could come at them; for I persuaded
myself while I was here, if five hundred savages were to hunt me, they could
never find me out; or if they did, they would not venture to attack me here.
The old goat, which I found expiring, died in the mouth of the cave the next
day after I made this discovery; and I found it much easier to dig a great hole
there, and throw him in, and cover him with earth, than to drag him out: so I
interred him there, to prevent offence to my nose.
I was now in my twenty-third year of residence in this island, and was so
naturalized to the place, and to the manner of living, that could I have but
enjoyed the certainty that no savages would come to the place to disturb me, I
could have been content to have capitulated for spending the rest of my time
there, even to the last moment, till I had laid me down and died, like the old
goat, in the cave: I had also arrived to some little diversions and amusements,
which made the time pass more pleasantly with me a great deal than it did
before; as, first, I had taught my Pol, as I noted before, to speak; and he did
it so familiarly, and talked so articulately and plain, that it was very
pleasant to me; and he lived with me no less than six-and-twenty years: how long
he might live afterwards I knew not; though I know they have a notion in the
Brasils, that they live an hundred years; perhaps some of my Polls may be alive
there still, calling after poor Robin Crusoe to this day; I wish no Englishman
the ill luck to come there and hear them; but if he did, he would certainly
believe it was the devil. My dog was a very pleasant and loving companion to me
for no less than sixteen years of my time, and then died of mere old age; as for
my cats, they multiplied, as I have observed, to that degree, that I was obliged
to shoot several of them at first, to keep them from devouring me, and all I
had; but at length, when the two old ones I brought with me were gone, and after
some time continually driving them from me, and letting them have no provision
with me, they all ran wild into the woods, except two or three favourites, which
I kept tame, and whose young, when they had any, I always drowned, and these
were part of my family: besides these, I always kept two or three household kids
about me, which I taught to feed out of my hand; and I had also more parrots
which talked pretty well, and would all call Robin Crusoe, but none like my
first; nor, indeed, did I take the pains with any of them that I had done with
him: I had also several tame sea-fowls, whose names I know not, which I caught
upon the shore, and cut their wings; and the little stakes, which I had planted
before my castle wall, being now grown up to a good thick grove, these fowls all
lived among these low trees, and bred there, which was very agreeable to me; so
that, as I said above, I began to be very well contented with the life I led, if
it might but have been secured from the dread of savages.
But it was otherwise directed; and it might not be amiss for all people who
shall meet with my story to make this just observation from it, viz. How
frequently, in the course of our lives, the evil, which in itself we seek most
to shun, and which, when we are fallen into, is the most dreadful to us, is
oftentimes the very means or door of our deliverance, by which alone we can be
raised again from the affliction we are fallen into. I could give many examples
of this in the course of my unaccountable life; but in nothing was it more
particularly remarkable, than in the circumstances of my last years of solitary
residence in this island.
It was now the mouth of December, as I said above, in my twenty-third year;
and this being the southern solstice, for winter I cannot call it, was the
particular time of my harvest, and required my being pretty much abroad in the
fields; when going out pretty early in the morning, even before it was thorough
daylight, I was surprised with seeing a light of some fire upon the shore, at a
distance from me of about two miles, towards the end of the island, where I had
observed some savages had been, as before; but not on the other side; but, to my
great affliction, it was on my side of the island.
I was indeed terribly surprised at the sight, and stopped short within my
grove, not daring to go out, lest I might be surprised; and yet I had no more
peace within, from the apprehensions I had, that if these savages, in rambling
over the island, should find my corn standing, or cut, or any of my works and
improvements, they would immediately conclude that there were people in the
place, and would then never give over till they found me out. In this extremity
I went back directly to my castle, pulled up the ladder after me, having made
all things without look as wild and natural as I could.
Then I prepared myself within, putting myself in a posture of defence; I
loaded all my cannon, as I called them, that is to say, my muskets, which were
mounted upon my new fortification, and all my pistols, and resolved to defend
myself to the last gasp; not forgetting seriously to recommend myself to the
divine protection, and earnestly to pray to God to deliver me out of the hands
of the barbarians; and in this posture I continued about two hours, but began to
be mighty impatient for intelligence abroad, for I had no spies to send out.
After sitting awhile longer, and musing what I should do in this case, I was
not able to bear sitting in ignorance longer; so setting up my ladder to the
side of the hill, where there was a flat place, as I observed before, and then
pulling the ladder up after me, I set it up again, and mounted to the top of the
hill; and pulling out my perspective glass, which I had taken on purpose, I laid
me down flat on my belly on the ground, and began to look for the place. I
presently found there were no less than nine naked savages sitting round a small
fire they had made; not to warm them, for they had no need of that, the weather
being extreme hot; but, as I supposed, to dress some of their barbarous diet of
human flesh which they had brought with them, whether alive or dead I could not
know.
They had two canoes with them, which they had haled up upon the shore; and as
it was then tide of ebb, they seemed to me to wait the return of the flood to go
away again. It is not easy to imagine what confusion this sight put me into,
especially seeing them come on my side the island, and so near me too; but when
I observed their coming must be always with the current of the ebb, I began
afterwards to be more sedate in my mind, being satisfied that I might go abroad
with safety all the time of tide of flood, if they were not on shore before; and
having made this observation, I went abroad about my harvest work with the more
composure.
As I expected, so it proved; for as soon as the tide made to the westward, I
saw them all take boat, and row (or paddle, as we call it) all away: I should
have observed, that for an hour and more before they went off, they went to
dancing, and I could easily discern their postures and gestures by my glasses; I
could only perceive, by my nicest observation, that they were stark naked, and
had not the least covering upon them; but whether they were men or women, that I
could not distinguish.
As soon as I saw them shipped and gone, I took two guns upon my shoulders,
and two pistols at my girdle, and my great sword by my side, without a scabbard;
and with all the speed I was able to make, I went away to the hill, where I had
discovered the first appearance of all. As soon as I got thither, which was not
less than two hours, (for I could not go apace, being so loaded with arms as I
was,) I perceived there had been three canoes more of savages on that place; and
looking out further, I saw they were all at sea together, making over for the
main.
This was a dreadful sight to me, especially when, going down to the shore, I
could see the marks of horror which the dismal work they had been about had left
behind it, viz. the blood, the bones, and part of the flesh of human bodies,
eaten and devoured by those wretches with merriment and sport. I was so filled
with indignation at the sight, that I began now to premeditate the destruction
of the next that I saw there, let them be who or how many soever.
It seemed evident to me, that the visits which they thus made to this island
were not very frequent; for it was above fifteen months before any more of them
came on shore there again; that is to say, I never saw them, or any footsteps or
signals of them, in all that time; for as to the rainy seasons, then they are
sure not to come abroad, at least not so far; yet all this while I lived
uncomfortably, by reason of the constant apprehensions I was in of their coming
upon me by surprise; from whence I observe, that the expectation of evil is more
bitter than the suffering, especially if there is no room to shake off that
expectation or those apprehensions.
During all this time, I was in the murdering humour; and took up most of my
hours, which should have been better employed, in contriving how to circumvent
and fall upon them the very next time I should see them; especially if they
should he divided, as they were the last time, into two parties; nor did I
consider at all, that if I killed one party, suppose ten or a dozen, I was still
the next day, or week, or mouth, to kill another, and so another, even _ad
infinitum_, till I should be at length no less a murderer than they were in
being men-eaters, and perhaps much mere so.
I spent my days now in great perplexity and anxiety of mind, expecting that I
should one day or other fall into the hands of those merciless creatures; if I
did at any time venture abroad, it was not without looking round me with the
greatest care and caution imaginable; and now I found, to my great comfort, how
happy it was that I had provided a tame flock or herd of goats; for I durst not,
upon any account, fire my gun especially near that side of the island, where
they usually came, lest I should alarm the savages; and if they had fled from me
now, I was sure to have them come back again, with perhaps two or three hundred
canoes with them in a few days, and then I knew what to expect.
However, I wore out a year and three months more before I ever saw any more
of the savages, and then I found them again, as I shall soon observe. It is
true, they might have been there once or twice, but either they made no stay,
or, at least, I did not hear them; but in the month of May, as near as I could
calculate, and in my four-and-twentieth year, I had a very strange encounter
with them, of which in its place.
The perturbation of my mind, during this fifteen or sixteen months interval,
was very great; I slept unquiet, dreamed always frightful dreams, and often
started out of my sleep in the night; in the day great troubles overwhelmed my
mind; in the night I dreamed often of killing the savages, and the reasons why I
might justify the doing of it. But to wave all this for awhile, it was in the
middle of May, on the sixteenth day, I think, as well as my poor wooden calendar
would reckon, for I marked all upon, the post still; I say, it was on the
sixteenth of May that it blew a great storm of wind all day, with a great deal
of lightning and thunder, and a very foul night was after it: I know not what
was the particular occasion of it; but as I was reading in the Bible, and taken
up with serious thoughts about my present condition, I was surprised with the
noise of a gun, as I thought, fired at sea.
This was, to be sure, a surprise of a quite different nature from any I had
met with before; for the notions this put into my thoughts were quite of another
kind: I started up in the greatest haste imaginable; and in a trice clapped up
my ladder to the middle place of the rock, and pulled it after me, and mounting
it the second time, got to the top of the hill; that very moment a flash of fire
bade me listen for a second gun, which accordingly in about half a moment I
heard, and by the sound knew that it was from that part of the sea where I was
driven out with the current in my boat.
I immediately considered that this must be some ship in distress, and that
they had some comrade, or some other ship in company, and fired these guns for
signals of distress, and to obtain help. I had this presence of mind at that
minute as to think, that though I could not help them, it may be they might help
me; so I brought together all the dry wood I could get at hand, and making a
good handsome pile, I set it on fire upon the hill; the wood was dry, and blazed
freely, and though the wind blew very hard, yet it burnt fairly out, so that I
was certain, if there was any such thing as a ship, they must need see it, and
no doubt they did; for as soon as ever my fire blazed up, I heard another gun,
and after that several others, all from the same quarter. I plied my fire all
night long, till day broke; and when it was broad day, and the air cleared up, I
saw something at a great distance at sea, full east of the island, whether a
sail, or an hull, I could not distinguish, no not with my glasses, the distance
was so great, and the weather still something hazy also; at least it was so out
at sea.
I looked frequently at it all that day, and soon perceived that it did not
move; so I presently concluded that it was a ship at anchor; and being eager,
you may be sure, to be satisfied, I took my gun in my hand, and ran towards the
south-east side of the island, to the rocks, where I had been formerly carried
away with the current; and getting up there, the weather by this time being
perfectly clear, I could plainly see, to my great sorrow, the wreck of a ship
cast away in the night upon those concealed rocks which I found when I was out
in my boat; and which rocks, as they checked the violence of the stream, and
made a kind of counter-stream, or eddy, were the occasion of my recovering then
from the most desperate hopeless condition that ever I had been in all my life.
Thus, what is one man's safety is another man's destruction; for it seems
these men, whoever they were, being out of their knowledge, and the rocks being
wholly under water, had been driven upon them in the night, the wind blowing
hard at E. and E.N.E. Had they seen the island, as I must necessarily suppose
they did not, they must, as I thought, have endeavoured to have saved themselves
on shore by the help of their boat; but the firing of their guns for help,
especially when they saw, as I imagined, my fire, filled me with many thoughts:
first, I imagined, that, upon seeing my light, they might have put themselves
into their boat, and have endeavoured to make the shore; but that the sea going
very high, they might have been cast away; other times I imagined, that they
might have lost their boat before, as might be the case many ways; as
particularly, by the breaking of the sea upon their ship, which many times
obliges men to stave, or take in pieces their boat; and sometimes to throw it
overboard with their own hands; other times I imagined, they had some other ship
or ships in company, who, upon the signals of distress they had made, had taken
them up, and carried them off: other whiles I fancied they were all gone off to
sea in their boat, and being hurried away by the current that I had been
formerly in, were carried out into the great ocean, where there was nothing but
misery and perishing; and that perhaps they might by this time think of
starving, and of being in a condition to eat one another.
All these were but conjectures at best, so, in the condition I was in, I
could do no more than look upon the misery of the poor men, and pity them; which
had still this good effect on my side, that it gave me more and more cause to
give thanks to God, who had so happily and comfortably provided for me in my
desolate condition; and that of two ships' companies, who were now cast away
upon this part of the world, not one life should be spared but mine. I learnt
here again to observe, that it is very rare that the providence of God casts us
into any condition of life so low, or any misery so great, but we may see
something or other to be thankful for, and may see others in worse circumstances
than our own.
Such certainly was the case of these men, of whom I could not so much as see
room to suppose any of them were saved; nothing could make it rational, so much
as to wish or expect that they did not all perish there, except the possibility
only of their being taken up by another ship in company: and this was but mere
possibility indeed; for I saw not the least signal or appearance of any such
thing.
I cannot explain, by any possible energy of words, what a strange longing, or
hankering of desire, I felt in my soul upon this sight; breaking out sometimes
thus: "O that there had been but one or two, nay, but one soul saved out of the
ship, to have escaped to me, that I might but have had one companion, one
fellow-creature to have spoken to me, and to have conversed with!" In all the
time of my solitary life, I never felt so earnest, so strong a desire after the
society of my fellow-creatures, or so deep a regret at want of it.
There are some secret moving springs in the affections, which, when they are
set a going by some object in view, or be it some object though not in view, yet
rendered present to the mind by the power of imagination, that motion carries
out the soul by its impetuosity to such violent eager embracings of the object,
that the absence of it is insupportable.
Such were these earnest wishings, "That but one man had been saved! O that it
had been but one!" I believe I repeated the words, "O that it had been but one!"
a thousand times; and my desires were so moved by it, that when I spoke the
words, my hands would clinch together, and my fingers press the palms of my
hands, that if I had had any soft thing in my hand, it would have crushed it
involuntarily; and my teeth in my head would strike together, and set against
one another so strong, that for some time I could not part them again.
Let the naturalists explain these things, and the reason and manner of them:
all I can say of them is, to describe the fact, which was ever surprising to me
when I found it, though I knew not from what it should proceed; it was doubtless
the effect of ardent wishes, and of strong ideas formed in my mind, realizing
the comfort which the conversation of one of my fellow-christians would have
been to me.
But it was not to be; either their fate, or mine, or both, forbad it; for
till the last year of my being on this island, I never knew whether any were
saved out of that ship, or no; and had only the affliction some days after to
see the corpse of a drowned boy come on shore, at the end of the island which
was next the shipwreck: he had on no clothes but a seaman's waistcoat, a pair of
open kneed linen drawers, and a blue linen shirt; but nothing to direct me so
much as to guess what nation he was of: he had nothing in his pocket but two
pieces of eight, and a tobacco-pipe; the last was to me of ten times more value
than the first.
It was now calm, and I had a great mind to venture out in my boat to this
wreck, not doubting but I might find something on board that might be useful to
me; but that did not altogether press me so much, as the possibility that there
might be yet some living creature on board, whose life I might not only save,
but might, by saving that life, comfort my own to the last degree: and this
thought clung so to my heart, that I could not be quiet night nor day, but I
must venture out in my boat on board this wreck; and committing the rest to
God's providence, I thought the impression was so strong upon my mind, that it
could not be resisted, that it must come from some invisible direction, and that
I should be wanting to myself if I did not go.
Under the power of this impression, I hastened back to my castle, prepared
every thing for my voyage, took a quantity of bread, a great pot for fresh
water, a compass to steer by, a bottle of rum, (for I had still a great deal of
that left) a basket full of raisins: and thus loading myself with every thing
necessary, I went down to my boat, got the water out of her, and got her afloat,
loaded all my cargo in her, and then went home again for more: my second cargo
was a great bag full of rice, the umbrella to set up over my head for shade,
another large pot full of lush water, and about two dozen of my small loaves, or
barley-cakes, more than before, with a bottle of goat's milk, and a cheese: all
which, with great labour and sweat, I brought to my boat; and praying to God to
direct my voyage, I put out, and rowing or paddling the canoe along the shore, I
came at last to the utmost point of the island, on that side, viz. N.E. And now
I was to launch out into the ocean, and either to venture, or not to venture; I
looked on the rapid currents which ran constantly on both sides of the island,
at a distance, and which were very terrible to me, from the remembrance of the
hazard I had been in before, and my heart began to fail me; for I foresaw, that
if I was driven into either of those currents, I should be carried a vast way
out to sea and perhaps out of my reach, or sight of the island again; and that
then, as my boat was but small, if any little gale of wind should rise, I should
be inevitably lost.
These thoughts so oppressed my mind, that I began to give over my enterprise,
and having haled my boat into a little creek on the shore, I stepped out, and
sat me down upon a little spot of rising ground, very pensive and anxious,
between fear and desire, about my voyage; when, as I was musing, I could
perceive that the tide was turned, and the flood came on, upon which my going
was for so many hours impracticable: upon this it presently occurred to me, that
I should go up to the highest piece of ground I could find, and observe, if I
could, how the sets of the tide or currents lay, when the flood came in, that I
might judge whether, if I was driven one way out, I might not expect to be
driven another way home, with the same rapidness of the currents. This thought
was no sooner in my head, but I cast my eye upon a little hill which
sufficiently overlooked the sea both ways, and from whence I had a clear view of
the currents, or sets of the tide, and which way I was to guide myself in my
return: here I found, that as the current of the ebb set out close by the south
point of the island, so the current of the flood set in close by the shore of
the north side; and that I had nothing to do but to keep to the north of the
island in my return, and I should do well enough.
Encouraged with this observation, I resolved the next morning to set out with
the first of the tide; and reposing myself for that night in the canoe, under
the great watch-coat I mentioned, I launched out. I made first a little out to
sea full north, till I began to feel the benefit of the current, which sat
eastward, and which carried me at a great rate, and yet did not so hurry me as
the southern side current had done before, and so as to take from me all
government of the boat; but having a strong steerage with my paddle, I went, I
say, at a great rate, directly for the wreck, and in less than two hours I came
up to it.
It was a dismal sight to took at: the ship, which by its building was
Spanish, stuck fast, jambed in between two rocks; all the stern and quarter of
her was beaten to pieces with the sea; and as her forecastle, which stuck in the
rocks, had run on with great violence, her main-mast and fore-mast were brought
by the board, that is to say, broken short off, but her boltsprit was sound, and
the head and bow appeared firm. When I came close to her, a dog appeared upon
her, which, seeing me coming, yelped and cried, and as soon as I called him,
jumped into the sea to come to me: and I took him into the boat, but found him
almost dead for hunger and thirst: I gave him a cake of my bread, and he ate
like a ravenous wolf that had been starving a fortnight in the snow: I then gave
the poor creature some fresh water, with which, if I would have let him, he
would have burst himself.
After this I went on board. The first sight I met with was two men drowned in
the cook-room, or forecastle of the ship, with their arms fast about one
another. I concluded, as is indeed probable, that when the ship struck, it being
in a storm, the sea broke so high, and so continually over her, that the men
were not able to bear it, and were strangled with the constant rushing in of the
water, as much as if they had been under water. Besides the dog, there was
nothing left in the ship that had life, nor any goods that I could see, but what
were spoiled by the water: there were some casks of liquor, whether wine or
brandy I knew not, which lay lower in the hold, and which, the water being ebbed
out, I could see; but they were too big to meddle with: I saw several chests,
which I believed belonged to some of the seamen, and I got two of them into the
boat without examining what was in them.
Had the stern of the ship been fixed, and the fore part broken off, I am
persuaded I might have made a good voyage; for by what I found in these two
chests, I had room to suppose the ship had a great deal of wealth on board; and
if I may guess by the course she steered, she must have been bound from the
Buenos Ayres, or the Rio de la Plata, in the south part of America, beyond the
Brasils, to the Havanna, in the Gulf of Mexico, and so perhaps to Spain: she
had, no doubt, a great treasure in her, but of no use at that time to any body;
and what became of the rest of her people I then knew not.
I found, besides these chests, a little cask full of liquor, of about twenty
gallons, which I got into my boat with much difficulty. There were several
muskets in a cabin, and a great powder-horn, with about four pounds of powder in
it: as for the muskets, I had no occasion for them, so I left them, but took the
powder-horn. I took a fire-shovel and tongs, which I wanted extremely; as also
two little brass kettles, a copper pot to make chocolate, and a gridiron; and
with this cargo, and the dog, I came away, the tide beginning to make home
again; and the same evening, about an hour within night, I reached the island
again, weary and fatigued to the last degree.
I reposed that night in the boat, and in the morning I resolved to harbour
what I had gotten in my new cave, not to carry it home to my castle. After
refreshing myself, I got all my cargo on shore, and began to examine the
particulars: the cask of liquor I found to be a kind of rum, but not such as we
had at the Brasils; and, in a word, not at all good; but when I came to open the
chests, I found several things which I wanted: for example, I found in one a
fine case of bottles, of an extraordinary kind, and filled with cordial waters,
fine, and very good; the bottles held about three pints each, and were tipped
with silver: I found two pots of very good succades, or sweetmeats, so fastened
also on the top, that the salt water had not hurt them; and two more of the
same, which the water had spoiled: I found some very good shirts, which were
very welcome to me, and about a dozen and a half of white linen handkerchiefs
and coloured neckcloths; the former were also very welcome, being exceeding
refreshing to wipe my face in a hot day. Besides this, when I came to the till
in the chests, I found there three great bags of pieces of eight, which held
about eleven hundred pieces in all; and in one of them, wrapt up in a paper, six
doubloons of gold, and some small bars or wedges of gold; I suppose they might
all weigh near a pound.
The other chest I found had some clothes in it, but of little value; but by
the circumstances, it must have belonged to the gunner's mate, as there was no
powder in it, but about two pounds of glazed powder in the three flasks, kept, I
suppose, for charging their fowling-pieces on occasion. Upon the whole, I got
very little by this voyage that was of much use to me; for, as to the money, I
had no manner of occasion for it; it was to me as the dirt under my feet; and I
would have given it all for three or four pair of English shoes and stockings,
which were things I greatly wanted, but had not had on my feet now for many
years: I had, indeed, got two pair of shoes now, which I took off the feet of
the two drowned men whom I saw in the wreck; and I found two pair more in one of
the chests, which were very welcome to me; but they were not like our English
shoes, either for case or service, being rather what we call pumps than shoes. I
found in the seaman's chest about fifty pieces of eight in royals, but no gold:
I suppose this belonged to a poorer man than the other, which seemed to belong
to some officer.
Well, however, I lugged the money home to my cave, and laid it up, as I had
done that before, which I brought from our own ship; but it was great pity, as I
said, that the other part of the ship had not come to my share, for I am
satisfied I might have loaded my canoe several times over with money, which, if
I had ever escaped to England, would have lain here safe enough till I might
have come again and fetched it.
Having now brought all my things on shore, and secured them, I went back to
my boat, and rowed or paddled her along the shore to her old harbour, where I
laid her up, and made the best of my way to my old habitation, where I found
every thing safe and quiet; so I began to repose myself, live after my old
fashion, and take care of my family affairs; and for awhile I lived easy enough;
only that I was more vigilant than I used to be, looked out oftener, and did not
go abroad so much; and if at any time I did stir with any freedom, it was always
to the east part of the island, where I was pretty well satisfied the savages
never came, and where I could go without so many precautions, and such a load of
arms and ammunition as I always carried with me, if I went the other way.
I lived in this condition near two years more; but my unlucky head, that was
always to let me know it was born to make my body miserable, was all these two
years filled with projects and designs, how, if it were possible, I might get
away from this island; for sometimes I was for making another voyage to the
wreck, though my reason told me, that there was nothing left there worth the
hazard of my voyage; sometimes for a ramble one way, sometimes another; and I
believe verity, if I had had the boat that I went from Sallee in, I should have
ventured to sea, bound any where, I knew not whither.
I have been, in all my circumstances, a memento to those who are touched with
that general plague of mankind, whence, for aught I know, one half of their
miseries flow; I mean, that of not being satisfied with the station wherein God
and nature hath placed them; for, not to look back upon my primitive condition,
and the excellent advice of my father, the opposition to which was, as I may
call it, my original sin, my subsequent mistakes of the same kind have been the
means of my coming into this miserable condition; for had that Providence, which
so happily had seated me at the Brasils as a planter, blessed me with confined
desires, and could I have been contented to have gone on gradually, I might have
been by this time, I mean in the time of my being on this island, one of the
most considerable planters in the Brasils; nay, I am persuaded, that by the
improvements I had made in that little time I lived there, and the increase I
should probably have made if I had stayed, I might have been worth a hundred
thousand moidores; and what business had I to leave a settled fortune,
well-stocked plantation, improving and increasing, to turn supercargo to Guinea,
to fetch Negroes, when patience and time would have so increased our stock at
home, that we could have bought them at our own doors, from those whose business
it was to fetch them? And though it had cost us something more, yet the
difference of that price was by no means worth saving at so great a hazard.
But as this is ordinarily the fate of young heads, so reflection upon the
folly of it is as ordinarily the exercise of more years, or of the dear-bought
experience of time; and so it was with me now; and yet, so deep had the mistake
taken root in my temper, that I could not satisfy myself in my station, but was
continually poring upon the means and possibility of my escape from this place;
and that I may, with the greater pleasure to the reader, bring on the remaining
part of my story, it may not be improper to give some account of my first
conceptions on the subject of this foolish scheme for my escape; and how, and
upon what foundation, I acted.
I am now to be supposed to be retired into my castle, after my late voyage to
the wreck, my frigate laid up, and secured under water as usual, and my
condition restored to what it was before: I had more wealth, indeed, than I had
before, but was not at all the richer; for I had no more use for it than the
Indians of Peru had before the Spaniards came thither.
It was one of the nights in the rainy season in March, the four-and-twentieth
year of my first setting foot in this island of solitariness, I was lying in my
bed or hammock, awake, and very well in health, had no pain, no distemper, no
uneasiness of body, no, nor any uneasiness of mind more than ordinary, but could
by no means close my eyes, that is, so as to sleep; no, not a wink all night
long, otherwise than as follows:
It is as impossible as needless to set down the innumerable crowd of thoughts
that whirled through that great thoroughfare of the brain, the memory, in this
night's time: I ran over the whole history of my life in miniature, or by
abridgment, as I may call it, to my coming to this island; and also of that part
of my life since I came to this island; in my reflections upon the state of my
case, since I came on shore on this island; I was comparing the happy posture of
my affairs, in the first years of my habitation here, to that course of anxiety,
fear, and care, which I had lived in ever since I had seen the print of a foot
in the sand; not that I did not believe the savages had frequented the island
even all the while, and might have been several hundreds of them at times on the
shore there; but as I had never known it, and was incapable of any apprehensions
about it, my satisfaction was perfect, though my danger was the same; and I was
as happy in not knowing my danger, as if I had never really been exposed to it;
this furnished my thoughts with many very profitable reflections, and
particularly this one: How infinitely good that Providence is, which has settled
in its government of mankind such narrow bounds to his sight and knowledge of
things; and though he walks in the midst of so many thousand dangers, the sight
of which, if discovered to him, would distract his mind and sink his spirits, he
is kept serene and calm, by having the events of things hid from his eyes, and
knowing nothing of the dangers which surround him.
After these thoughts had for some time entertained me, I came to reflect
seriously upon the real danger I had been in for so many years in this very
island; and how I had walked about in the greatest security, and with all
possible tranquillity, even perhaps when nothing but a brow on a hill, a great
tree, or the casual approach of night, had been between me and the worst kind of
destruction, viz. that of falling into the hands of cannibals, and savages, who
would have seized on me with the same view, as I did of a goat, or a turtle; and
have thought it no more a crime to kill and devour me, than I did of a pigeon,
or a curlieu: I would unjustly slander my self, if I should say I was not
sincerely thankful to my great Preserver, to whose singular protection I
acknowledged, with great humility, that all these unknown deliverances were due;
and without which, I must inevitably have fallen into their merciless hands.
When these thoughts were over, my head was for some time taken up in
considering the nature of these wretched creatures; I mean, the savages; and how
it came to pass in the world, that the wise governour of all things should give
up any of his creatures to such inhumanity; nay, to something so much below,
even brutality it self, as to devour its own kind; but as this ended in some (at
that time fruitless) speculations, it occurred to me to enquire, what part of
the world these wretches lived in; how far off the coast was from whence they
came; what they ventured over so far from home for; what kind of boats they had;
and why I might not order my self, and my business so, that I might be as able
to go over thither, as they were to come to me.
I never so much as troubled my self to consider what I should do with my
self, when I came thither; what would become of me, if I fell into the hands of
the savages; or how I should escape from them, if they attempted me; no, nor so
much as how it was possible for me to reach the coast, and not be attempted by
some or other of them, without any possibility of delivering my self; and if I
should not fall into their hands, what I should do for provision, or whither I
should bend my course; none of these thoughts, I say, so much as came in my way;
but my mind was wholly bent upon the notion of my passing over in my boat, to
the main land: I looked back upon my present condition as the most miserable
that could possibly be; that I was not able to throw myself into any thing but
death that could be called worse; that if I reached the shore of the main, I
might, perhaps, meet with relief; or I might coast along, as I did on the shore
of Africa, till I came to some inhabited country, and where I might find some
relief; and after all, perhaps, I might fall in with some Christian ship that
might take me in: and if the worst came to the worst, I could but die, which
would put an end to all these miseries at once. Pray, note all this was the
fruit of a disturbed mind, an impatient temper, made, as it were, desperate by
the long continuance of my troubles, and the disappointments I had met in the
wreck I had been on board of, and where I had been so near the obtaining of what
I so earnestly longed for, viz. somebody to speak to, and to learn some
knowledge from of the place where I was, and of the probable means of my
deliverance; I say, I was agitated wholly by these thoughts. All my calm of mind
in my resignation to Providence, and waiting the issue of the dispositions of
Heaven, seemed to be suspended; and I had, as it were, no power to turn my
thoughts to any thing but the project of a voyage to the main; which came upon
me with such force, and such an impetuosity of desire, that it was not to be
resisted.
When this had agitated my thoughts for two hours or more, with such violence
that it set my very blood into a ferment, and my pulse beat as high as if I had
been in a fever, merely with the extraordinary fervour of my mind about it;
nature, as if I had been fatigued and exhausted with the very thought of it,
threw me into a sound sleep: one would have thought I should have dreamed of it;
but I did not, nor of any thing relating to it; but I dreamed, that as I was
going out in the morning, as usual, from my castle, I saw upon the shore two
canoes and eleven savages coming to land, and that they brought with them
another savage, whom they were going to kill, in order to eat him; when on a
sudden, the savage that they were going to kill jumped away, and ran for his
life: then I thought in my sleep, that he came running into my little thick
grove, before my fortification, to hide himself; and that I seeing him alone,
and not perceiving that the others sought him that way, shewed myself to him,
and, smiling upon him, encouraged him: that he kneeled down to me, seeming to
pray me to assist him; upon which I shewed my ladder, made him go up it, and
carried him into my cave, and he became my servant; and that as soon as I had
got this man, I said to myself, "Now I may certainly venture to the main land;
for this fellow will serve me as a pilot, and will tell me what to do, and
whither to go for provisions, and whither not to go for fear of being devoured;
what places to venture into, and what to escape." I waked with this thought, and
was under such inexpressible impressions of joy at the prospect of my escape in
my dream, that the disappointments which I felt upon coming to myself, and
finding it was no more than a dream, were equally extravagant the other way, and
threw me into a very great dejection of spirit.
Upon this, however, I made this conclusion, that my only way to go about an
attempt for an escape, was, if possible, to get a savage in my possession; and,
if possible, it should be one of their prisoners whom they had condemned to be
eaten, and should bring hither to kill: but these thoughts still were attended
with this difficulty, that it was impossible to effect this, without attacking a
whole caravan of them, and killing them all; and this was not only a very
desperate attempt, and might miscarry; but, on the other hand, I had greatly
scrupled the lawfulness of it to me, and my heart trembled at the thoughts of
shedding so much blood, though it was for my deliverance: I need not repeat the
arguments which occurred to me against this, they being the same mentioned
before: but though I had other reasons to offer now, viz. that those men were
enemies to my life, and would devour me, if they could; that it was
self-preservation, in the highest degree, to deliver myself from this death of a
life, and was acting in my own defence, as much as if they were actually
assaulting me, and the like; I say, though these things argued for it, yet the
thoughts of shedding human blood for my deliverance were very terrible to me,
and such as I could by no means reconcile myself to a great while.
However, at last, after many secret disputes with myself, and after great
perplexities about it, (for all these arguments, one way and another, struggled
in my head a long time,) the eager prevailing desire of deliverance at length
mastered all the rest, and I resolved, if possible, to get one of these savages
into my bands, cost what it would: the next thing then was to contrive how to do
it; and this indeed was very difficult to resolve on: but as I could pitch upon
no probable means for it, so I resolved to put myself upon the watch to see them
when they came on shore, and leave the rest to the event, taking such measures
as the opportunity should present, let it be what it would.
With these resolutions in my thoughts, I set myself upon the scout as often
as possible, and indeed so often, till I was heartily tired of it; for it was
above a year and a half that I waited, and for a great part of that time went
out to the west end, and to the south-west corner of the island, almost every
day, to see the canoes, but none appeared. This was very discouraging, and began
to trouble me much; though I can't say that it did in this case, as it had done
some time before that, viz. wear off the edge of my desire to the thing; but the
longer it seemed to be delayed, the more eager I was for it: in a word, I was
not at first more careful to shun the sight of these savages, and avoid being
seen by them, than I was now eager to be upon them.
Besides, I fancied myself able to manage one, nay, two or three savages, if I
had them, so as to make them entirely slaves to me, to do whatever I should
direct them, and to prevent their being able, at any time, to do me any hurt. It
was a great while that I pleased myself with this affair, but nothing still
presented; all my fancies and schemes came to nothing, for no savages came near
me for a great while.
About a year and a half after I had entertained these notions, and, by long
musing, had, as it were, resolved them all into nothing, for want of an occasion
to put them in execution, I was surprised one morning early, with seeing no less
than five canoes all on shore together, on my side the island, and the people
who belonged to them all landed, and out of my sight: the number of them broke
all my measures; for seeing so many, and knowing that they always came four, or
six, or sometimes more, in a boat, I could not tell what to think of it, or how
to take my measures, to attack twenty or thirty men single-handed; so I lay
still in my castle, perplexed and discomforted; however, I put myself into all
the same postures for an attack that I had formerly provided, and was just ready
for action, if any thing had presented. Having waited a good while, listening to
hear if they made any noise; at length being very impatient, I set my guns at
the foot of my ladder, and clambered up to the top of the hill by my two stages,
as usual, standing so, however, that my head did not appear above the hill, so
that they could not perceive me by any means. Here I observed, by the help of my
perspective glass, that they were no less than thirty in number; that they had a
fire kindled, and that they had had meat dressed; how they cooked it, that I
knew not, or what it was; but they were all dancing in I know not how many
barbarous gestures and figures, their own way, round the fire.
When I was thus looking on them, I perceived by my perspective two miserable
wretches dragged from the boats, where, it seems, they were laid by, and were
now brought out for the slaughter: I perceived one of them immediately fall,
being knocked down, I suppose, with a club or wooden sword, for that was their
way; and two or three others were at work immediately, cutting him open for
their cookery, while the other victim was left standing by himself, till they
should be ready for him. In that very moment this poor wretch, seeing himself a
little at liberty, nature inspired him with hopes of life, and he started away
from them, and ran with incredible swiftness along the sands, directly towards
me, I mean towards that part of the coast where my habitation was.
I was dreadfully frighted (that I must acknowledge) when I perceived him to
run my way; and especially when, as I thought, I saw him pursued by the whole
body; and now I expected that part of my dream was coming to pass, and that he
would certainly take shelter in my grove; but I could not depend, by any means,
upon my dream for the rest of it, viz. that the other savages would not pursue
him thither, and find him there. However, I kept my station, and my spirits
began to recover, when I found that there were not above three men that followed
him; and still more was I encouraged, when I found that he out-stript them
exceedingly in running, and gained ground of them, so that if he could but hold
it for half an hour, I saw easily he would fairly get away from them all.
There was between them and my castle the creek, which I mentioned often at
the first part of my story, when I landed my cargoes out of the ship; and this I
knew he must necessarily swim over, or the poor wretch would be taken there: but
when the savage escaping came thither, he made nothing of it, though the tide
was then up; but plunging in, swam through in about thirty strokes, or
thereabouts, landed, and ran on with exceeding strength and swiftness. When the
three pursuers came to the creek, I found that two of them could swim, but the
third could not, and that he, standing on the other side, looked at the other,
but went no farther; and soon after went softly back again, which, as it
happened, was very well for him in the main.
I observed, that the two who swam were yet more than twice as long swimming
over the creek than the fellow was that fled from them. It came now very warmly
upon my thoughts, and indeed irresistibly, that now was my time to get a
servant, and perhaps a companion, or assistant, and that I was called plainly by
Providence to save this poor creature's life. I immediately got down the ladders
with all possible expedition, fetched my two guns, for they were both at the
foot of the ladder, as I observed above; and getting up again with the same
haste to the top of the hill, I crossed towards the sea; and having a very short
cut, and all down hill, clapped myself in the way between the pursuers and the
pursued, hallooing aloud to him that fled, who, looking back, was at first
perhaps as much frighted at me as at them; but I beckoned with my hand to him to
come back; and in the meantime I slowly advanced towards the two that followed;
then rushing at once upon the foremost, I knocked him down with the stock of my
piece; I was loath to fire, because I would not have the rest hear, though at
that distance it would not have been easily heard; and being out of sigh of the
smoke too, they would not have easily known what to make of it. I having knocked
this fellow down, the other who pursued him stopped, as if he had been
frightened, and I advanced apace towards him; but as I came nearer, I perceived
presently he had a bow and arrow, and was fitting it to shoot at me; so I was
then necessitated to shoot at him first; which I did, and killed him at the
first shot. The poor savage who fled, but had stopped, though he saw both his
enemies fallen, and killed, (as he thought) yet was so frighted with the fire
and noise of my piece, that he stood stock-still, and neither came forward, nor
went backward, though he seemed rather inclined to fly still, than to come on. I
hallooed again to him, and made signs to come forward, which he easily
understood, and came a little way, then stopped again, and then a little
farther, and stopped again; and I could then perceive that he stood trembling,
as if he had been taken prisoner, and had just been to be killed, as his two
enemies were. I beckoned him again to come to me, and gave him all the signs of
encouragement that I could think of; and he came nearer and nearer, kneeling
down every ten or twelve steps, in token of acknowledgment for saving his life.
I smiled at him, and looked pleasantly, and beckoned to him to come still
nearer. At length he came close to me, and then he kneeled down again, kissed
the ground, and laid his head upon the ground, and taking me by the foot, set my
foot upon his head. This, it seems, was in token of swearing to be my slave for
ever. I took him up, and made much of him, and encouraged him all I could. But
there was more work to do yet; for I perceived the savage, whom I knocked down,
was not killed, but stunned with the blow, and began to come to himself: so I
pointed to him, and showed him the savage, that he was not dead: upon this he
spoke some words to me; and though I could not understand them, yet I thought
they were pleasant to hear, for they were the first sound of a man's voice that
I had heard, my own excepted, for above five-and-twenty years. But there was no
time for such reflections now: the savage, who was knocked down, recovered
himself so far as to sit up upon the ground; and I perceived that my savage
began to be afraid; but when I saw that, I presented my other piece at the man,
as if I would shoot him: upon this my savage, for so I call him now, made a
motion to me to lend him my sword, which hung naked in a belt by my side: so I
did: he no sooner had it, but he runs to his enemy, and at one blow cut off his
head so cleverly, no executioner in Germany could have done it sooner or better;
which I thought very strange for one, who, I had reason to believe, never saw a
sword in his life before, except their own wooden swords: however, it seems, as
I learnt afterwards, they make their wooden swords so sharp, so heavy, and the
wood is so hard, that they will cut off heads even with them, nay, and arms, and
that at one blow too. When he had done this, he comes laughing to me in sign of
triumph, and brought me the sword again, and, with abundance of gestures, which
I did not understand, laid it down, with the head of the savage that he had
killed, just before me.
But that which astonished him most was, to know how I had killed the other
Indian so far off; so pointing to him, he made signs to me to let him go to him:
so I bade him go, as well as I could. When he came to him, he stood like one
amazed, looking at him; turned him first on one side, then on t'other; looked at
the wound the bullet had made, which it seems was just in his breast, where it
had made a hole, and no great quantity of blood had followed; but he had bled
inwardly, for he was quite dead. Then he took up his bow and arrows, and came
back; so I turned to go away, and beckoned him to follow me, making signs to him
that more might come after them.
Upon this he signed to me, that he should bury them with sand, that they
might not he seen by the rest, if they followed; and so I made signs again to
him to do so. He fell to work, and in an instant he had scraped a hole in the
sand with his hands, big enough to bury the first in, and then dragged him into
it, and covered him, and did so also by the other; I believe he had buried them
both in a quarter of an hour: then calling him away, I carried him not to my
castle, but quite away to my cave, on the farther part of the island; so I did
not let my dream come to pass in that part; viz. that he came into my grove for
shelter.
Here I gave him bread and a bunch of raisins to eat, and a draught of water,
which I found he was indeed in great distress for, by his running; and having
refreshed him, I made signs for him to go lie down and sleep, pointing to a
place where I had laid a great parcel of rice-straw, and a blanket upon it,
which I used to sleep upon myself sometimes; so the poor creature lay down, and
went to sleep.
He was a comely handsome fellow, perfectly well made, with straight long
limbs, not too large, tall, and well-shaped, and, as I reckon, about twenty-six
years of age. He had a very good countenance, not a fierce and surly aspect, but
seemed to have something very manly in his face, and yet he had all the
sweetness and softness of an European in his countenance too, especially when he
smiled: his hair was long and black, not curled like wool; his forehead very
high and large, and a great vivacity and sparkling sharpness in his eyes. The
colour of his skin was not quite black, but very tawny, and yet not of an ugly
yellow nauseous tawny, as the Brasilians and Virginians, and other natives of
America are, but of a bright kind of a dun olive colour, that had in it
something very agreeable, though not very easy to describe. His face was round
and plump, his nose small, not flat like the Negroe's, a very good mouth, thin
lips, and his teeth fine, well-set, and white as ivory. After he had slumbered,
rather than slept, about half an hour, he waked again, and comes out of the cave
to me, for I had been milking my goats, which I had in the enclosure just by:
when he espied me, he came running to me, laying himself down again upon the
ground, with all the possible signs of an humble thankful disposition, making
many, antic gestures to shew it. At last he lays his head flat upon the ground,
close to my foot, and sets my other foot upon his head, as he had done before;
and after this, made all the signs to me of subjection, servitude, and
submission imaginable, to let me know how much he would serve me as long as he
lived. I understood him in many things, and let him know I was very well pleased
with him. In a little time I began to speak to him, and teach him to speak to
me; and first, I made him know his name should be Friday, which was the day I
saved his life; and I called him so for the memory of the time; I likewise
taught him to say Master, and then let him know that was to be my name; I
likewise taught him to say Yes and No, and to know the meaning of them. I gave
him some milk in an earthen pot, and let him see me drink it before him, and sop
my bread in it; and I gave him a cake of bread to do the like, which he quickly
complied with, and made signs that it was very good for him.
I kept there with him all that night; but as soon as it was day, I beckoned
him to come with me, and let him know I would give him some clothes; at which he
seemed very glad, for he was stark-naked. As we went by the place where he had
buried the two men, he pointed exactly to the spot, and shewed me the marks that
he had made to find them again, making signs to me that we should dig them up
again, and eat them: at this I appeared very angry, expressed my abhorrence of
it, made as if I would vomit at the thoughts of it, and beckoned with my hand to
him to come away, which he did immediately, with great submission. I then led
him up to the top of the hill, to see if his enemies were gone, and pulling out
my glass, I looked, and saw plainly the place where they had been, but no
appearance of them, or of their canoes; so that it was plain that they were
gone, and had left their two comrades behind them, without, any search after
them.
But I was not content with this discovery; but having now more courage, and
consequently more curiosity, I took my man Friday with me, giving him the sword
in his hand, with the bow and arrows at his back, which I found he could use
very dexterously, making him carry one gun for me, and I two for myself, and
away we marched to the place where these creatures had been; for I had a mind
now to get some further intelligence of them. When I came to the place, my very
blood ran chill in my veins, and my heart sunk within me at the horror of the
spectacle: indeed it was a dreadful sight, at least it was so to me, though
Friday made nothing of it: the place was covered with human bones, the ground
dyed with the blood, great pieces of flesh left here and there, half-eaten,
mangled, and scorched; and, in short, all the tokens of the triumphant feast
they had been making there, after a victory over their enemies. I saw three
skulls, five hands, and the bones of three or four legs and feet, and abundance
of other parts of the bodies; and Friday, by his signs, made me understand that
they brought over four prisoners to feast upon; that three of them were eaten
up, and that he, pointing to himself, was the fourth; that there had been a
great battle between them and their next king, whose subjects, it seems, he had
been one of; and that they had taken a great number of prisoners, all which were
carried to several places by those that had taken them in the flight, in order
to feast upon them, as was done here by these wretches upon those they brought
hither.
I caused Friday to gather all the skulls, bones, flesh, and whatever
remained, and lay them together on an heap, and make a great fire upon it, and
burn them all to ashes. I found Friday had still a hankering stomach after some
of the flesh, and was still a cannibal in his nature; but I discovered so much
abhorrence at the very thoughts of it, and at the least appearance of it, that
he durst not discover it; for I had, by some means, let him know that I would
kill him if he offered it.
When we had done this, we came back to our castle, and there I fell to work
for my man Friday; and first of all, I gave him a pair of linen drawers, which I
had out of the poor gunner's chest I mentioned, and which I found in the wreck;
and which, with a little alteration, fitted him very well; then I made him a
jerkin of goat's skin as well as my skill would allow, and I was now grown a
tolerable good tailor; and I gave him a cap, which I had made of a hare-skin,
very convenient, and fashionable enough: and thus he was dressed, for the
present, tolerably well, and mighty well was he pleased to see himself almost as
well clothed as his master. It is true, he went awkwardly in these things at
first; wearing the drawers was very awkward to him, and the sleeves of the
waistcoat galled his shoulders and the inside of his arms; but a little easing
them, where he complained they hurt him, and using himself to them, at length he
took to them very well.
The next day after I came home to my hutch with him, I began to consider
where I should lodge him; and that I might do well for him, and yet be perfectly
easy myself, I made a little tent for him in the vacant place between my two
fortifications, in the inside of the last, and in the outside of the first: and
as there was a door or entrance there into my cave, I made a formal framed
door-case, and a door to it of boards, and set it up in the passage, a little
within the entrance: and causing the door to open on the inside, I barred it up
in the night, taking in my ladders too; so that Friday could no way come at me
in the inside of my innermost wall, without making so much noise in getting
over, that it must needs awaken me; for my first wall had now a complete roof
over it of long poles, covering all my tent, and leaning up to the side of the
hill, which was again laid cross with small sticks instead of laths, and then
thatched over a great thickness with the rice straw, which was strong like
reeds; and at the hole or place which was left to go in or out by the ladder, I
had placed a kind of trapdoor, which if it had been attempted on the outside,
would not have opened at all, but would have fallen down, and made a great
noise; and as to weapons, I took them all in to my side every night.
But I needed none of all this precaution; for never man had a more faithful,
loving, sincere servant than Friday was to me; without passions, sullenness, or
designs; perfectly obliging and engaging; his very affections were tied to me,
like those of a child to a father; and I dare say, he would have sacrificed his
life for the saving mine, upon any occasion whatsoever: the many testimonies he
gave me of this put it out of doubt; and soon convinced me, that I needed to use
no precautions as to my safety on his account.
This frequently gave me occasion to observe, and that with wonder, that,
however it had pleased God in his providence, and in the government of the works
of his hands, to take from so great a part of the world of his creatures the
best uses to which their faculties, and the powers of their souls, are adapted;
yet that he has bestowed upon them the same powers, the same reason, the same
affections, the same sentiments of kindness and obligation, the same passions
and resentments of wrongs, the same sense of gratitude, sincerity, fidelity, and
all the capacities of doing good, and receiving good, that he has given to us;
and that when he pleases to offer them occasions of exerting these, they are as
ready, nay more ready, to apply them to the right uses for which they were
bestowed, than we are. And this made me very melancholy sometimes, in
reflecting, as the several occasions presented, how mean a use we make of all
these, even though we have these powers enlightened by the great lamp of
instruction, the Spirit of God, and by the knowledge of his word, added to our
understanding; and why it has pleased God to hide the life saving knowledge from
so many millions of souls, who, if I might judge by this poor savage, would make
a much better use of it than we did.
From hence I sometimes was led too far to invade the sovereignty of
Providence; and, as it were, arraign the justice of so arbitrary a disposition
of things, that should hide that light from some, and reveal it to others, and
yet expect a like duty from both: but I shut it up, and checked my thoughts with
this conclusion: first, that we do not know by what light and law these should
be condemned; but that as God was necessarily, and by the nature of his being,
infinitely holy and just, so it could not be, but that if these creatures were
all sentenced to absence from himself, it was on account of sinning against that
light, which, as the Scripture says, was a law to themselves, and by such rules
as their consciences would acknowledge to be just, though the foundation was not
discovered to us: and, secondly, that still, as we are all clay in the hand of
the potter, no vessel could say to him, "Why hast thou formed me thus?"
But to return to my new companion: I was greatly delighted with him, and made
it my business to teach him every thing that was proper to make him useful,
handy, and helpful; but especially to make him speak, and understand me when I
spake: and he was the aptest scholar that ever was; and particularly was so
merry, so constantly diligent, and so pleased when he could but understand me,
or make me understand him, that it was very pleasant to me to talk to him. And
now my life began to be so easy, that I began to say to myself, that could I but
have been safe from more savages, I cared not if I was never to remove from the
place while I lived.
After I had been two or three days returned to my castle, I thought, that, in
order to bring Friday off from his horrid way of feeding, and from the relish of
a cannibal's stomach, I ought to let him taste other flesh; so I took him out
with me one morning to the woods: I went, indeed, intending to kill a kid out of
my own flock, and bring it home and dress it: but as I was going, I saw a she
goat lying down in the shade, and two young kids sitting by her. I catched hold
of Friday: "Hold," said I, "stand still;" and made signs to him not to stir.
Immediately I presented my piece, shot and killed one of the kids. The poor
creature, who had, at a distance indeed, seen me kill the savage his enemy, but
did not know, or could imagine how it was done, was sensibly surprised, trembled
and shook, and looked so amazed, that I thought he would have sunk down: he did
not see the kid I had shot at, or perceive I had killed it, but ripped up his
waistcoat to feel if he was not wounded; and, as I found, presently thought I
was resolved to kill him: for he came and kneeled down to me, and, embracing my
knees, said a great many things I did not understand but I could easily see that
his meaning was to pray me not to kill him.
I soon found a way to convince him, that I would do him no harm; and taking
him up by the hand, laughed at him, and pointing to the kid which I had killed,
beckoned to him to run and fetch it, which he did: and while he was wondering
and looking to see how the creature was killed, I loaded my gun again, and by
and by I saw a great fowl, like a hawk, sit upon a tree within shot; so, to let
Friday understand a little what I would do, I called him to me again, pointing
at the fowl, which was indeed a parrot, though I thought it had been a hawk: I
say, pointing to the parrot, and to my gun, and to the ground under the parrot,
to let him see I would make him fall, I made him understand that I would shoot
and kill that bird; accordingly I fired, and bid him look, and immediately he
saw the parrot fall; he stood like one frighted again, notwithstanding all that
I had said to him; and I found he was the more amazed, because he did not see me
put any thing into the gun; but thought there must be some wonderful fund of
death and destruction in that thing, able to kill man, beast, bird, or any thing
near or far off; for the astonishment this created in him was such, as could not
wear off for a long time; and I believe, if I would have let him, he would have
worshipped me and my gun; as for the gun itself, he would not so much as touch
it for several days over; but would speak to it, and talk to it, as if it had
answered him, when he was by himself; which, as I afterwards learnt of him, was
to desire it not to kill him.
Well; after his astonishment was a little over at this, I pointed to him to
run and fetch the bird I had shot, which he did, but staid some time; for the
parrot, not being quite dead, had fluttered a good way off from the place where
she fell; however, he found her, took her up, and brought her to me; and, as I
had perceived his ignorance about the gun before, I took this advantage to
charge the gun again, and not let him see me do it, that I might he ready for
any other mark that might present; but nothing more offered at that time; so I
brought home the kid; and the same evening I took the skin off, and cut it out
as well as I could, and having a pot for that purpose, I boiled or stewed some
of the flesh, and made some very good broth; after I had begun to eat some, I
gave some to my man, who seemed very glad of it, and liked it very well; but
that which was strangest to him, was, to see me eat salt with it. He made a sign
to me that the salt was not good to eat; and putting a little into his own
month, he seemed to nauseate it, and would spit and sputter at it, washing his
mouth with fresh water after it. On the other hand, I took some meat in my mouth
without salt, and I pretended to spit and sputter for want of salt, as fast as
he had done at the salt; but it would not do, he would never care for salt with
meat, or in his broth; at least, not a great while, and then but a very little.
Having thus fed him with boiled meat and broth, I was resolved to feast him
the next day with roasting a piece of the kid: this I did by hanging it before
the fire in a string, as I had seen many people do in England, setting two poles
up, one on each side the fire, and one cross on the top, and tying the string to
the cross stick, letting the meat turn continually: this Friday admired very
much; but when he came to taste the flesh, he took so many ways to tell me how
well he liked it, that I could not but understand him; and at last he told me he
would never eat man's flesh any more, which I was very glad to hear.
The next day I set him to work to beating some corn out, and sifting it in
the manner I used to do, as I observed before; and he soon understood how to do
it as well as I, especially after he had seen what the meaning of it was, and
that it was to make bread of; for after that I let him see me make my bread, and
bake it too; and in a little time Friday was able to do all the work for me, as
well as I could do it myself.
I began now to consider, that, having two mouths to feed instead of one, I
must provide more ground for my harvest, and plant a larger quantity of corn,
than I used to do; so I marked out a larger piece of land, and began the fence
in the same manner as before, in which Friday not only worked very willingly and
very hard, but did it very cheerfully; and I told him what it was for, that it
was for corn to make more bread, because he was now with me, and that I might
have enough for him and myself too: he appeared very sensible of that part, and
let me know, that he thought I had much more labour upon me on his account, than
I had for myself, and that he would work the harder for me, if I would tell him
what to do.
This was the pleasantest year of all the life I led in this place. Friday
began to talk pretty well, and understand the names of almost every thing I had
occasion to call for, and of every place I had to send him to, and talk a great
deal to me; so that, in short, I began now to have some use for my tongue again,
which indeed I had very little occasion for before; that is to say, about
speech. Besides the pleasure of talking to him, I had a singular satisfaction in
the fellow himself; his simple unfeigned honesty appeared to me more and more
every day, and I began really to love the creature; and on his side, I believe,
he loved me more than it was possible for him ever to love any thing before.
I had a mind once to try if he had any hankering inclination to his own
country again; and having learnt him English so well, that he could answer me
almost any questions, I asked him, whether the nation that he belonged to never
conquered in battle? At which he smiled, and said, "Yes, yes, we always fight
the better;" that is, he meant, always get the better in fight; and so we began
the following discourse. "You always fight the better!" said I: "how came you to
be taken prisoner then, Friday?"
_Friday._ My nation beat much for all that.
_Master_. How beat? if your nation beat them, how came you to be taken?
_Friday_. They more than my nation in the place where me was; they take one,
two, three, and me: my nation over-beat them in the yonder place, where me no
was; there my nation take one two great thousand.
_Master_. But why did not your side recover you from the hands of your
enemies then?
_Friday_. They run one, two, three, and me, and make go in the canoe; my
nation have no canoe that time.
_Master_. Well, Friday, and what does your nation do with the men they take?
Do they carry them away, and eat them as these did?
_Friday._ Yes, my nation eat mans too, eat all up.
_Master_. Where do they carry them?
_Friday_. Go to other place where they think.
_Master_. Do they come hither?
_Friday_. Yes, yes, they come hither; come other else place.
_Master_. Have you been here with them?
_Friday_. Yes, I been here [points to the N.W. side of the island, which, it
seems, was their side.]
By this I understood, that my man Friday had formerly been among the savages,
who used to come on shore on the farther part of the island, on the said man
eating occasions that he was now brought for; and some time after, when I took
the courage to carry him to that side, being the same I formerly mentioned, he
presently knew the place, and told me, he was there once when they ate up twenty
men, two women, and one child: he could not tell twenty in English, but he
numbered them by laying so many stones in a row, and pointing to me to tell them
over.
I have told this passage, because it introduces what follows; that after I
had had this discourse with him, I asked him, how far it was from our island to
the shore, and whether the canoes were not often lost? He told me there was no
danger, no canoes ever lost; but that after a little way out to sea, there was a
current, and a wind always one way in the morning, the other in the afternoon.
This I understand to be no more than the sets of the tide, as going out, or
coming in; but I afterwards understood it was occasioned by the great draught
and reflux of the mighty river Oroonoque; in the mouth of which river, as I
thought afterwards, our island lay; and that this land, which I perceived to the
W. and N.W. was the great island Trinidad, on the north point of the mouth of
the river. I asked Friday a thousand questions about the country, the
inhabitants, the sea, the coast, and what nations were near: he told me all he
knew with the greatest openness imaginable. I asked him the names of the several
nations of his sort of people, but could get no other name than Caribs; from
whence I easily understood, that these were the Caribees, which our maps place
on that part of America which reaches from the mouth of the river Oroonoque to
Guinea, and onwards to St. Martha. He told me, that up a great way beyond the
moon, that was, beyond the setting of the moon, which must be W. from their
country, there dwelt white-bearded men, like me, and pointed to my great
whiskers, which I mentioned before; and that they had killed much mans, that was
his word: by which I understood he meant the Spaniards, whose cruelties in
America had been spread over the whole countries, and were remembered by all the
nations from father to son.
I inquired if he could tell me how I might come from this island, and get
among those white men; he told me, Yes, yes, I might go in two canoe; I could
not understand what he meant by two canoe; till at last, with great difficulty,
I found he meant, that it must be in a large great boat as big as two canoes.
This part of Friday's discourse began to relish with me very well; and from
this time I entertained some hopes, that one time or other I might find an
opportunity to make my escape from this place, and that this poor savage might
be a means to help me to do it.
During the long time that Friday had now been with me, and that he began to
speak to me, and understand me, I was not wanting to lay a foundation of
religious knowledge in his mind; particularly I asked him one time, Who made
him? The poor creature did not understand me at all, but thought I had asked who
was his father: but I took it by another handle, and asked him, Who made the
sea, the ground he walked on, and the hills and woods? He told me, it was one
old Benamuckee that lived beyond all: he could describe nothing of this great
person, but that he was very old; much older, he said, than the sea or the land,
than the moon or the stars. I asked him then, if this old person had made all
things, why did not all things worship him? He looked very grave, and with a
perfect look of innocence said, All things said O! to him. I asked him, if the
people who die in his country, went away any where? He said, Yes, they all went
to Benamuckee. Then I asked him, whether those they ate up, went thither too? he
said, Yes.
From these things I began to instruct him in the knowledge of the true God. I
told him, that the great Maker of all things lived there, pointing up towards
heaven; that he governs the world by the same power and providence by which he
made it; that he was omnipotent, could do every thing for us, give every thing
to us, take every thing from us: and thus, by degrees, I opened his eyes. He
listened with great attention, and received with pleasure the notion of Jesus
Christ being sent to redeem us, and of the manner of making our prayers to God,
and his being able to hear us, even into heaven: he told me one day, that if our
God could hear us up beyond the sun, he must needs be a greater God than their
Benamuckee, who lived but a little way off, and yet could not hear, till they
went up to the great mountains, where he dwelt, to speak to him. I asked him, if
ever he went thither to speak to him? He said, No, they never went that were
young men; none went thither but the old men; whom he called their Oowookakee,
that is, as I made him explain it to me, their religious, or clergy; and that
they went to say O! (so he called saying prayers,) and then came back, and told
them what Benamuckee said. By this I observed, that there is priestcraft even
amongst the most blinded ignorant Pagans in the world; and the policy of making
a secret religion, in order to preserve the veneration of the people to the
clergy, is not only to be found in the Roman, but perhaps among all religious in
the world, even among the most brutish and barbarous savages.
I endeavoured to clear up this fraud to my man Friday; and told him, that the
pretence of their old men going up to the mountains to say O! to their god
Benamuckee, was a cheat; and their bringing word from thence what he said, was
much more so; that if they met with any answer, or spoke with any one there, it
must be with an evil spirit: and then I entered into a long discourse with him
about the devil, the original of him, his rebellion against God, his enmity to
man, the reason of it, his setting himself up in the dark parts of the world to
be worshipped instead of God, and as God, and the many stratagems he made use
of, to delude mankind to their ruin; how he had a secret access to our passions
and to our affections, to adapt his snares so to our inclinations, as to cause
us even to be our own tempters, and to run upon our own destruction by our own
choice.
I found it was not so easy to imprint right notions in his mind about the
devil, as it was about the being of a God: nature assisted all my arguments to
evidence to him even the necessity of a great First Cause, and over-ruling
governing Power, a secret directing Providence, and of the equity and justice of
paying homage to Him that made us, and the like: but there appeared nothing of
all this in the notion of an evil spirit, of his original, his being, his
nature, and, above all, of his inclination to do evil, and to draw us in to do
so too: and the poor creature puzzled me once in such a manner, by a question
merely natural and innocent, that I scarce knew what to say to him. I had been
talking a great deal to him of the power of God, his omnipotence, his dreadful
aversion to sin, his being a consuming fire to the workers of iniquity; how, as
he had made as all, he could destroy us, and all the world, in a moment; and he
listened with great seriousness to me all the while.
After this, I had been telling; him how the devil was God's enemy in the
hearts of men, and used all his malice and skill to defeat the good designs of
Providence, and to ruin the kingdom of Christ in the world, and the like:
"Well," says Friday, "but you say God is so strong, so great, is he not much
strong, much might, as the devil?"--"Yes, yes," said I, Friday, "God is stronger
than the devil, God is above the devil, and therefore we pray to God to tread
him under our feet, and enable us to resist his temptations, and quench his
fiery darts."--"But," says he again, "if God much strong, much might, as the
devil, why God not kill the devil, so make him no more wicked?"
I was strangely surprised at his question; and after all, though I was now an
old man, yet I was but a young doctor, and ill enough qualified for a casuist,
or a solver of difficulties: and, at first, I could not tell what to say; so I
pretended not to hear him, and asked him what he said; but he was too earnest
for an answer to forget his question; so that he repeated it in the very same
broken words, as above. By this time I had recovered myself a little, and I
said, "God will at last punish him severely; he is reserved for the judgment,
and is to be cast into the bottomless pit, to dwell with everlasting fire." This
did not satisfy Friday; but he returns upon me, repeating my words, "Reserve at
last! me no understand: but why not kill the devil now, not kill great
ago?"--"You may as well ask me," said I, "why God does not kill you and me, when
we do wicked things here that offend him: we are preserved to repent and be
pardoned." He muses awhile at this; "Well, well," says he, mighty
affectionately, "that well; so you I, devil, all wicked, all preserve, repent,
God pardon all." Here I was run down again by him to the last degree, and it was
a testimony to me, how the mere notions of nature, though they will guide
reasonable creatures to the knowledge of a God, and of a worship or homage due
to the supreme being of God, as the consequence of our nature; yet nothing but
divine revelation can form the knowledge of Jesus Christ, and of a redemption
purchased for us; of a Mediator; of a new covenant; and of an Intercessor at the
footstool of God's throne; I say, nothing but a revelation from Heaven can form
these in the soul; and that therefore the Gospel of our Lord and Saviour Jesus
Christ, I mean the word of God, and the Spirit of God, promised for the guide
and sanctifier of his people, are the absolutely necessary instructors of the
souls of men in the saving knowledge of God, and the means of salvation.
I therefore diverted the present discourse between me and my man, rising up
hastily, as upon some sudden occasion of going out; then sending him for some
thing a great way off, I seriously prayed to God, that he would enable me to
instruct savingly this poor savage, assisting, by his Spirit, the heart of the
poor ignorant creature to receive the light of the knowledge of God in Christ,
reconciling him to himself, and would guide me to speak so to him from the word
of God, as his conscience might be convinced, his eyes opened, and his soul
saved. When he came again to me, I entered into a long discourse with him upon
the subject of the redemption of man by the Saviour of the world, and of the
doctrine of the Gospel preached from Heaven, viz. of the repentance towards God,
and faith in our blessed Lord Jesus: I then explained to him, as well as I
could, why our blessed Redeemer took not on him the nature of angels, but the
seed of Abraham, and how, for that reason, the fallen angels had no share in the
redemption; that he came only to the lost sheep of the house of Israel, and the
like.
I had, God knows, more sincerity than knowledge, in all the methods I took
for this poor creature's instruction; and must acknowledge, what I believe all
that act upon the same principle will find, that in laying things open to him, I
really informed and instructed myself in many things that either I did not know,
or had not fully considered before; but which occurred naturally to my mind,
upon my searching into them for the information of this poor savage; and I had
more affection in my inquiry after things upon this occasion, than ever I felt
before; so that whether this poor wild wretch was the better for me or no, I had
great reason to be thankful that ever he came to me: my grief sat lighter upon
me, my habitation grew comfortable to me beyond measure; and when I reflected,
that in this solitary life, which I had been confined to, I had not only been
moved myself to look up to Heaven, and to seek to the Hand that brought me
thither, but was now to be made an instrument, under Providence, to save the
life, and for aught I knew the soul, of a poor savage, and bring him to the true
knowledge of religion, and of the Christian doctrine, that he might know Christ
Jesus, to know whom is life eternal; I say, when I reflected upon all these
things, a secret joy ran through every part of my soul, and I frequently
rejoiced that ever I was brought to this place, which I had often thought the
most dreadful of all afflictions that could possibly have befallen me.
In this thankful frame I continued all the remainder of my time; and the
conversation which employed the hours between Friday and me was such, as made
the three years which we lived there together perfectly and completely happy, if
any such thing as complete happiness can be found in a sublunary state. The
savage was now a good Christian, a much better than I; though I have reason to
hope, and bless God for it, that we were equally penitent, and comforted
restored penitents: we had here the Word of God to read, and no farther off from
his Spirit to instruct than if we had been in England.
I always applied myself to reading the Scripture, and to let him know as well
as I could the meaning of what I read; and he again, by his serious inquiries
and questions, made me, as I said before, a much better scholar in the Scripture
knowledge, than I should ever have been by my own private reading. Another thing
I cannot refrain from observing here, also from experience, in this retired part
of my life; viz. how infinite and inexpressible a blessing it is, that the
knowledge of God, and of the doctrine of salvation by Christ Jesus, is so
plainly laid down in the Word of God, so easy to be received and understood,
that as the bare reading the Scripture made me capable of understanding enough
of my duty to carry me directly on to the great work of sincere repentance for
my sins, and laying hold of a Saviour for life and salvation, to a stated
reformation in practice, and obedience to all God's commands, and this without
any teacher or instructor (I mean, human;) so the plain instruction sufficiently
served to the enlightening this savage creature, and bringing him to be such a
Christian, as I have known few equal to him in my life.
As to the disputes, wranglings, strife, and contention, which has happened in
the world about religion, whether niceties in doctrines, or schemes of
church-government, they were all perfectly useless to us, as, for aught I can
yet see, they have been to all the rest in the world: we had the sure guide to
heaven, viz. the Word of God; and we had, blessed be God! comfortable views of
the Spirit of God, teaching and instructing us by his Word, leading us into all
truth, and making us both willing and obedient to His instruction of his Word;
and I cannot see the least use that the greatest knowledge of the disputed
points in religion, which have made such confusions in the world, would have
been to us, if we could have obtained it. But I must go on with the historical
part of things, and take every part in its order.
After Friday and I became more intimately acquainted, and that he could
understand almost all I said to him, and speak fluently, though in broken
English, to me, I acquainted him with my own story, or at least so much of it as
related to my coming into the place, how I had lived there, and how long: I let
him into the mystery (for such it was to him) of gunpowder and bullets, and
taught him how to shoot: I gave him a knife, which he was wonderfully delighted
with; and I made him a belt with a frog hanging to it, such as in England we
wear hangers in; and in the frog, instead of a hanger, I gave him a hatchet,
which was not only as good a weapon in some cases, but much more useful upon
many occasions.
I described to him the countries of Europe, and particularly England, which I
came from; how we lived, how we worshipped God, how we behaved to one another,
and how we traded in ships to all the parts of the world. I gave him an account
of the wreck which I had been on board of, and shewed him as near as I could,
the place where she lay; but she was all beaten in pieces long before, and quite
gone.
I shewed him the ruins of our boat, which we lost when we escaped, and which
I could not stir with my whole strength then, but was now fallen almost all to
pieces. Upon seeing this boat, Friday stood musing a great while, and said
nothing; I asked him what it was he studied upon? At last, says he, "Me see such
boat like come to place at my nation."
I did not understand him a good while; but at last, when I had examined
further into it, I understood by him, that a boat, such as that had been, came
on shore upon the country where he lived; that is, as he explained it, was
driven thither by stress of weather. I presently imagined, that some European
ship must have been cast away upon their coast, and the boat might get loose,
and drive ashore; but was so dull, that I never once thought of men making
escape from a wreck thither, much less whence they might come; so I only
inquired after a description of the boat.
Friday described the boat to me well enough; but brought me better to
understand him, when he added, with some warmth, "We save the white mans from
drown." Then I presently asked him, if there, were white mans, as he called
them, in the boat? "Yes," he said, "the boat full of while mans." I asked him,
how many! he told upon his fingers seventeen. I asked him then, what became of
them? he told me, "They live, they dwell at my nation."
This put new thoughts into my head again; for I presently imagined, that
these might be the men belonging to the ship that was cast away in sight of my
island, as I now call it; and who, after the ship was struck on the rock, and
they saw her inevitably lost, had saved themselves in their boat, and were
landed upon that wild shore among the savages.
Upon this I inquired of him more critically, what was become of them? He
assured me they lived still there, that they had been there about four years,
that the savages let them alone, and gave them victuals to live. I asked him,
how it came to pass they did not kill them, and eat them? He said, "No, they
make brother with them:" that is, as I understood him, a truce: and then he
added, "They eat no mans but when make the war fight:" that is to say, they
never eat any men, but such as come to fight with them, and are taken in battle.
It was after this, some considerable time, that being on the top of the hill,
at the east side of the island, from whence, as I have said, I had in a clear
day discovered the main or continent of America; Friday, the weather being very
serene, looks very earnestly towards the main land, and in a kind of surprise
falls a-jumping and dancing, and calls out to me, for I was at some distance
from him: I asked him what was the matter? "O joy!" says he, "O glad! there see
my country, there my nation!"
I observed an extraordinary sense of pleasure appeared in his face, and his
eyes sparkled, and his countenance discovered a strange eagerness, as if he had
a mind to be in his own country again; and this observation of mine put a great
many thoughts into me; which made me at first not so easy about my new man
Friday as I was before; and I made no doubt, but that if Friday could get back
to his own nation again, he would not only forget all his religion, but all his
obligations to me; and would be forward enough to give his countrymen an account
of me, and come back, perhaps, with an hundred or two of them, and make a feast
upon me, at which he might be as merry as he used to be with those of his
enemies, when they were taken in war.
But I wronged the poor honest creature very much, for which I was very sorry
afterwards: however, as my jealousy increased, and held me some weeks, I was a
little more circumspect, and not so familiar and kind to him as before; in which
I was certainly in the wrong too, the honest grateful creature having no thought
about it, but what consisted of the best principles, both as a religious
Christian and as a grateful friend, as appeared afterwards to my full
satisfaction.
Whilst my jealousy of him lasted, you may be sure I was every day pumping
him, to see if he would discover any of the new thoughts which I suspected were
in him; but I found every thing he said was so honest and so innocent, that I
could find nothing to nourish my suspicion; and, in spite of all my uneasiness,
he made me at last entirely his own again; nor did he in the least perceive that
I was uneasy; and therefore I could not suspect him of deceit.
One day, walking up the same hill, but the weather being hazy at sea, so that
we could not see the continent, I called to him, and said, "Friday, do not you
wish yourself in your own country, your own nation"--"Yes," he said, "I be much
O glad to be at my own nation."--"What would you do there?" said I: "would you
turn wild again, eat men's flesh again, and be a savage as you were before?" He
looked full of concern, and shaking his head, said, "No, no, Friday tell them to
live good; tell them to pray God; tell them to eat corn-bread, cattle-flesh,
milk, no eat man again."--"Why, then," said I to him, "they will kill you." He
looked grave at that, and then said, "No, they no kill me, they willing love
learn:" he meant by this, they would be willing to learn. He added, they learnt
much of the bearded mans that came in the boat. Then I asked him, if he would go
back to them? He smiled at that, and told me he could not swim so far. I told
him I would make a canoe for him. He told me he would go, if I would so with
him. "I go!" said I, "why, they will eat me if I come there."--"No, no," says
he, "me make them no eat you, me make they much love you:" he meant he would
tell them how I had killed his enemies and saved his life, and so he would make
them love me. Then he told me, as well as he could, how kind they were to
seventeen white men, or bearded men, as he called them, who came on shore in
distress.
From this time, I confess, I had a mind to venture over, and see if I could
possibly join with these bearded men, who, I made no doubt, were Spaniards or
Portuguese; not doubting but, if I could, we might find some method to escape
from thence, being upon the continent, and a good company together, better than
I could from an island forty miles off the shore, and alone without help. So,
after some days, I took Friday to work again, by way of discourse; and told him,
I would give him a boat to go back to his own nation; and accordingly I carried
him to my frigate, which lay on the other side of the island; and having cleared
it of water (for I always kept it sunk in the water), I brought it out, shewed
it him, and we both went into it.
I found he was a most dexterous fellow at managing it, would make it go
almost as swift and fast again as I could; so when he was in, I said to him,
"Well, now, Friday, shall we go to your nation?" He looked very dull at my
saying so, which, it seems, was because he thought the boat too small to go so
far. I told him then I had a bigger; so the next day I went to the place where
the first boat lay which I had made, but which I could not get into the water;
he said that was big enough; but then, as I had taken no care of it, and it had
lain two or three and twenty years there, the sun had split and dried it, that
it was in a manner rotten. Friday told me, such a boat would do very well, and
would carry "much enough vittle, drink, bread:" that was his way of talking.
Upon the whole, I was by this time so fixed upon my design of going over with
him to the continent, that I told him we would go and make one as big as that,
and he should go home in it. He answered not one word, but looked very, grave
and sad. I asked him, what was the matter with him? He asked me again thus, "Why
you angry mad with Friday? what me done?" I asked him, what he meant? I told him
I was not angry with him at all: "No angry! no angry!" says he, repeating the
words several times, "why send Friday home away to my nation?"--"Why," said I,
"Friday, did you not say you wished you were there?"--"Yes, yes," says he, "wish
be both there; no wish Friday there, no master there." In a word, he would not
think of going there without me. "I go there, Friday!" said I; "what should I do
there?" He turned very quick upon me at this; "You do great deal much good,"
says he; "you teach wild mans be good, sober, tame mans; you tell them know God,
pray God, and live new life."--"Alas, Friday," said I, "thou knowest not what
thou sayest; I am but an ignorant man myself."--"Yes, yes," says he, "you
teechee me good, you teechee them good."--"No, no, Friday," said I, "you shall
go without me; leave me here to live by myself, as I did before." He looked
confused again at that word, and running to one of the hatchets which he used to
wear, he takes it up hastily, and gives it me. "What must I do with this?" said
I to him. "You take kill Friday," says he. "What must I kill you for?" said I
again, He returns very quick, "What you send Friday away for? Take kill Friday,
no send Friday away." This he spoke so earnestly, that I saw tears stand in his
eyes. In a word, I so plainly discovered the utmost affection in him to me, and
a firm resolution in him, that I told him then, and often after, that I would
never send him away from me, if he was willing to stay with me.
Upon the whole, as I found by all his discourse a settled affection to me,
and that nothing should part him from me, so I found all the foundation of his
desire to go to his own country was laid in his ardent affection to the people,
and his hopes of my doing them good; a thing, which as I had no notion of
myself, so I had not the least thought, or intention, or desire of undertaking
it. But still I found a strong inclination to my attempting an escape, as above,
founded on the supposition gathered from the former discourse; viz. that there
were seventeen bearded men there; and therefore, without any delay, I went to
work with Friday, to find out a great tree proper to fell, and make a large
periagua or canoe, to under take the voyage: there were trees enough in the
island to have built a little fleet, not of periaguas and canoes only, but even
of good large vessels: but the main thing I looked at, was to get one so near
the water, that we might launch it when it was made, to avoid the mistake I
committed at first.
At last Friday pitched upon a tree; for I found he knew much better than I
what kind of wood was fittest for it; nor can I tell to this day what wood to
call the tree we cut down, except that it was very like the tree we call
tustick, or between that and the Nicaragua wood, for it was much of the same
colour and smell. Friday was for burning the hollow or cavity of this tree out,
to make it into a boat: but I shewed him how rather to cut it out with tools,
which after I shewed him how to use, he did very handily; and in about a month's
hard labour we finished it, and made it very handsome, especially, when, with
our axes, which I shewed him how to handle, we cut and hewed the outside into
the true shape of a boat; after this, however, it cost us near a fortnight's
time to get her along, as it were inch by inch, upon great rollers, into the
water: but when she was in, she would have carried twenty men with great ease.
When she was in the water, and though she was so big, it amazed me to see
with what dexterity and how swift my man Friday could manage her, turn her, and
paddle her along; so I asked him if he would, and if we might venture over in
her? "Yes," he said, "he venture over in her very well, though great blow wind."
However, I had a farther design that he knew nothing of, and that was, to make a
mast and sail, and to fit her with an anchor and cable. As to a mast, that was
easy enough to get; so I pitched upon a straight young cedar-tree, which I found
near the place, and which there was a great plenty of in the island; and I set
Friday to work to cut it down, and gave him directions how to shape and order
it: but as to the sail, that was my particular care; I knew I had old sails, or
rather pieces of old sails enough; but as I had had them now twenty-six years by
me, and had not been very careful to preserve them, not imagining that I should
ever have this kind of use for them, I did not doubt but they were all rotten;
and indeed most of them were so; however, I found two pieces which appeared
pretty good, and with these I went to work, and with a great deal of pains, and
awkward tedious stitching (you may be sure) for want of needles, I at length
made a three-cornered ugly thing, like what we call in England a
shoulder-of-mutton sail, to go with a boom at bottom, and a little short sprit
at the top, such as usually our ships' long-boats sail with, and such as I best
knew how to manage; because it was such a one as I used in the boat in which I
made my escape from Barbary, as related in the first part of my story.
I was near two months performing this last work, viz. rigging and fitting my
mast and sails; for I finished them very complete, making a small stay, and a
sail or foresail to it, to assist, if we should turn to windward; and, which was
more than all, I fixed a rudder to the stern of her, to steer with; and though I
was but a bungling shipwright, yet as I knew the usefulness, and even necessity
of such a thing, I applied myself with so much pains to do it, that at last I
brought it to pass, though, considering the many dull contrivances I had for it
that failed, I think it cost me almost as much labour as making the boat.
After all this was done, I had my man Friday to teach as to what belonged to
the navigation of my boat; for though he knew very well how to paddle the canoe,
he knew nothing what belonged to a sail and a rudder, and was the more amazed
when he saw me work the boat to and again in the sea by the rudder, and how the
sail gibed, and filled this way or that way, as the course we sailed changed; I
say, when he saw this, he stood like one astonished and amazed: however, with a
little use, I made all these things familiar to him, and he became an expert
sailor, except that as to the compass I could make him understand very little of
that: on the other hand, as there was very little cloudy weather, and seldom or
never any fogs in those parts, there was the less occasion for a compass, seeing
the stars were always to be seen by night, and the shore by day, except in the
rainy seasons; and then nobody cared to stir abroad, either by land or sea.
I was now entered on the seven-and-twentieth year of my captivity in this
place; though the three last years that I had this creature with me, ought
rather to be left out of the account, my habitation being quite of another kind
than in all the rest of my time. I kept the anniversary of my landing here with
the same thankfulness to God for his mercies as at first; and if I had such
cause of acknowledgment at first, I had much more so now, having such additional
testimonies of the care of Providence over me, and the great hopes I had of
being effectually and speedily delivered; for I had an invincible impression
upon my thoughts, that my deliverance was at hand, and that I should not be
another year in this place. However, I went on with my husbandry, digging,
planting, and fencing, as usual; I gathered and cured my grapes, and did every
necessary thing, as before.
The rainy season was in the mean time upon me, when I kept more within doors
than at other times; so I had stowed our now vessel as secure as we could,
bringing her up into the creek, where, as I said in the beginning, I landed my
rafts from the ship; and haling her up to the shore, at high water mark, I made
my man Friday dig a little dock, just big enough for her to float in; and then,
when the tide was out, we made a strong dam cross the end of it, to keep the
water out; and so she lay dry, as to the tide, from the sea; and to keep the
rain off, we laid a great many boughs of trees so thick, that she was as well
thatched as a house; and thus we waited for the months of November and December,
in which I designed to make my adventure.
When the settled season began to come in, as the thought of my design
returned with the fair weather, I was preparing daily for the voyage; and the
first thing I did was to lay up a certain quantity of provision, being the store
for the voyage; and intended, in a week or a fortnight's time, to open the dock,
and launch out our boat. I was busy one morning upon something of this kind,
when I called to Friday, and bid him go to the sea-shore, and see if he could
find a turtle or tortoise, a thing which we generally got once a week, for the
sake of the eggs, as well as the flesh. Friday had not been long gone, when he
came running back, and flew over my outward wall, or fence, like one that felt
not the ground, or the steps he set his feet on; and before I had time to speak
to him, he cried out to me, "O master! O master! O sorrow! O bad!"--"What's the
matter, Friday?" said I. "O yonder there," says he, "one, two, three, canoe!
one, two, three!" By this way of speaking I concluded there were six; but on
inquiry I found there were but three. "Well, Friday," said I, "do not be
frighted;" so I heartened him up as well as I could. However, I saw the poor
fellow most terribly scared; for nothing ran in his head, but that they were
come to look for him, and would cut him in pieces, and eat him; the poor fellow
trembled so, that I scarce knew what to do with him; I comforted him as well as
I could, and told him I was in as much danger as he, and that they would eat me
as well as him. "But," said I, "Friday, we must resolve to fight them: can you
fight, Friday?" "Me shoot," says he, "but there come many great number." "No
matter for that," said I again; "our guns will fright them that we do not kill."
So I asked him, whether, if I resolved to defend him, he would defend me, and
stand by me, and do just as I bade him? He said, "Me die, when you bid die,
master;" so I went and fetched a good dram of rum, and gave him; for I had been
so good a husband of my rum, that I had a great deal left. When he had drank it,
I made him take the two fowling-pieces which we always carried, and load them
with large swan-shot as big as small pistol bullets; then I took four muskets,
and loaded them with two slugs and five small bullets each; and my two pistols I
loaded with a brace of bullets each: I hung my great sword, as usual, naked by
my side, and gave Friday his hatchet.
When I had thus prepared myself, I took my perspective-glass, and went up to
the side of the hill, to see what I could discover; and I found quickly, by my
glass, that there were one and twenty savages, three prisoners, and three
canoes; and that their whole business seemed to be the triumphant banquet upon
these three human bodies; a barbarous feast indeed, but nothing more than as I
had observed was usual with them.
I observed also, that they were landed, not where they had done when Friday
made his escape, but nearer to my creek, where the shore was low, and where a
thick wood came close almost down to the sea: this, with the abhorrence of the
inhuman errand these wretches came about, so filled me with indignation, that I
came down again to Friday, and told him, I was resolved to go down to them, and
kill them all; and asked him if he would stand by me. He was now gotten over his
fright, and his spirits being a little raised with the dram I had given him, he
was very cheerful; and told me, as before, he would die when I bid die.
In this fit of fury, I took first and divided the arms which I had charged,
as before, between us: I gave Friday one pistol to stick in his girdle, and
three guns upon his shoulder; and I took one pistol, and the other three,
myself; and in this posture we marched out. I took a small bottle of rum in my
pocket, and gave Friday a large bag with more powder and bullet; and as to
orders, I charged him to keep close behind me, and not to stir, shoot, or do any
thing till I bid him; and in the mean time, not to speak a word. In this posture
I fetched a compass to my right hand of near a mile, as well to get over the
creek as to get into the wood; so that I might come within shot of them before I
could be discovered, which I had seen by my glass it was easy to do.
While I was making this march, my former thoughts returning, I began to abate
my resolution; I do not mean, that I entertained any fear of their number; for
as they were naked, unarmed wretches, it is certain I was superior to them; nay,
though I had been alone: but it occurred to my thoughts, what call, what
occasion, much less what necessity, I was in to go and dip my hands in blood, to
attack people who had neither done or intended me any wrong, who, as to me, were
innocent, and whose barbarous customs were their own disaster, being in them a
token indeed of God's having left them, with the other nations of that part of
the world, to such stupidity and to such inhuman courses; but did not call me to
take upon me to be a judge of their actions, much less an executioner of his
justice; that whenever he thought fit, he would take the cause into his own
hands, and by national vengeance punish them for national crimes; but that in
the mean time, it was none of my business; that it was true, Friday might
justify it, because he was a declared enemy, and in a state of war with those
very particular people, and it was lawful for him to attack them; but I could
not say the same with respect to me. These things were so warmly pressed upon my
thoughts all the way as I went, that I resolved I would only go place myself
near them, that I might observe their barbarous feast, and that I would act then
as God should direct; but that unless something offered that was more a call to
me than yet I knew of, I would not meddle with them.
With this resolution I entered the wood, and with all possible wariness and
silence (Friday following close at my heels) I marched till I came to the skirt
of the wood, on the side which was next to them; only that one corner of the
wood lay between me and them: here I called softly to Friday, and shewing him a
great tree, which was just at the corner of the wood, I bade him go to the tree,
and bring me word if he could see there plainly what they were doing: he did so,
and came immediately back to me, and told me they might be plainly viewed there;
that they were all about the fire, eating the flesh of one of their prisoners;
and that another lay bound upon the sand, a little from them, whom he said they
would kill next, and which fired the very soul within me. He told me, it was not
one of their nation, but one of the bearded men whom he had told me of, who came
to their country in the boat. I was filled with horror at the very naming the
white-bearded man, and, going to the tree, I saw plainly, by my glass, a white
man, who lay upon the beach of the sea, with his hands and his feet tied with
flags, or things like rushes; and that he was an European, and had clothes on.
There was another tree, and a little thicket beyond it, about fifty yards
nearer to them than the place where I was, which, by going a little way about, I
saw I might come at undiscovered, and that then I should be within half-shot of
them; so I withheld my passion, though I was indeed enraged to the highest
degree; and going back about twenty paces, I got behind some bushes, which held
all the way till I came to the other tree, and then I came to a little rising
ground, which gave me a full view of them, at the distance of about eighty
yards.
I had now not a moment to lose; for nineteen of the dreadful wretches sat
upon the ground all close huddled together, and had just sent the other two to
butcher the poor Christian, and bring him, perhaps limb by limb, to their fire;
and they were stooped down to untie the bands at his feet. I turned to Friday;
"Now, Friday," said I, "do as I bid thee." Friday said, he would. "Then,
Friday," said I, "do exactly as you see me do; fail in nothing." So I set down
one of the muskets and the fowling-piece upon the ground, and Friday did the
like by his; and with the other musket I took my aim at the savages, bidding him
do the like. Then asking him if he was ready, he said, "Yes." "Then fire at
them," said I; and the same moment I fired also.
Friday took his aim so much better than I, that on the side that he shot, he
killed two of them, and wounded three more; and on my side, I killed one, and
wounded two. They were, you may be sure, in a dreadful consternation; and all of
them, who were not hurt, jumped up upon their feet immediately, but did not know
which way to run, or which way to look; for they knew not from whence their
destruction came. Friday kept his eyes close upon me, that, as I had bid him, he
might observe what I did; so as soon as the first shot was made, I threw down
the piece, and took up the fowling-piece, and Friday did the like; he sees me
cock, and present; he did the same again. "Are you ready, Friday?" said I.
"Yes," says he. "Let fly then," said I, "in the name of God;" and with that I
fired again among the amazed wretches, and so did Friday; and as our pieces were
now loaden with what I call swan shot, or small pistol-bullets, we found only
two drop; but so many were wounded, that they ran about yelling and screaming
like mad creatures, all bloody, and miserably wounded most of them; whereof
three more fell quickly after, though not quite dead.
"Now, Friday," said I, laying down the discharged pieces, and taking up the
musket, which was yet loaden, "follow me," said I; which he did, with a deal of
courage; upon which I rushed, out of the wood, and shewed myself, and Friday
close at my foot: as soon as I perceived they saw me, I shouted as loud as I
could, and bade Friday do so too; and running as fast as I could, which by the
way was not very fast, being loaded with arms as I was, I made directly towards
the poor victim, who was, as I said, lying upon the beach, or shore, between the
place where they sat and the sea; the two butchers, who were just going to work
with him, had left him, at the surprise of our first fire, and fled in a
terrible fright to the sea-side, and had jumped into a canoe, and three more of
the rest made the same way: I turned to Friday, and bade him step forwards, and
fire at them; he understood me immediately, and running about forty yards to be
near them, he shot at them, and I thought he had killed them all; for I saw them
all fall on an heap into the boat; though I saw two of them up again quickly:
however, he killed two of them, and wounded the third, so that he lay down in
the bottom of the boat, as if he had been dead.
While my man Friday fired at them, I pulled out my knife, and cut the flags
that bound the poor victim; and loosing his hands and feet I lifted him up, and
asked him in the Portuguese tongue, what he was? He answered in Latin,
_Christianus;_ but was so weak and faint, that he could scarce stand, or speak;
I took my bottle out of my pocket, and gave it him, making signs that he should
drink, which he did; and I gave him a piece of bread, which he ate; then I asked
him, what countryman he was? and he said, _Espagnole_; and, being a little
recovered, let me know, by all the signs he could possibly make, how much he was
in my debt for his deliverance. "Seignior," said I, with as much Spanish as I
could make up, "we will talk afterwards, but we must fight now: if you have any
strength left, take this pistol and sword, and lay about you." He took them very
thankfully, and no sooner had he the arms in his hands, but as if they had put
new vigour into him, he flew upon his murderers like a fury, and had cut two of
them in pieces in an instant; for the truth is, as the whole was a surprise to
them, so the poor creatures were so much frighted with the noise of our pieces,
that they fell down for mere amazement and fear, and had no more power to
attempt their own escape, than their flesh had to resist our shot; and that was
the case of those five that Friday shot in the boat; for as three of them fell
with the hurt they received, so the other two fell with the fright.
I kept my piece in my hand still, without firing, being willing to keep my
charge ready, because I had given the Spaniard my pistol and sword; so I called
to Friday, and bade him run up to the tree from whence we first fired, and fetch
the arms which lay there, that had been discharged, which he did with great
swiftness; and then giving him my musket, I sat down myself to load all the rest
again, and bade them come to me when they wanted. While I was loading these
pieces, there happened a fierce engagement between the Spaniard and one of the
savages, who made at him with one of their great wooden swords, the same weapon
that was to have killed him before, if I had not prevented it: the Spaniard, who
was as bold and as brave as could be imagined, though weak, had fought this
Indian a good while, and had cut him two great wounds on his head; but the
savage, being a stout lusty fellow, closing in with him, had thrown him down,
(being faint) and was wringing my sword out of his hand, when the Spaniard,
though undermost, wisely quitting his sword, drew the pistol from his girdle,
shot the savage through the body, and killed him upon the spot, before I, who
was running to help, could come near him.
Friday, being now left at his liberty, pursued the flying wretches with no
weapon in his hand but his hatchet; and with that he dispatched those three,
who, as I said before, were wounded at first, and fallen, and all the rest he
could come up with; and the Spaniard coming to me for a gun, I gave him one of
the fowling-pieces, with which he pursued two of the savages, and wounded them
both; but as he was not able to run, they both got from him into the wood, where
Friday pursued them, and killed one of them; but the other was too nimble for
him; and though he was wounded, yet he plunged into the sea, and swam with all
his might off to those who were left in the canoe; which three in the canoe,
with one wounded, who we know not whether he died or no, were all that escaped
our hands of one-and-twenty. The account of the rest is as follows:
3 Killed at our shot from the tree. 2 Killed at the next shot. 2 Killed by
Friday in the boat. 2 Killed by ditto, of those at first wounded. 1 Killed by
ditto, in the wood. 3 Killed by the Spaniard. 4 Killed, being found dropt here
and there of their wounds, or killed by Friday in his chase of them. 4 Escaped
in the boat, whereof one wounded, if not dead.
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21 in all.
Those that were in the canoe worked hard to get out of gun-shot; and though
Friday made two or three shot at them, I did not find that he hit any of them:
Friday would fain have had me take one of their canoes, and pursue them; and
indeed I was very anxious about their escape, lest, carrying the news home to
their people, they should come back, perhaps, with two or three hundred of their
canoes, and devour us by mere multitudes; so I consented to pursue them by sea;
and running to one of their canoes, I jumped in, and bade Friday follow me; but
when I was in the canoe, I was surprised to find another poor creature lie there
alive, bound hand and foot, as the Spaniard was, for the slaughter, and almost
dead with fear, not knowing what the matter was; for he had not been able to
look up over the side of the boat, he was tied so hard, neck and heels, and had
been tied so long, that he had really little life in him.
I immediately cut the twisted flags, or rushes, which they had bound him
with, and would have helped him up; but he could not stand, or speak, but
groaned most piteously, believing, it seems still, that he was only unbound in
order to be killed.
When Friday came to him, I bade him speak to him, and tell him of his
deliverance; and pulling out my bottle, made him give the poor wretch a dram,
which, with the news of his being delivered, revived him, and he sat up in the
boat; but when Friday came to hear him speak, and looked in his face, it would
have moved any one to tears, to have seen how Friday kissed him, embraced him,
hugged him, cried, laughed, hallooed, jumped about, danced, sung, then cried
again, wrung his hands, beat his own face and head, and then sung and jumped
about again like a distracted creature. It was a good while before I could make
him speak to me, or tell me what was the matter; but when he came a little to
himself, he told me that it was his father.
It was not easy for me to express how it moved me, to see what ecstasy and
filial affection had worked in this poor savage, at the sight of his father, and
of his being delivered from death; nor indeed can I describe half the
extravagances of his affection after this; for he went into the boat and out of
the boat a great many times: when he went in to him, he would sit down by him,
open his breast, and hold his father's head close to his bosom, half an hour
together, to nourish it: then he took his arms and ankles, which were numbed and
stiff with the binding, and chafed and rubbed them with his hands; and I,
perceiving what the case was, gave him some rum out of my bottle to rub them
with, which did them a great deal of good.
This action put an end to our pursuit of the canoe with the other savages,
who were now gotten almost out of sight; and it was happy for us that we did
not; for it blew so hard within two hours after, and before they could be gotten
a quarter of their way, and continued blowing so hard all night, and that from
the north-west, which was against them, that I could not suppose their boat
could live, or that they ever reached to their own coast.
But to return to Friday: he was so busy about his father, that I could not
find in my heart to take him off for some time: but after I thought he could
leave him a little, I called him to me, and he came jumping and laughing, and
pleased to the highest extreme. Then I asked him, if he had given his father any
bread? He shook his head, and said, "None: ugly dog eat all up self." So I gave
him a cake of bread out of a little pouch I carried on purpose; I also gave him
a dram for himself, but he would not taste it, but carried it to his father: I
had in my pocket also two or three bunches of my raisins, so I gave him a
handful of them for his father. He had no sooner given his father these raisins,
but I saw him come out of the boat, and run away as if he had been bewitched. He
ran at such a rate (for he was the swiftest fellow of his feet that ever I
saw)--I say, he ran at such a rate, that he was out of sight, as it were, in an
instant; and though I called and hallooed too after him, it was all one; away he
went, and in a quarter of an hour I saw him come back again, though not so fast
as he went; and as he came nearer, I found his pace was slacker, because he had
something in his hand.
When he came up to me, I found he had been quite home for an earthen jug, or
pot, to bring his father some fresh water; and that he had get two more cakes or
loaves of bread. The bread he gave me, but the water he carried to his father:
however, as I was very thirsty too, I took a little sip of it: this water
revived his father more than all the rum or spirits I had given him; for he was
just fainting with thirst.
When his father had drank, I called him, to know if there was any water left?
he said, "Yes;" and I bade him give it to the poor Spaniard, who was in as much
want of it as his father; and I sent one of the cakes, that Friday brought, to
the Spaniard too, who was indeed very weak, and was reposing himself upon a
green place, under the shade of a tree, and whose limbs were also very stiff,
and very much swelled with the rude bandage he had been tied with: when I saw
that, upon Friday's coming to him with the water, he sat up and drank, and took
the bread, and began to eat, I went to him, and gave him a handful of raisins:
he looked up in my face with all the tokens of gratitude and thankfulness that
could appear in any countenance; but was so weak, notwithstanding he had so
exerted himself in the fight, that he could not stand upon his feet; he tried to
do it two or three times, but was really not able, his ankles were so swelled
and so painful to him; so I bade him sit still, and caused Friday to rub his
ankles, and bathe them with rum, as he had done his father's.
I observed the poor affectionate creature every two minutes, or perhaps less,
all the while he was here, turned his head about, to see if his father was in
the same place and posture as he left him sitting; and at last he found he was
not to be seen; at which he started up, and, without speaking a word, flew with
that swiftness to him, that one could scarce perceive his feet to touch the
ground as he went: but when he came, he only found he had laid himself down to
ease his limbs: so Friday came back to me presently, and I then spoke to the
Spaniard to let Friday help him up, if he could, and load him to the boat, and
then he should carry him to our dwelling, where I would take care of him: but
Friday, a lusty young fellow, took the Spaniard quite up upon his back, and
carried him away to the boat, and set him down softly upon the side or gunnel of
the canoe, with his feet in the inside of it, and then lifted them quite in, and
set him close to his father, and presently stepping out again, launched the boat
off, and paddled it along the shore faster than I could walk, though the wind
blew pretty hard too; so he brought them both safe into our creek; and leaving
them in the boat, runs away to fetch the other canoe. As he passed me, I spoke
to him, and asked him whither he went? He told me, "Go fetch more boat;" so away
he went, like the wind; for sure never man or horse ran like him, and he had the
other canoe in the creek almost as soon as I got to it by land; so he wafted me
over, and then went to help our new guests out of the boat, which he did; but
they were neither of them able to walk; so that poor Friday knew not what to do.
To remedy this, I went to work in my thought, and calling to Friday to bid
them sit down on the bank while he came to me, I soon made a kind of hand-barrow
to lay them on, and Friday and I carried them up both together upon it between
us; but when we got them to the outside of our wall or fortification, we were at
a worse loss than before; for it was impossible to get them over; and I was
resolved not to break it down: so I set to work again; and Friday and I, in
about two hours time, made a very handsome tent, covered with old sails, and
above that with boughs of trees, being in the space without our outward fence,
and between that and the grove of young wood which I had planted: and here we
made two beds of such things as I had; viz. of good rice-straw, with blankets
laid upon it to lie on, and another to cover them on each bed.
My island was now peopled, and I thought myself very rich in subjects; and it
was a merry reflection which I frequently made, how like a king I looked: first
of all, the whole country was my own mere property; so that I had an undoubted
right of dominion: 2dly, My people were perfectly subjected: I was absolute lord
and lawgiver; they all owed their lives to me, and were ready to lay down their
lives, if there had been occasion for it, for me: it was remarkable too, I had
but three subjects, and they were of three different religions. My man Friday
was a Protestant, his father a Pagan and a cannibal; and the Spaniard was a
Papist: however, I allowed liberty of conscience throughout my dominions: but
this by the way.
As soon as I had secured my two weak rescued prisoners, and given them
shelter, and a place to rest them upon, I began to think of making some
provision for them; and the first thing I did, I ordered Friday to take a
yearling goat, betwixt a kid and a goat, out of my particular flock, to be
killed: then I cut off the hind quarter, and, chopping it into small pieces, I
set Friday to work to boiling and stewing, and made them a very good dish, I
assure you, of flesh and broth; having put some barley and rice also into the
broth; and as I cooked it without doors, (for I made no fire within my inner
wall) so I carried it all into the new tent; and having set a table there for
them, I sat down and ate my dinner also with them; and, as well as I could,
cheered them and encouraged them, Friday being my interpreter, especially to his
father, and indeed to the Spaniard too; for the Spaniard spoke the language of
the savages pretty well.
After we had dined, or rather supped, I ordered Friday to take one of the
canoes, and go and fetch our muskets and other fire-arms, which, for want of
time, we had left upon the place of battle; and the next day I ordered him to go
and bury the dead bodies of the savages, which lay open to the sun, and, would
presently be offensive; and I also ordered him to bury the horrid remains of
their barbarous feast, which I knew were pretty much, and which I could not
think of doing myself; nay, I could not, bear to see them, if I went that way:
all which he punctually performed, and defaced the very appearance of the
savages being there; so that when I went again, I could scarce know where it
was, otherwise than by the corner of the wood pointing to the place.
I then began to enter into a little conversation with my two new subjects;
and first I set Friday to inquire of his father, what he thought of the escape
of the savages in that canoe? and whether he might expect a return of them with
a power too great for us to resist? His first opinion was, that the savages in
the boat never could live out the storm which blew that night they went off, but
must of necessity be drowned or driven south to those other shores, where they
were as sure to be devoured, as they were to be drowned if they were cast away;
but as to what they would do if they came safe on shore, he said, he knew not;
but it was his opinion, that they were so dreadfully frighted with the manner of
being attacked, the noise, and the fire, that he believed they would tell their
people they were all killed by thunder and lightning, and not by the hand of
man; and that the two which appeared (viz. Friday and I) were two heavenly
spirits or furies come down to destroy them, and not men with weapons. This, he
said, he knew, because he heard them all cry out so in their language to one
another; for it was impossible for them to conceive that a man should dart fire,
and speak thunder, and kill at a distance, without lifting up the hand, as was
done now. And this old savage was in the right; for, as I understood since by
other hands, the savages of that part never attempted to go over to the island
afterwards. They were so terrified with the accounts given by these four men,
(for it seems they did escape the sea) that they believed, whoever went to that
enchanted island, would be destroyed with fire from the gods.
This, however, I knew not, and therefore was under continual apprehensions
for a good while, and kept always upon my guard, I and all my army; for as there
were now four of us, I would have ventured a hundred of them fairly in the open
field at any time.
In a little time, however, no more canoes appearing, the fear of their coming
wore off, and I began to take my former thoughts of a voyage to the main into
consideration, being likewise assured by Friday's father, that I might depend
upon good usage from their nation on his account, if I would go.
But my thoughts were a little suspended, when I had a serious discourse with
the Spaniard, and when I understood, that there were sixteen more of his
countrymen and Portuguese, who having been cast away, and made their escape to
that side, lived there at peace indeed with the savages, but were very sore put
to it for necessaries, and indeed for life: I asked him all the particulars of
their voyage; and found they were a Spanish ship, bound from the Rio de la Plata
to the Havanna, being directed to leave their loading there, which was chiefly
hides and silver, and to bring back what European goods they could meet with
there; that they had five Portuguese seamen on board, whom they took out of
another wreck; that five of their own men were drowned when first the ship was
lost; and that these escaped through infinite dangers and hazards, and arrived
almost starved on the cannibal coast, where they expected to have been devoured
every moment.
He told me, they had some arms with them, but they were perfectly useless,
for that they had neither powder nor ball, the washing of the sea having spoiled
all their powder, but a little which they used at their first landing to provide
themselves some food.
I asked him what he thought would become of them there; and if they had
formed no design of making any escape? He said, they had many consultations
about it, but that having neither vessel, nor tools to build one, or provisions
of any kind, their counsels always ended in tears and despair.
I asked him, how be thought they would receive a proposal from me, which
might tend towards an escape; and whether, if they were all here, it might not
be done? I told him with freedom, I feared mostly their treachery and ill usage
of me, if I put my life in their hands; for that gratitude was no inherent
virtue in the nature of man; nor did men always square their dealings by the
obligations they had received, so much as they did by the advantages they
expected: I told him, it would be very hard, that I should be the instrument of
their deliverance, and that they should afterwards make me their prisoner in New
Spain, where an Englishman was certain to be made a sacrifice, what necessity,
or what accident soever, brought him thither; and that I had rather be delivered
up to the savages, and be devoured alive, than fall into the merciless claws of
the priests, and be carried into the Inquisition. I added, that otherwise I was
persuaded, if they were all here, we might, with so many hands, build a bark
large enough to carry us all away either to the Brasils southward, or to the
islands or Spanish coast northward: but that if in requital they should, when I
had put weapons into their hands, carry me by force among their own people, I
might be ill used for my kindness to them, and make my case worse than it was
before.
He answered, with a great deal of candour and ingenuity, that their condition
was so miserable, and they were so sensible of it, that he believed they would
abhor the thought of using any man unkindly that should contribute to their
deliverance; and that, if I pleased, he would go to them with the old man, and
discourse with them about it, and return again, and bring me their answer: that
he would make conditions with them upon their solemn oath, that they would be
absolutely under my leading, as their commander and captain; and that they
should swear upon the holy Sacraments and Gospel, to be true to me, and go to
such Christian country as I should agree to, and no other; and to be directed
wholly and absolutely by my orders, till they were landed safely in such country
as I intended; and that he would bring a contract from them under their hands
for that purpose.
Then he told me, he would first swear to me himself, that he would never stir
from me as long as he lived, till I gave him order; and that he would take my
side to the last drop of blood, if there should happen the least breach of faith
among his countrymen.
He told me, they were all of them very civil honest men, and they were under
the greatest distress imaginable, having neither weapons or clothes, nor any
food, but at the mercy and discretion of the savages; out of all hopes of ever
returning to their own country: and that he was sure, if I would undertake their
relief, they would live and die by me.
Upon these assurances, I resolved to venture to relieve them, if possible,
and to send the old savage and the Spaniard over to them to treat: but when he
had gotten all things in readiness to go, the Spaniard himself started an
objection, which had so much prudence in it on one hand, and so much sincerity
on the other hand, that I could not but be very well satisfied in it; and, by
his advice, put off the deliverance of his comrades for at least half a year.
The case was thus:
He had been with us now about a month; during which time I had let him see in
what manner I had provided, with the assistance of Providence, for my support;
and he saw evidently what stock of corn and rice I had laid up; which, as it was
more, than sufficient for myself, so it was not sufficient, at least without
good husbandry, for my family, now it was increased to number four: but much
less would it be sufficient, if his countrymen, who were, as he said, fourteen
still alive, should come over; and least of all would it be sufficient to
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